Hello my fanfiction readers, okay so I decided to write this after finding my journal I wrote in like last year when I really liked this one guy and I kinda noticed it fit this Seddie relationship (all before iOMG) so I typed it up word for word adding stuff about Sam and Freddie cause obviously Carly and Spencer are not like my family so now you get to see how I feel sometimes…haha that's funny. I almost never share my diary journal thing and no one can find it cause its hidden so consider yourself lucky. And I do use code names because "this boy" is my boy but is supposed to mean Freddie in this DUH! And btw im way over this boy now so I have no shame of putting it up here. Also I was considering just making this a one shot but if you want more tell me and I'll try to add more chapters…they most likely won't be from my journal.
I know its short but hey it doesn't matter, also I happened to be listening to "This Boy" by the Beatles at the time of writing this in my journal, and it was dated 5.7.11 so you know. Okay enjoy This Boy!
This Boy
Every now and again I get these feelings I can't control, these "in love" feelings and I blame him for them because I have never felt like this until I met him. I haven't been myself since April. That's a month ago a long time. Sometimes I don't want to believe its true so I try to think about another guy or ham something that makes me happy but somehow I end up thinking about him all over again. There is something about that boy that I can't stop thinking about. He's so sweet and understanding, plus he is such a tech nerd I love that about him, but he is distracting me from iCarly and my meat focus and from my friends, Carly and Spencer which are like family to me. Thank God I have an ahmazing best friend who has to put up with all this. I have been distance from her a lot and I have even started crying for long period of times because I know I'm losing touch and because I know this guy doesn't like me back, thankfully Carly is always by my side. Not only am I'm sad, "this boy" is also sad which makes it harder for me to be happy and have something to smile and laugh about.
I blame 3 people on this whole thing first starting with Carly, she almost forced this upon me, she always says you like this boy and thumbs up (Which is like my signature she took and made it into something ill hate) and smiling/pushing me into walls/ eyeing him and me whenever we are in the same room and making a "heart" with her hands especially when he's not looking. Then I blame "this boy" if he wasn't so amazing maybe I wouldn't like him, although he has his weird moments I think it's adorable. Then lastly I blame myself for my own misery, I put myself in this situation…I don't have to like him it's my choice, but I feel he might (noticed I said might) be worth it. I don't know.
I hope you like my journal aka Sam's also. REVIEWWW(: thanksss