"Get away from me! I swear, I'm gonna kill you! I'll die before I'll do what you want!" I screamed in fear, chasing away from the looming head of Chris McLean.
"But don't you see, Gwen? I don't have to kill you! You're already dead aren't you? All the seasons of Total Drama are just a distraction, a distraction from your past, your present, your future. All the killing has been done. You have been destroyed in every possible way. You know that your life is void that you're trapped in. And you'll never be able to get out."
"NOOOOOO!" I woke up screaming. I was panting and sweat was rolling down my forehead. I needed to stop having these nightmares. They followed me throughout my life, every night I was tortured by them, something that's been happening since I was little.
They were awful and I always told myself they weren't true, they weren't true, they weren't true. But they were. I just didn't realize it. But all the sleepless nights, I guess they changed me. They changed me into someone I didn't want to be. But over time I realized, I didn't even care anymore. They could change me if they wanted. It didn't even matter.
. . .
"Gwen, you were my FAVORITE contestant on Total Drama!"
"Gwen, you and Trent were so perfect together, why'd you break up?"
"Duncan is soooo cute, can you get me together with him"
A horde of fangirls were following me at school, begging me to tell them about my time on Total Drama Island.
"I swear, if you don't get the fuck away from me, I will personally kill you all." I snapped at them.
It wasn't that I was generally a mean, cruel person, but I was so sick of all these people who tried to become friends with me since I competed on Total Drama. I never really had a lot of friends before Total Drama, since I was more of an introvert, and I was determined to keep things exactly the way things were before the island. I stuck to my true friends, and I knew my only true friends at this damned school were Marilyn, Pixie Corpse, and Reaper.
After all my time at Wawanakwa, where I was put in challenges that were so dangerous I don't know how people weren't killed, I've got to admit I think I've made some life-long friends there.
Bridgette and Leshawna are probably the best friends I've ever had. Honestly, even though we haven't talked in a while, I know they'll always be there for me, which I can't really say about anybody else in the world.
Courtney is also a friend of mine. We had to work our way around some really rough patches, but we've finally made it through. She is really uptight which can get really annoying, and I don't trust her as much as Bridge and Leshawna, but she is still definitely a friend of mine.
But… then there's Trent. Apparently it's a pretty well-known fact that we dated, since apparently the entire freaking world knows. I don't even know what to say about him… except I don't regret at all the time we spent together. He was probably the best boyfriend I could've asked for, except I didn't realize it at the time. It's not that I still have feelings for him or anything, but he and I have remained friends throughout the seasons, and I really appreciate that.
. . .
I needed to pick up my brother from school, right after school let out. He could easily walk home as he had for many years, but when I got a car when I was seventeen, I wanted my brother to be a little bit more like the other kids at his school.
"Hey, Gwen!" my little brother greeted me as he climbed into my car. He was wearing stupid chains around his neck and his pants were sagging.
"You've got to be kidding me." I leaned over and pulled the chains off his neck.
"Hey! Gwen! These are my new cool threads!" he said angrily.
"This is ridiculous, kid, stop trying to be all gangster. YOU'RE NOT. Get over it. I don't care how cool you think you are, and how cool you think this is, but it's stupid. You're being an imbecile." I knew the second I uttered those words that I had gone too far.
"Stop being such a bitch. You are the worst sister anybody could ever ask for. I wouldn't want even my worst enemy to have you as their sister." He snapped at me.
Needless to say, we spent the entire car ride home in silence.
. . .
I really did feel like talking to someone, and since my brother was avoiding me, I decided I would give Courtney a call.3
"Hey, Courtney!" I said as enthusiastically as I could. She hated it when I wasn't peppy enough to her, so honestly, I don't even know how we're friends.
"Can't talk. Going to a school meeting. Bye." Courtney hung up.
Wow. And people wonder why no one liked Courtney the first season. Nobody had the chance to get to know her well besides Duncan, and she has the most repelling personality when you first meet her.
I decided I would text Bridgette and Leshawna.
Gwen: Hey guys!
Bridgette: Hey, Gwen!
Leshawna: Hey girl! What's up? We haven't talked in a while.
Gwen: Nothing much, I'm just really bored. My stupid brother is all mad at me, and won't talk to me, so I kind of wanted to talk to somebody. I tried calling Courtney, but she sort of blew me off.
Leshawna: I still don't know what's up with that girl. I don't know why you're friends with her, Gwen. Personally, I think she's been evil since day 1 at Wawanakwa.
Bridgette: Hey, she isn't all bad. I personally liked Courtney.
Gwen: It's not a big deal guys, I think she was in a rush. So Bridgette, how's things with you and Geoff?
Leshawna: Still making out every chance you get?
Bridgette: Actually, no. I think that now we're sort of discovering each other. Before, we never really truly looked at what each other was like, but now I'm starting to see the real him. And I like it just the same as before.
Leshawna: AWWWW! Gwen, how are the nightmares lately? Have you been having them? How are you dealing?
Gwen: Still been having them. Dealing with them just the same. I actually have to go. Bye guys.
The nightmares. I had actually almost forgotten about them. But, I probably never will forget about them. After all, every night was haunted with them, so how could I forget about them?
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