Pain seers through my body, stress flowing through my veins. Why so much as one time? One can never be sure. All I know is that I don't like this time of this year, I hate it.
Sure, I can count the number of things that have happened to me on one hand, that means nothing, because the things that have happened to me should count as two handfuls and then some.
I ask myself constantly how I could be so dumb, so stupid and arrogant? But that only causes more pain, and then the tears flow. But I've gotten used to the tears, that's not a big deal.
I've gotten use to the fake smiles, the fake laughs, the fake everything. I've even learned how to wear decent clothes when I feel like crap and put on makeup when all I want to do is cry some more and smear it down my face.
People think I'm happy, they truly do, how? I'm not sure, I'm not quite fully informed how I can call my friends friends when they don't know when I'm having a rough time. But I pushed past it all, I thought I was stronger.
When really it was all leading up to my breaking point.
My body spins, pain still seeping through my limbs, I just couldn't contain it any longer. Life is over now, no more pain, stress, worry, pressure, and hurt. I don't have to deal with any of it any longer.
Black splotches dot over my eyes, I've researched this, I'm loosing too much blood. It's time.
My body collides with the floor and a smile etches it's way across my face, peace and silence echo around my body. I'm free.
Everything's black now and I can hear my heart thumping, the thumping grows slower, and slower. And finally, I'm gone.
The black fades to white.
The end.
A/n: Heyyyy!!!! Yeah, I know you missed me these very few days. =) Anyways, this is just a short little one shot that's helping me relieve some feelings. I'm venting, basically.
I got my new lap top, but I'm still not working on Bleeding Loner? I will soon, I promise. Right now I'm working on Windows Works and I prefer Word so I'm going to have mom bring home the CD for it so I can install it on my new laptop =)
Okay, I'm done rambling.
Hope you enjoyed my venting =) I know I did. Review if you want.