Title: There Are Things You Don't Know
Summary: Sam's a complicated guy- maybe if he tells Andy about his past, she might be able to understand his reluctance
Author's note: All the speculation on whether Sam was in foster care inspired me to write this.. Probably going to be a few chapters. I've never done this before, but I'll try my best!
At the beginning of this Andy is still with Luke. I was going to make it starting from season three, but the writers do such a good job I don't want to mess with it. I have a lot of ideas for this already and a lot written. I literally wrote this and uploaded it within like not even 2 hours. But Let me know if this sucks and ill totally scrap it.

Prologue

It was nice seeing Jessica again, after all of these years. He didn't realize how much he missed everyone back in Sudbury till he ran into her the other day.

She became even more like her mother as she got older- always with the analyzing. She eyed him quizzically and circled her finger around the rim of her coffee mug, "So, you and this McNally," she brought the cup to her lips and let it linger for a moment, "what's going on there?" she took a sip without taking her eyes off him.

He knew he was being sized up, he tried to keep his face neutral "Nothing, we're partners."

She gave him an unimpressed look biting the inside of her cheek and rolling her eyes, "You can't lie to me Sammy. It's written all over your face- you love her."

He cleared his throat and smirked, "I care about all my friends."

She looked at him for a long moment before a smile broke out on her face. She shook her head lightly same old Sammy. "She feels the same way you know."

He inhaled deeply and looked at the ceiling before shifting around in his seat. "You know I didn't invite you here to psychoanalyze me."

She smiled wide and shrugged her shoulders "tough" she deadpanned tilting her chin toward him, "old habits..."

He took and long drink of his coffee and narrowed his eyes, "It's really annoying when you and mom do this. If I wanted you to know what I was thinking- I would say it out loud."

She kicked him lightly under the table, "oh stop whining…"

He knew she wasn't going to give up, and she always told him that not talking says a lot more. So he gave her something- just to shut her up, "she asked me out."

Her eyebrows shot up in surprise, "So you guys are dating. Why'd you lie to me?"

"I said no."

She nearly did a spit take, "what?"

He got up to bring his cup to the sink, mostly so she wouldn't see how much it hurt him to make that decision. "I told her that she and I could not date."

"Why the hell would you do that?"

He leaned over the sink, hands on either side and shut his eyes tightly. He had been asking himself that same question. "I dunno…" He turned to face her, leaning against the counter, "She only wants me because things didn't work out with Callaghan"

She chuckled a little bit and put her face in her hands, "oh my god..."

He furrowed his brow and crossed his arms defensively. He didn't understand how she could just laugh at him. "What?"

"Sam, I know you find it hard to let people in." She shrugged, "I get it. I'm the same way- for an entirely different reason- but even so, I'm the same."

"C'mon Jess, don't..."

"No you need to hear this. We've been hurt, so we keep people at arms-length. But this girl- she broke through and she loves you and you love her, I know you do. And now you're scared. You're scared that she'll figure out who you really are and not want to be with you, because you don't believe someone like her should love you."

He was staring a hole into the floor, with a defeated voice he pleaded with her, "please… don't." He didn't keep his past a secret for the sole reason that he was ashamed, but also because it was too hard to think about. It was less painful to just ignore it. McNally called it- he compartmentalizes… a lot.

She walked over to the coffee machine and re-filled her mug, "You're wrong, you're an amazing person Sam. All that stuff that you think makes you not worthy- actually makes you worth more."

She had her back to him and he rolled his eyes, "And don't roll your eyes at me, it's true" She turned and leaned on the counter next to him smirking at his shocked expression.

"Everything you went through made you who you are; inspired you to become a police officer- and a damn good one at that. So you think if you keep her as a friend you won't lose her but, she doesn't want to be your friend.

Now I don't know this girl very well, but she must be pretty amazing if she means so much to you. So give it a try; you deserve some happiness."

Playfully elbowing him she added, "You may be a grouchy old smart ass but when you let people in they see what an amazing guy you really are- courageous, loyal, protective, funny, kind- I'm proud of you."

He tilted his head side to side contemplating what she just said "That was a good speech… made me want to yak.." they both laughed

"Yeah, me too"

He showed his dimples and looked her in the eye, "...but it was nice."

He elbowed her "I've missed this."

"What? My wonderful advice!"

He snorted "Don't push it."

Looking far too proud of herself she told him, "truths the truth."

He blew out a puff of air and playfully said, "Shut up"

"So, you haven't told her you were in foster care?"

He shook his head.

"Yeah I kinda got that, when you danced around everything I said the other night."

His phone rang on the counter beside her; she picked it up and looked at the screen

Andy McNally

(Mobile) calling...

"Oh look who it is! Perfect time to tell her!" she went to hand him the phone but he shook his head.

"She's pissed at me."

"Ok, well if you're not going to answer it..."

He scrambled for the phone but she held her arm out to stop him.

"Andy! Hey, it's Jessica!"

"Sam, uh, Sam went for a run but, he told me that if you called…"

AN: You're probably wondering who this Jessica character is... and no I didn't forget that his sister's name is Sarah...