A/N: I got this idea from a song that I heard today.
I visited your grave today. Again. Its been 2 weeks. I miss you.
-John
Mrs. Hudson can't stop crying. I don't know how to help her when I feel
like crying myself. It's been 3 weeks. I miss you.
-John
I've been cleaning around the house. I haven't moved your skull. Or your
robe off of the couch. Its been 4 weeks. I miss you.
-John
Its been exactly a month since you've...been gone. Everyone still thinks
you're a fake. I don't believe them. I believe in you Sherlock. And I miss
you.
-John
Mycroft stopped by today. We went to visit you. Left you a pack of cigarettes. Can you smoke in heaven? I miss you.
-John
I visited a psychiatrist today. He gave me some anti-depressants. I don't
think they're going to help but you never know. I miss you.
-John
Its been 2 months since you've….died. That word makes my throat close
and I'm not even saying it out loud. I wish you were here. The robe still
smells like you. Is it weird that I smell your robe? I don't know. I miss you.
-John
The pills aren't helping, Sherlock. I don't want to tell the doctor. I need to be
strong and pull myself together. But Sherlock...I'm not strong. Even Mrs.
Hudson has managed to begin to move on. But I can't. And I don't know
why. I think. I think I-. Nevermind. It's not relevant. I hope you aren't bored.
I miss you.
-John
I'm sorry I haven't sent anything in a while. I've just been thinking. A lot.
About you. I always think about you. Even when I'm thinking about other
things, normal things like groceries and remembering appointments. You're
always there. In the back of my mind. And while I've thinking, I realized
something. I love you. There I said it. I love you, Sherlock. And I miss you.
I also realized that I can't go on living without you. So I'm not going to live
anymore. Goodbye Sherlock, I'll see you soon.
-John
I love you too, John. Please don't go. Because then I'll have to live without
you. And I can't do that. It's been hard enough to stay away. But I'm not
going to stay gone anymore. Stay John, because I'm coming home.
-SH
And I'll be here waiting.
-John.