My life is falling apart. I don't know where I've been lately, but it hasn't been good. As I sit in my classroom, I look across the room at the one thing that can piece everything back together.
What I'm standing on is sinking in
And I don't have a clue how to get off of it
But when I look at you there is hope
It's like you see the sadness in my eyes
You read the blue the lines
You can be the one to hold me when I wanna cry
He never notices me. But I notice him. I notice the way he walks into class every day. I notice how he cares about others. He always wants to help. I wish he'd notice me. I could use his help now.
Underneath this smilemy world is slowly cavin' in
All the while
I'm hangin' on cause that is all I know
Could you be the one to save me
from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole
I've been hidin' out for miles
Underneath this smile
Yeah
"Hi Stan," I say, in hopes that he knows who I am
"Um… hello," He says, and his friend Eric Cartman snickers. Does Stan even know who I am?
"I'm Wendy," I tell him. Now he knows.
"I- I know. I'm St- Stan," He says. He knew who I am! I feel bubbly inside. I'm so happy. Stan Marsh knows my name! I'm back at my seat. I hear snickers behind me.
"Hey Wendy, how's your boyfriend?" Craig asks.
"What do you mean?" I ask nervously.
"Stan. You like Stan, don't you?" Craig's friend says. How could they have found out? The only person that knows is---
I have walked this earth with broken bones I've been keepin' secrets under all these lightsBut when you're around my defenses go
You don't let me run away from you
You don't let me twist and turn the truth
It feels as if I'm naked when you're standing in the room
"Bebe how could you?" I ask her angrily.
"How could I what?" she asks innocently
"You told everyone that I like Stan!" I say.
"Oh, yeah. It was an accident. Sorry!" she says, shrugging.
Sorry? Why does she think sorry will help? Everyone knows I like Stan. What if he knows? Maybe that's why he seemed so nervous today! I can't believe it. I walk up to him at the end of the day with tears in my eyes.
Underneath this smile my world is slowly cavin' inAll the while I'm hangin' on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me
from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole
I've been hidin' out for miles
Underneath this smile
Underneath this smile
Oh yeah
"Stan?" I say, as he turns his head from Kyle and Cartman.
"Is it true? What they're saying?" he asks.
I nod, scared of what he'll think. He looks at me in surprise, and then disgust. He storms angrily out of the room.
What I'm standing on is sinking inIt's pretty suckish. Sorry I wasn't feeling that into it today, but I had a good idea, I just screwed it up by writing it down.
