Everything started when…"Alex your cool. Will you be my friend?" The 4 year old version of me asked.
Alex Gaskarth was my 6 year old neighbor. Me,Him,and my Sister Ashlee had a best friend triangle. He loved music. He was my best friend.
I had my first kiss with him,in 5th grade. It was cute. He moved away after I turned 13.
I never found him after that. Until,…
"Alex Gaskarth, famous lead singer of punk band All Time Low. Do you have fun with your music or is it a chore?"
"It's my passion."
I turned my head to look at the television,And Indeed it was,Alex.
When I saw his smile,I felt like I had a huge whole in my heart.
He was everything to me. He helped my through all of my troubles. We were inseparable.
I got the time and Date, Called Ashlee,and got concert backstage passes.
I couldn't believe it. Our Alex,a famous singer!This was great.
We were in California ,so we weren't far away. We spent 3 hours getting ready. We Were ready for this.
"All Time Low!All Time Low!All Time Low!All Time Low!"
The crowd was chanting.
Lights were flashing.
Ashlee and I walked to the back where the buses were,and saw Alex.
"Alex!Alex!"
People were shouting.
I showed Security door our backstage passes. They let us through.
We The Kings was first up.
Alex was sitting on the couch goofing off with Jack Barakat.
He got up when we walked in.
"Hey,I'm Alex,that's Jack, Rian,And Zack."
"Hi,I'm Lissa."
"I'm Ashlee."
I was going to see if he recognized me at all before I said anything.
"Your voice is beautiful Alex. I wish I could sing."
I spent the three weeks I had before the concert and learned all of their songs.
"Awuuh. Sing.I 'm sure you sound great."
I gulped. I hadn't sung since he left.
"Forgive me I'm trying to find my calling I'm calling at night I don't mean to be a bother but have you seen this girl? Shes been running through my dreams and It's driving me crazy it seems,I'm gunna ask her to marry me."
I sang.
His face looked shocked.
"I know this is very last second, But would you sing this song with me?"
"You mean…On,On stage?"
I asked nervously.
"Yeah,You sound great."
"Sure!"
*He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past
Two in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days
Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs
Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs
She led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in
Forgive me, I'm trying to find my calling
I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me
Even though she doesn't believe in love
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut
Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside
Forgive me, I'm trying to find my calling
I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me
The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be
I'm not coming back
(Forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak
(I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt
(You're driving me crazy)
Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair
And out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world
From so many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home*
I had to close my eyes,I was so nervous.
* Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut*
I was always used to singing into a hairbrush in my bathroom or in the shower…Never infront of a thousand people.
I don't know how they did that all the time. I was terrified.
He still had beautiful brown/ blonde-ish hair.
And that smile of his, made me go weak at the knees.
He had a girlfriend though.
Lia Johnson. She was all over him. It left me heartbroken, but I'll live