This is my first Narnia fic and one i'm not really sure will work out but please bare with me and let me know what you think

Disclaimer: I own Narnia...I wish. I do however own the plot and the elusive Blue Fire...

The White Witch's Spy

Prologue

I can now officially congratulate myself on being the most hated person in Narnia. Everyone wants to kill me and though they all fear me and what I can do they would overcome their fear in a moment to be able to be the one to kill me. They may hate and fear Her but she has always been this way. Narnians true to Aslan hate me more because I was once one of them.

I only did what I thought was right and now I can't seem to change my path without causing pain. Because no matter what they say I never meant for all this to happen.

No matter where I run I can't seem to outrun the past. She will always capture me and bring me back. She uses the very thing I care for most to make me do things I hate. I did them and I still couldn't save him and now I am bound by my very word.

I don't think I'll ever hate anyone as much as I hate her. Every order she gives me tears me apart and the smile on her face proves it. I can see the glint in her eyes and malicious smile. She's safe in the knowledge that her magic will always protect her.

I'm hurting the people I once swore to protect. I have to do this I have no choice but she knows that she needs to word her commands carefully because one wrong word and I'll twist it to do as I please. She cannot punish me for this because I am simply carrying out her orders. It's her own fault if it does not go the way she planned.

Still I find myself in a place of pain. I was never meant to be here and every little thing I do tears my heart to shreds. I can stand the pain I inflict on myself but I cannot stand the pain I am inflicting on others. But I can't seem to help it. No matter what I do it just seems to make it worse.

No matter what I do I cannot but help those I love. Everything I do only seems to hurt them more. Now I have committed the ultimate betrayal…I have turned against the ones I swore to protect and serve until the winter could be banished from Narnia forever.

I pray I'll be able to tell them how sorry I am and explain the true nature of my betrayal but until then I have to hope that one of them does not succeed in killing me for the crimes I have committed against the True King of Narnia…