So here is my rewrite of 3 years, i wanted to make Riley's age agreeable with her actions, so it will be four years. I am re-writing the whole thing, so i really hope you guys love this one more. SO give it a try
Hanna's POV
Being a teenage, it can make you do stupid things. It can make you go sleep with your ex-boyfriend, while you are letting him go. It can make you fall in love with your best friend and finally make you tell her, after so long of watching her from afar, and then it can make you leave.
This is my life. I made so many mistakes as a teenager, I don't even know if I remember them all. Some people would say my biggest mistake was becoming friends with Alison, but to me, that was my greatest accomplishment. And no it isn't because she was the most popular girl at the school, it is because she helped me become friends with Emily.
My friends and I hurt a lot of people, directly and indirectly. We hurt people so much, that they eventually hurt people that we cared about. It seemed like it high school, whoever we touched was cursed. So when I found out I was pregnant, I decided I needed to leave town, before something happened to my child. I didn't think twice about hurting people, I just left.
I didn't think about how much it would hurt my friends, but especially Emily. The night before I found out I was pregnant, was the night I decided to tell Emily about my feelings for her. We talked about it for a little while, but we spent the majority of our night showing each other how we actually felt, and then I just left. I didn't mean for it to work out that way, but it did. I couldn't risk –A finding out about my baby.
I told my mom I was leaving, but she still to this day doesn't know where I am. I talk to her once a week, and send her pictures of her grand-daughter, every now and then. It has been three years since I left. And I think it is about time that I head back.
I moved with Caleb to California after we found out about the baby. We both wanted the baby as far away from –A as possible and Caleb had family there. We found a small 2 bedroom apartment, and I share a room with Riley, our daughter. We weren't rich by any standard, but Caleb took care of us. He was the first person I came out to, when I realized I liked Emily a lot more than I let myself believe. He also was there to let me use him, the night I let him go. The night I got pregnant with Riley.
I finally made a plan with Caleb to move back to Rosewood. It would take him a few weeks to get everything settled for him to leave, but he told me to go ahead and take Riley and the important stuff with us. He was a great father to our daughter, and a great friend to me. I still love him, I just wasn't in love with him anymore, so I needed to let him go. Since moving here, he hasn't been in a serious relationship, but I am hoping that this move will do him some good.
My daughter Riley, she is a beautiful mess. She is only a little over 3 but she is so smart. Wise beyond her years. She never grew up with a lot of material things, but she had more love than she could ever imagine.
My mom doesn't know about the night before I left, I just couldn't bring myself to tell her how much I hurt Emily. She sees her as another daughter, in a way. All those girls were my family and I know my mom still keeps in touch will all of them. She tells me they still ask about me, but for some reason, I can't believe her. I know they most hate me, I left them when they needed me most. A few months after I left, they caught A. Spencer got hurt, badly. For a while they didn't know if she would make it, but she pulled through. I wasn't there to help my friends and for the longest time I couldn't go back. It is going to take a lot of apologizing to get those girls to forgive me for leaving. I need Emily to forgive me the most, but I don't know how much it is going to take to get her forgiveness.
The plane finally lands, it is Riley's first plane ride, and she found the whole thing so exciting. Me, not so much. Last time I was on a plane, I was running away from the person that I wanted to be with the most, and now I am running back and I hope I don't get hurt more on the way.
I am able to get a taxi and soon we are sitting in front of my mom's house. The taxi driver helps me get my bags and I pay him for all the trouble. I knock on the door and wait a few minutes before the door is opening and my mom is standing there.
"Hey mom." I say, and she starts crying. I wrap my arms around her in a hug and just hold on to her.
"Hanna, your back." She finally manages from all the tears. I just nod against her. I didn't realize how hard seeing people again way going to be. Riley is the one who finally snaps me out of our reunion, by pulling on my shirt.
"Mom, meet your grand-daughter, Riley Emily Marin." I tell her and she picks her up and wraps her in a hug. I know both of them have been wanting to meet each other for a long time and I am glad this meeting is finally happening.
After catching up for a while, I look at my mom. "Can you handle her for a while, I need to go talk to someone." She nods and I start to get up.
"She lives in New York, your mom can give you the address maybe, and we can go there tomorrow and spend the weekend." My mom says and I look at her confused. "You are talking about Emily. Right?" I nod. "She is in school in New York." I nod and look at my mom.
"Are you sure? I can take her with me, if she doesn't live there anymore."
"I am sure that Pam would love to see you, just go, Riley can help me start dinner. Do you mind if Ted comes to dinner?" she asks me
"You haven't gotten married to him yet?" I joke with her as I walk upstairs to get the keys to my car.
