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Warning: Contains M/M slash and MPREG as well as past MPREG. Don't like, don't read!

Chapter One

Given up something to the person that they felt great love for had to be incredibly hard. Once the heart was stolen, it couldn't be taken back and knowing that Sam was off somewhere in the pit didn't help Dean's case one bit. It had been six months since Sam was gone and he couldn't stop thinking about how he kind of promised him to move on with Lisa and forget the things in the past.

He was happy that he didn't when he observed the person working behind the counter. He could only imagine how it could be Gabriel but he didn't have any of his angelic powers or memories despite anything Dean could observe and yet he was still the mischievous man/angel he had met. Rolling his eyes at the fact that he was smiling his way, Dean suppressed a smile. Looking at the time he quickly groaned and threw a twenty on the table. At his inquiring look, Dean quirked an eyebrow.

"Nephews man. Can't really abandon the little guy. I said I'd help him with the new Lego set once I got back and my uncle won't let him start on it until I watch him."

He had two hours until the kid was angry with him. He would pout and cry "De" like it was the only name he knew but he was known to say fuck when his papa was around. He was proud to say that Emmanuel's first word had been fuck thanks to him. Seeing Gabe seem to hesitate, Dean smiled.

"I'll show you a picture of the little guy. The poor kid looks so much like his papa but has some of his daddy's best features," Dean was quite saddened at mentioning his dead brother but still kept himself from showing any emotion. That he was good at. The guy wouldn't have to know that it was just Cas, him, and Bobby trying to teach the kid right.

"Sounds like a great kid," Gabe observed from the photos.

Dean masked a ghost of a smile at that. He kept himself from saying that it was because the brat had a mentor before he was even out of the womb and continued with his best times with the kid.

"Makes me almost want one. ALMOST though because I know my brother went through a whole load of pain with his. I'm more than happy with adoption."

"And an eighteen year old Asian girl would be-"

"Someone I'd take to a motel room for a night."

He grinned.

"Maybe you could meet him sometime." Dean invited.

Gabe seemed to think about that.

"My shifts over in fifteen minutes…"

"Perfect, the more the merrier and Emmanuel will stop crying over his Lego set and how doing the actual think has been delayed over and over again."

"Fwuck."

Cas sighed and quickly, but gently pulled his son's face towards him and popped him in the mouth for that. It wasn't hard but Emmanuel still burst out into tears whenever Cas punished him. He glared and the small child crossed his arms angrily making Cas realize that this was all an authority issue.

"Emmanuel if you want to even think of seeing Heaven with papa again, you will be good to remember that you don't swear. That is bad." Cas pointed a finger at him and the monster, knowing how much fun it was to mess with his papa, bit it.

"No," he shouted and Cas just sighed.

Beside him, Bobby was laughing and didn't even bother hiding behind the fact. Cas turned to glare his way and Bobby just snorted in amusement.

"Put him in time out Cas. It ain't gonna hurt him to punish him once in a while and the way you go at it, you act like he's going to break."

"Bobby he's my son okay. I can discipline my son any way I see fit and it really isn't up to you. Emmanuel hates the time out chair and-"

"Ain't that the point?" Bobby rolled his eyes. "Listen, I know that you miss him. You miss him and you continuously act like the world is over even though it's only been six months. Sam is gone Cas and you can't replace that void by being like that with your boy. If he's bad he needs to know why he was wrong and you can't teach him that if you pop him in the mouth and then hug him tightly for a good twenty minutes-"

"I'm reminded every damn day that Sam is never coming back Bobby!" Cas paused and picked his nine month old and held him tightly. "I know he needs discipline and I hand it out accordingly. I don't do it to hurt him but because I love him. I also know that he is acting out because his daddy is gone. So I can't just stick him in time out because Sam was important to him as much as he is too me."

Bobby sighed but conceded.

He saw what losing a parent had done to Dean but Emmanuel was still very young and didn't understand. He very well could be acting out and Bobby didn't see much difference in the way Cas should dole out the punishment. In a way he was surprised that Cas came out as quite the good dad in these circumstances. It crossed his mind several times that Cas was the equivalent to someone clinically depressed but he was definitely holding his own, so to speak.

