Reflections of Love – Chapter 1
Learn You Inside Out
"How is coming back as a resident?" asked Richard
"Sounds good." Meredith answered
"Did you have a good time?" he asked
"Yeah, I went to honeymoon with Cristina" she said
"Uhh" he said uncomfortable
She left smirking letting Richard confused
"Hey, Grey" greeted Alex inside resident's looker room
"Hey Alex. How things have been?" she opening her new locker and moving in her stuff
"Fine. Hawaii?" he asked
"Hot." She answered
"Do we have grocery at home?" she asked after changing on her scrubs
"I think Izzie bought yesterday. Not sure." He said
"Mer" he asked
"What's going on Alex?" she asked feeling his voice unsure
"I have to tell you something" he said
"Spill it out Alex"
"Your half sister is among the new interns" he said straightly
"How come?" she asked
"I was hitting on her and she told me she is Lexie Grey. Some minutes later she asked me if I knew you, I nodded and she told that you were her sister. She is hot"
"Alex, keep away from her. I don't have any sister" she said slamming her locker door and leaving the room
She headed to the nurse station where she was supposed to meet her own interns within 10 minutes.
"Welcome back, my favorite dirty mistress" he said approaching her
"Hey Mark" she said
"I heard you are in the market again" he smirked
"Seriously. You are can't be serious Mark. Do you really want to get a scar in this goodness' face?" said her giggling
"No. In fact I was thinking maybe we could give some action to this club of us. We would do a great team Grey"
"No. No sleeping with inappropriate men this time." She said trying to avoid eye contact.
Everybody in the hospital knew she and Derek broke up. She went to Hawaii the day after the wedding and he traveled to New York to meet his family. He came back three days before her and heard the news about her trip.
They have talked just after she declared Burke and Cristina's wedding was over. It was quick but enough
"So we are over?" he asked
"I guess we are" she said lowering her head
"Why Meredith? We love each other so why it has to be so complicated?" he asked
"I'm not enough for you Derek I never was. I don't need you to say you don't want to breath for me neither to say me that meeting a woman in the bar was the highlight of your week. It makes clear as water that I'm not enough for you and I will stop fighting to be what you expect" she said while tears fell from her eyes to the floor
"Meredith, you drowned and I don't…" said him but she cut him off
"Stop Derek. It was an accident. You were married and you chose your wife, then you chose to be alone and I see you just choosing someone in the bar. So let's spare both of us from the pain. Sometimes love is not enough" said her leaving to look for Cristina
"Grey, Hills, Smithson, Thompson" Alex called as 3 guys and Lexie met him
"I'm Dr Karev and I will be your resident. Take your pagers and follow me" he said
"Adams; Burton, O'Malley and Smith" Meredith called. "I'm Dr Grey and I will be your resident. Here are your pagers. I will show you the hospital and explain you some rules. Please follow me" she said
Derek was looking at her from the stairwell. He thought she would make a great resident as she has a way to teach and to lead people around her. Mark joined his once best friend.
"Any hope?" he asked
"Not sure" Derek sighed shaking his head and leaving upstairs
"Hey" said Callie approaching to Mark
"Hey Callie" he said grinning his McSteamy grin "Congratulations for the chief position" he completed
"Thanks" she said looking down
"What's up Torres?" he asked seeing sadness in her eyes
"My marriage is over" she said wiping her tears
"O'Malley got the big luck and didn't know how to cherish it. His loss. You deserve better" he said trying to comfort his friend. Callie was one of the few people that cared about him and didn't judge his manwhore behavior. He cared about her because she was just a great person. Like Meredith she was understanding and supportive.
"Yeah, maybe you are right but I love him Mark" she said now letting the tears fall
"Shhhh. It will pass. I know it hurts but it will pass and you will get something much better." He said
"Thank you" she nodded
"But until there if you want me to comfort you. My room is the same" he said smirking
Callie looked straight to him and shook her head
"Seriously Sloan" she said leaving
The day passed quickly. It was good to come to work Meredith thought. Her interns weren't any geniuses but at least she wasn't with her sister. Lexie tried to talk to Meredith in the middle of a trauma. Meredith couldn't believe how bad her timing was. She avoided her and Derek all the day and finally she was going home successful in her escape
She was in the resident's locker when she felt somebody looking to her. She turned to the door to see Derek stood there staring at her. She tried to ignore his presence but he made it very noticeable
"How was your first day as resident?" he asked getting close to her
"Fine. My interns aren't that bad" she said without look to him
"That's good. I heard your sister is among them" he said
"So I heard. I think she is with Karev but I'm not sure" she said locking her locker
"How was Hawaii?" he asked as she put her belongings in her purse
"Fine. Well I should be going. See you tomorrow" said her hanging her purse on her shoulder and heading to the door
He purposely blocked her way and she lowered her head "Derek, I need to go" she said
"Where are you going?" he asked
"Home, I need to unpack my things and do the laundry." She said without look into him
"Meredith" he said slipping his hand over her arm
"Please Derek let me go. We don't have anything to talk. We are done if it is why you are holding me here" she said stepping from one side to the other trying to leave
He grabbed her both arms and leaned over her as she begged "Please Derek, don't make it harder than it already is" said her
"Did you hear to her" Alex asked behind him
"I guess this is none of your business Dr Karev" Derek said
"And I guess Meredith made herself clear" Alex told
"Okay" Derek said releasing Meredith to go
She quickly left with tears in her eyes
"Give her some space and time Shepherd. It is the only way she can heal what you broke." Said Alex turning to reach Meredith.
