What if we could have been something more? Through the deep, deep, days of longing for your subtle touch, my heart aches when I see you glance into the eyes of another. Hiding this part of me, I guess no one will really see this side of Saaya ever. Why do I chase after the wrong guys? I just want to be loved but why can't they ever look my way? But more importantly, why do I always come back to you when you love her?

It's tiring to do the same thing over and over again. I always get this boost of confidence early in the morning when I see you graciously walking past me. My heart beats erratically and I just want you to notice me somehow. Maybe that's why this loud, overconfident personality spills out of me. This love is just so strong that I can't contain it.

Of course, it doesn't help my emotions when I go against her. I know that I do stupid things to get attention but that's the only way I can let myself be known. Before she transferred here, it was my school and my popularity. Then she came and took that away from me but she also won you over.

I just wanted you.

My sister is more arrogant and confident than I am. At home, I'm someone new that nobody has seen before but me. All I can really depend on is my piano but I'm not perfect on it. This side of me is much quieter and delicate that what is really shown. Would you fall in love with this me instead? Or would you even notice at all…?

"Miss Fortune, Miss Fortune! That should be your new name." my sister sneered.

I knew she was being sarcastic.

Instead of being this person with confidence and fortune, I'm someone with misfortune. Turning my head to stare out the window, I watched the sun go down as my sister kept picking at me. I guess I don't know what the definition of perfection is, if it even exists for that matter. I can't be the perfect girl like her so that he can fall in love with me instead.

I'm flawed.

And yet I still act presumptuous at school but that's okay because that's how I'll be known to everyone. If they love me and at least acknowledge me in this way, then I'll continue to act this way. It's only natural that I do so.

Looking to other guys for comfort, I'm stupid. I still love you but I know that this is unrequited. Maybe all of my love choices will be this way.

I guess I'm just doomed with misfortune and I'm okay with that, I promise.

So basically this is the side of Saaya that no one is able to see... ignore her annoying personality and you'll see a different girl underneath it all.