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This is my first Chronicles of Narnia story. I hope you like it. Enjoy!

CHAPTER ONE

It had been raining the entire Sunday morning. The Pevensies were forced to spend it inside. Peter and Edmund were playing a game of chess. Edmund was losing and was thinking very hard on what move he could make to change his fortunes.

Susan and Lucy where gossiping about all sorts of things. Lucy was just telling what an embarrassing mistake one of her classmates had made when Susan said, "Look it has stopped raining."

All four siblings looked out of the window and saw that the sky had cleared up and there were no longer dark clouds overhead.

"Come on, let's go outside," Lucy said. She was already on her way to the door and looked over her shoulder to see if her siblings followed. They all needed a change of scenery. For it had been raining ever since they left Narnia.

Behind the girl's school was a large plain of grass and beyond that a small forest. It was ideal for walking, but for the Pevensies it was special, because it reminded them of Narnia. When they had returned it seemed even worse than the first time, not just because they loved Narnia, but it was hard for them to leave their new friends behind.

Especially Peter was having a hard time. He still felt guilty about what happened during the battle at the Telmar castle and being back in England also meant he was no longer a King, but he was perceived as a mere child. But all of that could not compare with the feelings he was having for a certain person. Whenever Peter tried to sleep he saw that face, with sparkling eyes and a handsome smile. He could not get Caspian out of his head.

He remembered the first time he had met the Prince. He had tried to hurt him and Lucy had just been in time before he would have knocked Caspian down. Ever since that day there had been enmity between him and Caspian. It was only resolved on the day they had won the battle and then there had been the most painful moment when his sister walked up to Caspian and had kissed him. How he wished things had been differently.

"Peter."

"Peter!"

" I'm sorry. What were you saying, Lucy?"

Lucy giggled, "Lost in thought Peter?"

Peter nodded, but did not tell about what he had been thinking. Lucy saw the somewhat sad look on Peter's face and asked, "Are you alright Peter?"

"Yes, I am," he replied, but Lucy was not convinced. She hugged her brother.

"You will get used to living here. Just give it some time Peter."

"But you and Edmund know you will see Narnia again. You have something to look forward to. Susan and I won't."

"Peter, it is not as if you won't grow up here. You will be an adult in a few years time and people will take you more seriously than. I know it's hard now, but you can look forward too."

Peter was surprised by his younger sister's wisdom and somewhere deep inside he knew she was right. They continued their walk, but they did not mention Narnia anymore.

When they arrived back at the girl's school it was time to say goodbye. Edmund and Peter had to return to their own school.

While they crossed the street Edmund noticed that Peter was lost in thought again. Edmund was going to have to talk to his brother. One of the teachers had told Edmund that Peter was often absent minded and that his schoolwork was suffering from it too.

"Peter!" Edmund grabbed his brother's arm and yanked him back onto the pavement. Peter was shocked when a car passed right in front of his nose.

"You should watch were you are going," Edmund said angrily.

"I ... I am sorry, Ed. Thanks."

"You're welcome, but Peter please tell me what occupies you mind all the time. It can't just be the fact you won't return to Narnia."

Peter wanted to tell someone about his feelings for Caspian. Still he wasn't sure he could trust his brother with this.

"Peter, talking about it might help. We could solve the problem together," Edmund tried.

"I don't think you or me could solve this problem."

Edmund wondered what it could be. "Is this still about the night at the Telmar castle? You should stop blaming yourself for that."

"No, it not about that. Could we wait until we are somewhere more private? I don't want anyone to know."

"Okay." Edmund could understand that Peter wasn't going to tell him in the middle of the schoolyard, but it also meant it was something very serious.

Once they were in their room, Edmund said, "Well, tell me what is going on. Even the teachers noticed you are not yourself lately."

"Edmund, promise me you won't laugh when I tell you," Peter said seriously.

"Alright, I promise," Edmund replied, because he knew his brother would never tell him if he did not say those words.

"I think I am in love with Caspian."

Edmund's jaw dropped in surprise. Of all things he had expected this was certainly not it.

"Edmund! Stop looking at me like that."

"I am sorry Peter, but I did not laugh." Peter did not appreciate Edmund's comment and glared at his brother.

"But I thought Susan loved Caspian and you never showed any affection for Caspian. You two were fighting most of the time. How come you haven't said anything when we were still in Narnia?," Edmund said.

"Well, she has moved on. Didn't you hear her talking to Lucy. She is dating the boy we saw in the train. You know, the boy she told her name was Phyllis," Peter said, "I know it seemed like I didn't like Caspian, but that was mostly a result from the pressure I was under. I was High King Peter, the Magnificent and I was the one who should know how the handle these situations. Worst of all I did not know how to handle myself when I was around him. I wanted to live up to his expectations and I guess show off, hoping that he would like me."

"Okay, so you really did like Caspian, but that still leaves you with the problem you'll never see Caspian again."

"Yes, I can't get him out of my head. I would give everything to just go to Narnia once more."

"Do you think Caspian will feel the same for you?"

"I don't know, but not knowing is agony too. At least I would be able to move on if he did not feel the same, but this uncertainty gives me the idea that there is still hope."

Edmund understood and he had an idea, but he was not sure if it would work.

"I guess we should tell Susan and Lucy..." before Edmund could finish Peter interrupted.

"No, they can't know."

"Peter, listen to me for a moment. We can't go through the wardrobe, because Aslan closed it, but maybe Lucy knows a way. She always had the strongest connection with Aslan."

"But we don't have to tell the girls why we want to return to Narnia."

"Not necessarily, but I guess your chances increase if Aslan knows why you want to return."

"Alright," Peter sighed and giving in to his brother's idea. For now it was his only hope.

That night Peter slept better than he had in the last month. He even dreamt about Caspian.

To be continued