Sometimes dreaming is better than reality. If you never have to wake up, then you wouldn't have to face your problems. You could just wish them away. You can make your pain drown in a pool of happiness. You wouldn't have to wish something to be real, cause in your mind, anything you want is real. Nothing can go wrong when you sleep. Waking up is always the problem.
When I dream of you, there is no pain, there is no hurt, and there is no tears. There's just me and you, just like it always was. When I close me eyes, I see you smiling at me whispering those words I longed to hear in the real world. I can hear you say 'i love you' all i want cause that's my reality. I can feel your warmth wrap around me like a blanket, and to me, it's surreal. There comes no heart break, and there comes no heart ache. The tears don't fall, and most of all, I can never loose you ever again. Thats not part of it.
When the time comes, my eyes flutter open, and the pain of reality sinks in. My heart will feel empty, and the hurting fades in. 'Why do I have to wake up?' Going through life with the burden of lost is not the way to live. When I see you, I know that i can't have you. But I never really did, did I? In this world, I realize the things I never want to imagine. I see things that make me want to be blind, and when I don't hear what I need to hear, my very breath leaves me. You don't want me, I'm not good enough for you even though I gave you my everything. I fucking love you, but that's not good enough, then again, nothing ever is, is it?
When this becomes to much, I leave this place, and I fade back to my haven. The place where nothing can get to me, nothing can. Not reality, not pain, not even gravity can hold me back. Dreaming is what keeps me going through my days, but then....why can't I sleep forever? I can make myself drop the real world, and stay in my world. If I leave the hell called life, I wouldn't need to stay hurt. If I never wake up, then you won't ever leave me. If I end the illusion of being real, then maybe I can stay happy, forever..... My eyes blink open when the idea finally ponders on me.
I get up and walk to the bathroom cabinet. I couldn't help the smile that appeared on my face. And this one, was real. I slide my hand over to the side to make it open. My eyes search for only one thing. SLEEPING PILLS. Found it. My smile wouldn't leave. As I shut the cabinet, I ketch glimpse of someone that looks horrible, almost like a monster, but I couldn't care less. As I'm walking back to my room, I'm taking the pills one at a time. I lost count after 9, but that doesn't really matter. I'm on my bed at last.
I can feel the real world fade. I can't feel my body. Everything starts to fade to white. And there, I see it. I'm floating towards the gates of my world, and there you are. You Have your arms wide open waiting for me. You take me in your embrace and whisper 'i missed you.' I look up to see you smiling with pure love that shines in your eyes. The real world no longer exists to me, the dream world is all I have. I don't need the pain, I don't need the hurt, I don't need the fear. I have all I need and want, and that's you. So forget what life had to offer, cause thats no longer real.
Close your eyes and dream, eternity.