In The Shadows
I do not own any part of camp rock; these are only my ideas.
I tugged at my dress out of pure nervousness standing under the blinking lights that cascaded over the gymnasium room.
I tried to avoid them, avoid my eyes from lingering in their direction, forcing myself; but it didn't work.
There they stood, an image of perfection swaying to the music. Ugh, and there; he stood swaying with her; Shane Gray.
she was beautiful; I was pretty.
She was flawless; I got pimples.
She was an angel; I was a good girl.
She was top of her class; I was smart.
She was an image of perfection; I was 'girl next door'
She had Shane Gray; I didn't.
She; Alex Russo, was my best friend.
I know it sounds like the typical sob story, the tragic friend lost in her "frenemys" shadow. Well, that's wrong. Alex is truly my best friend, even if she wasn't pretty, smart, or perfect she wasn't the head cheerleader that used you for a moment when she needs you and then throws you away like a Kleenex, she is always there. Maybe that's the worst thing about her is that she's not the mean friend, I can't hate her, even if I tried, its impossible. Ive loved Shane Gray, loved him ever since he rang my doorbell in the fourth grade with the orange neon braces asking if he could use our bathroom because he was going to "piss his pants." Now I'm 15, and I'm not saying ive disregarded every other guy that crosses my path; ive had small relationships other crushes, but ive always wanted Shane, in the back of my mind, I was to afraid to admit to myself after 6 years I couldn't get over him. We've never been anything more than friends; yet I don't mind, being in his presence is enough. Ive never told anyone about Shane, not even Alex; and their she stands her manicured fingers clutching his neck; oblivious to the pain I feel right now.
Tears sting my eyes and I turn my head, here I stand at my freshman dance, and I cant even enjoy it. Then it happens, Shane grabs Alex gently in his arms, his head moves in slowly and I see the smile spreading across her face as she gently closes her eyes. then it happens, they kiss; but its more than that its much more, it's the point when my best friend and the man I love break my heart. The two people I care about most together; loving each other, forgetting about me.
The music changes to "Milli" by Lil Wayne. The crowd cheers and everyone sprints towards the DJ booth as Shane grabs Alexs' hand pulling her in. Andrew walks up behind me putting his arms around me, it takes so much will power not to slap them away. "Hey Mitchie, you want to go dance with them?" He looks at me worried. Andrew is sweet, cute, smart, my 'boyfriend', and yet nothing for me.
"Yah, lets go." I smile over my sadness and pull Andrew into the massive dancing crowd. I like Andrew, and sometimes I like him even more than a friend; I guess I just like the security of having a boyfriend, almost a replacement for when I cant have the one I want. I know it sounds horrible, but sometimes I need someone there, and Andrew always was; he loved me, he talked about what we would do when college came around it killed me inside to learn that no matter how hard I tried to make myself have stronger feelings for him I couldn't; I liked him. Just liked, nothing more.