solstice

renesmee

Has the world gone mental? Or is it just me?

Ugh! Death must be wonderful. I bet death would seem like heaven compared to this. Whatever this is. Sleep is peaceful, but this is not sleep this is thick and heavy and painful.

It might have been minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, centuries even, since this started. But what the hell do I care, all I want is for this to stop!

"How long now?"

WAIT! That was not me.

But I do know the voice.

"I dont know. Maybe another hour or so. Her thoughts have been very active recently."

Huh! Nice pep-talk dad Im sure Jake loves it. Real comforting!

"Wait! She can hear us."

Oh, bravo Einstein. And the award for the most obvious thing known goes to...

"Her humours not damaged." He mumbled.

Hey. Dad let Jake tell me what happened. Oh and let him tell me how long has this gone on for?

"Jake, she wants you to tell her, what happened and how long she has been like this."

"Oh. Errrrrm. Well ok. Lets see. Well you and me were talking and you sort of froze still and started screaming and junk. Its been nine days."

Shorter that that pain seemed. Oh and no it is nothing like you all described it.

Dad ask Jake to hug me, to see if i can feel. But before that i want to tell you that boiling in a pot of hells water would be like a spa day or heaven compared with the pain. Now tell Jake to hug me.

"Jake, she wants you to hug her." Dad mumbled. Huh. Not helped their relationship then.

"Is she ok?" Mom asked worriedly.

All of a sudden I felt two warm arms wrap around me gentle but firm, pulling me closer - just like that movie I saw - and closer till our lips met.

Then I opened my eyes.

"JAKE!" I shouted and kissed him on the lips. "Love you."I whispered in his ear.

"Dad? See this, but only tell Mom and Carlisle ok?"

I held Jakes face and showed him the pain I had been in. He flinched away. So did dad.

"Sorry." I whispered although I knew everyone could hear me.

"No. Not now. You can't tell her not until she asks the question first." I heard Carlisle say to Mom.

"What question?" I asked them. Dad laughed. I thought about it. "I do have one important question. Why? Why did this happen?"

"Our theory is that you have finally matured. You are now immortal." Mom answered.

I had always known when about it would happen; it is what me and Jake were talking about. But nobody said there would be PAIN.

"And you can also go and start school with us." Mom said.

WAIT! Has everyone gone crazy? Hello, I have only been around max two maybe three humans all my life. And now they want me to jump to hundreds? What is this about? I am not even defiantly immortal yet. Something here is defiantly messed up.

Or maybe it is only me.

"You have a point." Dad said.

"What? Who does?" Mom questioned dad. As usual.

"Nessie thinks she hasn't had enough practice with humans. We should gradually build her up. Slightly bigger crowds at a time."

Everyone agreed. Even Jake.

HEY! Hold up this might be a dream. Crap! It can't. Jakes kiss...

"Stop that." Dad intruded my thoughts. He should not have been listening.

"Well then," I muttered "lets give it a try then."

Somebody is going to get hurt. Their feelings. Nobody in this family. No. Humans. Theyll be sad. Sad to see that all of us have... boyfriends. Shame! Ha!