It was a long night it was almost four in the morning but yet he stayed by
my side. We sat there silently without one sound. I didn't understand he doesn't
even have a soul,how could a vampire love anyone? How could he love a slayer?
Spike. The name. It was like being tortured. It was like being stabbed in the
back over and over again. I thought he hated me. He was supose to be my enemy.
The one thing in the night that I'm supose to get rid of loved me. I was supose
to hate him and he was supose to hate me. We were supose to fight to the death
but yet we sat there like there was nothing except us. The world seemed like it
was gone. Like no living person or animal was around us. The world could be
falling down right before our eyes and we would not even notice. Could I love
something so evil that it makes me cringe during the middle of the night.
What about Angel? Did I still love him deep down? Did I love him so
much that I hid it from myself all this time? Angel. The name. It was like there
was no evil,no demons,no darkness. It was as I was at peace when I heard the
name. Do I still love him... yes. But the problem with that was I can't. He
doesn't love me. Or does he? He wouldn't have left if he truley did. Or would
he have left me if he loved me in my troubled and confusing times? I still love
Angel with all my heart. But I have to move on. He isn't coming back.
My friends. They hated Spike would they still like me if I told them I...
No. There was nothing to tell. Was there something to tell did I love Spike?
Love. Such a powerful word. Was Spike right was there something between us?
Did I love him? But I love Willow,Xander,, and Tara too. And they
didn't try to kill me. But was there a possibility I could love Spike? So many
questions. The only way I could answer them was to try...
" Spike? " I blurted out in the continueous silence.
" Yes " Spike replied.
" Don't leave me "
" Never "
The End