Life Before Andrei Died

by WIERD101

Okay just so you know, the one inside is better so just read that one and don't pay attention to this one :D "I could stare at this girl's face and die in bliss because I knew I had seen the only angel that could ever exist...her."

1. PROLOGUE

Life Before Andrei Died

Prologue:

I've never been in love, sure I love my family and friends, but love is a whole new concept of me...love is unknown to me, and quite frightening...I don't know what to do...I don't know what to say...and it's soo frustrating when I do or say the wrong thing...I guess that love is always complicated...especially if you don't know if the one person you've ever loved and love, doesn't love you back, and what if she's too traumatized to even want to persue love...I guess I wouldn't blame her if she didn't.

But, this feeling it grows inside of me, every time I think about her, and I can't tell anyone because they'd either 1) think I'm crazy and laugh about it, OR, 2) it'd mean that I am truly, madly, deeply in love with her and it wouldn't feel like a dream any more, it'd be reality, and it'd feel real and if I told one person, everybody else would know...but then yet again I do feel like shouting it out at the rooftops that I love her, it's almost as if I'm Romeo and she's Juliette, but in an altered universe where we don't die, but we end up living happily ever after in our castle...but that'd never happen because she wouldn't and couldn't love someone like me...I'm bad for her...I could end up hurting her without even meaning to...she'd be all into the politics and she'd get crammed into this world of all this shit...and I didn't want that for her...she'd always have to be at my side...one step ahead of all the jealous girls that want revenge because it's not them at my side...and they'd hurt her...like really hurt her to get what they want, torture her even...and I wouldn't let that happen, not even on my own grandmother's grave, never...even on my own grave...or my sister's grave...or my father's...but mainly my own...or my grandmother's, since she's already dead.

When I realised this feeling, I couldn't just press pause and go back...she's the only one that brings butterflies to my stomach when I think of her smile, her lips, her eyes, her face...everything about her...I wish I could have Juliette, if I could, the world would be such a better place for me, and for her.

I love her, with all my heart, my soul and every other little piece of me...she's beautiful...and she's going to be mine...