"I'm sorry Cas. I never did expect this to happen to anyone and you know what they say don't cha?" Cas shook his head and Bobby let a small smile fall onto his face. "Love lasts forever. You don't lose that love just because the one you feel it for is gone and don't get me wrong on this but if it really is true love, it'll never fade."

"Of course it won't because I still miss Sam. I-" Whatever Cas was going to say was interrupted by the door opening and Dean coming through with a small bag of cookies.

It was the person behind Dean that caught Cas by surprise.

"Gabriel?" he asked in disbelief.

"I'm sorry do I know you? Anyways I've become a good friend of Dean's here; he's decided to let me come with him to see his fun loving nephew."

Cas nodded before turning to Dean. It was obvious that Dean was happy and Cas felt happy for him. He deserved to be after everything that went his way. He also felt a smidge stab of jealousy since Cas couldn't be with the one he loved so much but quickly quelled it down. Now wasn't the time nor place for that and he figured it wouldn't change much in the end. Dean was the luckier of the Winchesters though. That much was obvious and he hadn't been cursed since birth it seemed like Sam was. Sam who was more likely getting tortured for his part of 'making it right'.

"You must be the kid's ever loving daddy?"

Cas shook his head.

"I'm the one that made him. The daddy has been gone for six months now-"Cas cut himself off and tipped his head sideways. While Gabriel gave him a weird look, Cas just sighed and turned to Dean.

"I have to go. Emmanuel behave for your uncle or else I'll trash the Legos." Emmanuel held his arms out but Cas was already gone.

Nobody expected Emmanuel to start crying as soon as Cas left and Dean swore before picking him up. The small child continued to wail exceedingly, not calming the tiniest bit down and Gabriel tried helping out as well. He was fine whilst his father was here, so Gabriel couldn't understand why he was having a huge fit now. Bobby quickly plucked him from them and handed him anything that could appease him. When none of them worked, he quickly went to the old cassette player and popped in AC/DC.

After that the nine month old finally simpered down to small whimpers.

"Why are you lot surprised? He misses his daddy and his papa has to work. If you were him you'd probably never want to your other parent out of your sight!" he handed Emmanuel off to Dean before sitting behind his desk and cracking a book.

Gabriel raised an eyebrow and was about to voice his confusion when Dean quickly shot a hand out to stop him.

"Don't. He's-just don't."

Gabriel nodded.

"Bet the kiddo wants to play with the Legos."

Emmanuel looked up and smiled at him, showing a couple of teeth that were coming through to the surface.

After a moment Dean nodded.

Cas was back later to observe his sleeping son and came just in time to catch him awake. The big blue puppy dog eyes widened in surprised happiness and he outstretched his arms, silently begging to be picked up. Cas found he couldn't deny the child that knowing he probably missed him more than anything when he was out working and couldn't be with him.

Smiling a tiny smile, he picked him up and sat down with him in the rocking chair. Emmanuel beamed happily and snuggled into his arm. Cas smiled even more realizing how much he would have loved Sam to be able to see him now. He was growing up fast before his eyes and it wasn't fair that he got to see as much as he could and yet Sam wasn't. This was their child and it was so unfair. Bringing a hand through his baby fine sandy brown hair, he hugged Emmanuel to him and kept on rocking.

His thoughts turned to the war that was happening in heaven and thought about how Raphael and Phanuel were turning to the averted apocalypse as a solution to bring God back home to them. They were losing faith in their father and at one point Cas would have been with them but not now. Not when God was the reason he had this perfect little guy here with him. He was a blessing and a sign that God did not abandon them. Many times he thought he was either going to lose either or but it turned out he wouldn't lose Sam to any illness or incident. No he loss Sam because of the selfless sacrifice and one he didn't want to happen. That wasn't God's fault though, that was Sam's free will.

Emmanuel was going to have it tougher though and Cas really couldn't stand to see the young child so upset. Hugging him towards him again, Cas remembered the conversation he had had with Bobby earlier today. He was right though. He knew that his kid was really well behaved and the times he wasn't wasn't because of the need to rebel or even a common child tantrum. Emmanuel missed Sam just as much if not more than Cas missed his boyfriend and he could understand.

He wanted him home too.

A/N: Please review and let me know what you think so far.