Title: Last Regret
Author: OpheliacAngel
Genre: Angst/Horror
Summary: EO Drabble Challenge: Soap: No amount of soap could ever wash this away. Spoilers only for Season 3's 'Time Is On My Side'. Double Drabble, couldn't help myself. Title comes from Paradise Lost's song of the same name.
A/N: I love Bela. I miss Bela. No amount of wrong she did to the boys will ever change that. I wanted to do her some justice here, let her have a final say. Enjoy.
Bela clutches the dead phone in her shaking hand, remembers the not so long ago day she made her choice.
No amount of soap could wash this feeling of dread and disappointment in herself away, the words 'I'm sorry, Dean' dwelling within her bones, eager for release but he hung up.
Tears spiral down chilled, pale cheeks. Hell hounds howl nearby, an unwelcome reminder that time has now run out after counting down the days and minutes. Bela's cries will mean nothing to hell's messengers, words unspoken never unleashed to the people she spent parts of her remaining months with.
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As they scrape on the door agonizingly loud for endless seconds, she sends a silent prayer out to Dean. Hopes beyond hope Sam will find some way to save his brother, let her remember the eldest Winchester the way she does now, pissed but not torn apart, satisfied in her demise but not struggling against unbreakable chains.
No one will ever know who she is and what she has done. Maybe it's better that way, simpler to let the blood erase all traces of Bela Talbot.
When they break down the door, she imagines a world in which she's ready.
FIN