I use to love the fact that Emily lived so close to use, now it is nerve wracking. I get there with in five minutes and just sit in the car for a few minutes. This house has so many memories in it, especially the last night that I spent here. It is hard being back, but I need to women-up and go and talk to Pam.
After what feels like an eternity, I finally get the nerve to walk up and knock on the door. A few seconds the door is opened and I am brought into a bone crushing hug.
"Hanna. I saw you sitting out there. I am so glad you came by." She says all in a rush. I just focus on hugging her back.
"Hey Mrs. Fields, how are you doing?" I manage to get out as she lets go of me.
"Come inside Hanna, I just baked some cookies." She grabs my arm and guides me to the couch. "I'm good, when did you get back?" she hands me a cookie in the process of asking.
"I just got back an hour ago." I tell her in between bites of the cookie.
"We have missed you like crazy Hanna. None of us knew what to think when you left. It broke all the girls, especially when Alison came back, it was weird you not being a part of them." She told me and her voice broke at time.
"I missed them too, I had to leave though." I grabbed my phone and unlocked it, showing her the picture of Riley as my back ground. "I was pregnant and I didn't want –A to do something to my baby." She grabs my phone and looks at it closely.
"She looks just like you Hanna. She is beautiful." I smile up at her.
"She is perfect. So smart for her age." I tell her and tears start coming. "I hated not being able to give her everything as she got older, but I love her so much." Pam pulls me into a hug. After a few minutes, she pulls away.
"As much as I love catching up, I know this isn't why you came over. It is about Emily." I smile at her.
"I need to apologize to her." I tell her and she nods at me.
"I was planning on heading to her apartment this weekend with a friend of mine, but she cancelled, so why don't you take the tickets, and go and see her. I know she would like that a lot more than her mom coming and seeing her." She gets up and goes and grabs two tickets. "It would mean a lot to her, if you went and saw her."
I nod up at her, "Thank you Mrs. Fields. I know I hurt your daughter in the past, but I just want to make it up to her now." She nods at me with understanding in her eyes.
The next morning, my mom and I drive to the airport. We have a bag each for the weekend and mom rented a hotel room to stay in. It was decided that I would go see Emily first, and then if she wanted we could all meet for dinner. I just hope she didn't slam the door in my face.
I went with them to the hotel and got Riley settled in with my mom. As I left to her apartment, I went and grabbed her favorite coffee and muffin, or at least what she use to like. I head in and soon I am knocking on her apartment. It is nerve racking waiting on her.
After a few moments she opens the door and looks at me. She has tears in her eyes, before saying, "Hanna?"
I just nod and stare at her. She has gotten so much more beautiful since I last saw her. Her hair is shorter than last time and slightly lighter, like she had been in the sun too long. I finally shake out of my trance and shove the drink and muffin in her direction. She doesn't move and looks like she is in shock.
"Emily?" I finally question and that breaks her trance. She starts crying and I move into her apartment, put the coffee down and hug her. She doesn't move for what seems like hours, but she finally moves her arms around me.
"Hanna? Is this really you? I'm not dreaming, am I?" She manages out between the tears and I realize just how bad I hurt her.
I hold her tighter, "No Emily. I am back and I am so sorry." She moves closer to me.
"Never leave me again?" she looks so small as she questions me.
"I don't plan on leaving again." I smile looking at her. "But I need to tell you why I left." She looks at me confused. "The day I left, I realized I was pregnant. When I went to tell Caleb goodbye, we had sex. I had a little baby to think about, and I couldn't let –A get to them." I manage out.
"You…you didn't leave because of something I did?" She finally manages to get out after the shock wore off.
"Hell no. That night, it was the best night of my life. I hated leaving you, but I needed to get my daughter safe." She looks up at me.
"Daughter? It was a girl?" I smile at her and nod. "Can I see a picture?" she questions me. I nod again and start grabbing my phone to show her the picture. "What is her name?"
"Riley Emily Marin." I tell her and her face lights up, but looks slightly confused. "I didn't forget about you when I left. I wanted her to have a piece of you. You were such a great person, and I was hoping the name would rub off on her some. It did. She is sweet and smart and so beautiful." I say as I push my phone towards her.
"She looks just like you Hanna." She says in amazement. "She has Caleb's eyes though." I nod.
"I know. Sometimes, I think that even though she has never met you guys, she acts like you. She is so smart like Spencer, and so nice and caring like you. She has Aria's carefree personality." I tell her and I mean it. "They know all about you guys, Caleb and I have told them as much as we can about you guys. We never forgot about you guys."
She smiles and kisses my cheek, "Do I get to meet this beauty?" and all I can do is nod.
So first chapter of the re-write. I like this one better . I am hoping to have next chapter up by later today. So wish me luck. Hope you like it. Reviews are greatly appreciated.