Derek nodded and turned away also to the opposite side of the hallway
"Meredith" Alex called her out
"Thank you" said her hyperventilating
"It is alright. Breathe, slow, deep, breathe." He said holding her hand tight
"Thank you Alex. I'm sorry to involve you on this" she said trying to breathe
"You didn't involve me. Shepherd is the one who owns apologies to you." He said
"Let's go home" he told after she recovered her breath
Alex had always felt connect to Meredith. Somehow they were reflections of each other and he grew to love her even more since he moved in her house. They were truly good friends. He would never bond like Izzie and George but he looked over Meredith and he knew that she would do the same for him.
They arrived at home and Izzie was waiting for Meredith because now George and Callie had split and he was having a hard time about repeating his internship.
"I told you this was gonna happen" Izzie said as Meredith entered the house
"What's up?" Meredith asked
"George and Callie split and now he has nowhere to go. We've been looking for a place for almost one week as he can't afford to live in the hotel anymore and he can't move in back here because Alex took his bedroom" she said really pissed
"He can move in if he wants. We can figure things out" Meredith said
"No Meredith he can't. George needs space and he can't get it with Alex around." Izzie said
Alex totally ignored the conversation and went upstairs
"So what you want me to do? To kick him out? I'm not going to do this Iz, he is being a good friend to me. I like he living here" Meredith confessed
"No, I will move out. George and I found this crap apartment but it was everything we got. I will keep looking for something better and until there we will live with the cockroaches" Izzie said disappointed
"I think Cristina is leaving Burke's apartment. Maybe you should talk to her" Meredith said trying to help
"Her apartment has only one room Meredith, how we are supposed to live in one-room apartment?" Izzie said very angry "anyway, I'm packing my stuff and I will probably leave in the weekend." She completed
"I'm sorry things went this way" Meredith said very sad
"You chose Evil Spawn over me and George" Izzie said
"No Izzie, I chose nobody, you are the ones that don't want Alex around and this is why I offered you both to live here because I don't want to choose." Said Meredith defensively
"Whatever Meredith" said Izzie leaving
Meredith already had much in her mind and what she need the least was a fight with Izzie about Alex. Especially about Alex. She felt like she could be herself around him. She only felt this way about him and Cristina. Like she didn't need to do anything else. Like she was enough. Mark also seemed to understand her and accept her like she was but his past with Derek makes hard for her to get closer to Sloan.
She ate something and headed to her room. She decided to take a shower and while the bathtub was filled she took off her clothes and sat in the little bench of her private bathroom thinking about Derek. She was wrapped in her towel when she heard someone knocking the door of her bedroom. She thought that it was probably Izzie trying to make up for their fight.
"Come in, I'm in the bathroom" she said
Her tub was already filled and she hung her towel in the stand and entered the tub as she heard the bathroom door opening. She was about to sit down when she heard Alex yell "Grey!!" as he turned away
"Alex" she said frightened "What are you doing here?" she said quickly submerging her body into the water
"I came to check on you. You said I could come in. I didn't imagine you were naked!" he said pissed
"I thought you were Izzie." She said embarrassed
"She left I don't think she is sleeping over tonight" he said calmer
"You can turn, I'm covered by the bubbles" she said
He turned around to see her. She had a knot in the top of her head with her bangs falling softly over her face. She looked tired but amazingly beautiful. He remembered when he first met her he noticed how beautiful she was. She was natural. She didn't need make up or to make her hair. He was just beautiful. Her skin seemed smooth just like velvet and he surprisingly felt this heart beat faster when he saw her in the bathtub
"I just came to say that if I'm causing you trouble I can move out. I don't plan to spend the rest of my life here." He said
"You didn't cause anything. It is Izzie. You know her. She overreacts. She will get over this. I told her she can stay and also does George but she is the one who doesn't want to stay. Don't worry you are not causing me any trouble." She said "Except for seeing me naked" she said giggling
Her giggle was infectious and he loved to hear it. It remembered him his younger sister.
"Okay. See you tomorrow" said him leaving
"Alex" she called him out
He turned around again and she said "thank you"
He just nodded and left
Learn you inside out is a Lifehouse song
A/N: Meredith and Alex are my favorite characters of GA and although I'm a huge MD shipper I just love Meredith. I think she could make a good pairing with Alex and Mark but mainly Alex. As there is a lack of MerAlex stories I decided to start one to feed my hunger for them. This one will address more the other characters than LEGENDS my MD fic. I hope you like it. I will provide more details of how things changed since after Cristina's failed wedding as for example why Callie and George broke up.
Hope you like it. I will build A/M very slowand I hope it will be magical. Reviews are welcomed ;-)