I stared at the letter in my hands, unable to comprehend what i just read.

Married.

You were getting married.

meaning you had found a mate. Now i would never be able to tell you how i felt about you. Well i could but it would make no difference. You had a mate. i was nothing to you now.

I crumbled the letter and through it at the wall. I sat next to the little fire in my hut.

I hugged my legs to my chest, thinking of who your mate might be. Was she a wolf demon? Dog? or was she another human like me?

i remembered the day we met.

I was laying on the ground, almost dead from the wolfs that had attacked me. I had just found my village had been attacked and burned down by bandits. i ran into the woods crying after finding my parents dead. i was so sad that i wanted to die.

I had no one.

i was alone.

I closed my eyes and waited to die knowing it may be soon.

Then i heard voices. I opened my eyes and saw a man. He had long silver white hair and a red crescent moon on his forehead. he was dressed in white robes with two swords at either side. he looked displeased with me. just then a little toad demon toad in my view of the man and began to hit my head with his two headed staff. I lowered my head to the ground and began to cry. "Stop hitting me, please." I said barely able to speak. My throat to dry to even utter a sound. I closed my eyes and heard the man speak.

"Girl, what is your name?" he asked stepping in front if the little toad demon. I used what strength i had to turn my head and look at him tears still running down my face onto the ground. I could feel dirt sticking to my face. My clothes sticky with sweat and blood. He knelt down and looked at me. "What is your name young one?" i looked into his silver eyes and opened my mouth to speak. "My name is rin." I said my voice came out in barely a whisper. He stood up and drew one of his swords. The little toad was shocked and began to beg his master to spare my life. But he did not listen to the toad. Instead he rose the sword to his shoulder, his face holding no emotion. He swung the sword and i closed my eyes waiting to feel the sting of the blade.

But i felt nothing. Instead i felt my wounds closing and healing. I slowly stood up and looked at my arms and legs seeing they had healed. I looked back at him and he sheathed the sword and began to walk away. The toad demon looked at me and hit me with his staff. "Be grateful that lord Sesshomaru saved you, you ungrateful child." He said and ran to his master. "wait for me lord Sesshomaru!"

I looked at the man and ran after him. He spoke to me without looking at me. "Why are you following me rin?" i smiled and ran up to him and said."Because you saved me and i am grateful, lord Sesshomaru." I said and hugged his leg. The toad demon began to scream at me to get off the master and show respect. But lord Sesshomaru didn't push me off of him, Instead he stopped walking and looked at me.

"Jaken." He said looking at the toad. How far till the next village?"

The toad scurried up to Sesshomaru and said between breaths. "We can make it there by nightfall if we keep going with no more stops."

"Hm. Then lets go then." Sesshomaru said and kept walking with me on his leg.

After about a mile i began to feel tired. Sesshomaru stopped walking and picked me up. "Go to sleep rin. We wont be there for a few more hours. Rest." he said and i did.

when I woke up I was in a small hut. A priestess was making some soup at the fire in a big pot. she looked over at me and smiled. "Ah I see ye be awake now. come the soup is almost ready." she said and smiled at me. I got up and walked over to her and sat across from her. I smelled the soup and it smelt so good. my stomach stared to grumble. I had forgotten it had been two days since I last ate.

I realized it was quiet and looked around for lord Sesshomaru. he was gone. I began to think he left me here not wanting me to follow him anymore and I started to cry.

the priestess looked up at me and said "your lord Sesshomaru is out side dear. he didn't want to wake you. is that why you are upset?" she asked and she ladled some soup in a bowl for me. I took it and nodded. 'he didn't leave me? I thought he would. Maybe he does want me around.' I thought eating some soup. the moment it hit my tongue my mouth began to water for more. I ate the soup and asked for more. the priestess smiled and gave me some more. "My my you must be starving. No matter eat all you can dear. Sesshomaru said you where nearly dead when he found you. So eat all you like."

I smiled an her and bowed my head. " thank you miss-"

"Kaede. My name is kaede child. And what might your name be?" She asked looking at me with a soft smile. I looked down and answered. "My name is rin . I am from a small village up north."

"Come now there us no need to explain lord Sesshomaru already did. There's no reason to be sad now. Eat up rin. You may stay here as long as you want to I don't mind at all."

I looked at her and smiled as a tear left my eye. "thank you, Kaede" I said and finished my soup.

I had one more bowl then I asked kaede where Sesshomaru was. she told me he was a few miles from town, but he'd be back in the morning and for me to get some more rest. I did as I was told and when morning came I ran outside to find lord Sesshomaru.

he was standing right at the door. "rin." he said looking at the sky. "do you still wish to travel with me? if not you may stay here with kaede until you are old enough to decide for sure that's what you want." he didn't even glance at me.

I smiled and hugged his leg. "I still want to travel with you." I said looking at him.

"alright. we will leave in 30 minutes. so be ready to go. I had jaken get everything you would need so do not worry about anything." he looked at me and was off.

slowly I stopped thinking about all those years ago. the damn bastard never came back for me. he left me.

Abandoned me.

I reread the letter thinking- hoping I read it wrong.

Dear kaede,

I am writing to you because I have urgent news.

Soon there will be a new lady of the west.

I will not tell who it is until I visit the other lords to inform them.

I shall be done visiting with the other lords in about two weeks time.

And when im finished I will come to your village and tell them.

Please do not tell rin until I visit and inform her myself.

Lord Sesshomaru.

I folded the paper and set it on the table. Kaede had passed away last year when I turned 19 of old age. She had trained me while I was growing up with her so that when she did go I could take her place. But since her passing no one has ever come to me for help fearing I was not as good as Kaede.

I went to my room and packed all of my belongings and grabbed my sword. I didn't know how to use it to well but id do my best to get away. I went over to the table where I placed the note and left a note for Sesshomaru to find when he came to announce his marriage.

Dear lord Sesshomaru.

When you find this note it means that the priestess Kaede has passed.

She passed last year.

I was to take her place but the villagers don't seem to want me to be there new priestess.

So I will head east in search of a new village to call home.

I hope you and your mate are happy together.

Rin

When I was finished I folded the paper and set it on the table next to his note. I gathered my things and left to the village bakery to get something to eat for my long trip. I grabbed some bread and some pastries. Then I got onto my horse id gotten when I was 13 and left the village around noon and headed east.

Hoping that Sesshomaru wouldn't be here sooner then his note said.

I couldn't believe Sesshomaru had left me when I was young after I said I wanted to go with him, and then he finds a mate!? And doesn't tell me in person. Instead he sends a note. Does he really not like me like I thought he did when I was younger? Does he see me as someone who's always in the way?

Someone who cant defend themselves?

When the sun began to set I stopped to make camp. I gathered some wood to make a fire, tied my horse to a low branch and ate some of my bread before getting some rest.

I dreamed the same thing I had for years. I dreamt of Sesshomaru. Him saving me and then leaving me. That was all I could ever dream. When I woke up I nearly screamed my head off, as I stared into the golden eyes of him.

Sesshomaru.