Hello my fellow readers. This is my new story as you can see. I am now on holiday and will be updating more often. Meaning that Cadet Clary and my oneshots will be updated soon. I am soooooo sorry for the wait. I can't even explain or express how sorry I am. But just please note that this wait will hopefully not happen again. Not this long.

Anyway i have a few things to ask you before you go and read this first chapter. Feel free to PM me or review your answers...

1. What idea do you guys (and girls) have for my other story Cadet Clary? I am having a very difficult time coming up with ideas. I could really use your help and my followers and readers.

2. What other oneshot ideas do you have? I am working on the one that was requested by Lightworm for Life and it is coming together quite nicely to say so myself but you will be the judge of that later on. But I could really use more ideas.

3. How often would you like updates? This one is important. Letting me now can help me make time in my schedule when I go to school. I will personally stay up until three in the morning making an update if I have later on.

4. Can you guys give me some constructive criticism on my writing skills. I think it will help improve my writing and then I will have better stuff for you to read.

Well those are all the questions I have for now. If you guys have any questions for me, as i said before. Feel free to PM me or review and i will get back to you with an answer. OMG this is like the longest A/N I have written. Well yay, new record. Not that I should be proud. Should I ???

Anyway, enjoy the new story and don't forget to answer my questions, I beg you. Really. ; ). ; ).

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I close the door and lean against it. I am totally drained. My legs give out and i fall to the floor looking up to the ceiling. Tears are rolling down my face with no chance of stopping or even slowing down. The one word going though my head is a word that no one wants to encounter but will all face eventually, but some just too soon.

Dead. I stood over the table and mentally cursed at myself. When i got here i stood over the table ready to save this man's life but when I got there and i had the tools in my hand my mind just went blank. And now he can never breathe again. Never have a family. I wanted to become a doctor to give people a family that i know i will never have. Maybe i am just not cut out to be a doctor. What was i thinking. I can't even look after myself properly and now i want to go out into the world and try and save lives.

My name is Clary, but it might as well be Cinderella as my life could be a replica of her's the only difference will be that i will never find my Prince Charming as sadly in the real world they do not exist. I have two step sisters, a wicked step mother and a ghost of a father. He has literally forgotten that i ever existed. So as you can see i am all on my own. And not doing so well either.

My day consists of getting up early, making breakfast for the bitches and then i am off to school . More like hell hole two.

I am a complete outcast at school. An unnoticed little midget who no one cares for. Another thing that makes a total nerd and weirdo is that i am in the advanced classes. In one school year for everyone else i learn two grades in one. It's a lot of hard work. But that means i can finish school and college earlier. I actually already started with college. Half the year had already passed and i finished my first year of college. The teachers thought i was ready for the task of performing an operation on a real human being rather then the fake ones we practice on. It was suppose to be a simple one but then there was a bad accident and my name got mixed up and they put me in the emergency section. I was so not ready for the pressure of someones life to be in my hands. And now that life can no longer live. And what do i do. I come and sulk.

Wow, i am so pathetic. Just like they all say. Pathetic. Useless. Waste of space. Why am i still alive?

I ask myself that question everyday of my life.

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