The Dirge of Asuka
The truth is so overwhelming
I thought if I didn't write out my feelings
They could never become real
I figured if I couldn't give those feelings names
That they could not exist
Was I ever wrong
You're smiling at me again
While I'm pretending that I'm alright
The laughter I'm faking
Is like a dagger to my soul
I can't handle this feeling any more
This truth refuses to disappear
I have always been alone
Imprisoned by hatred that I can't escape
Who is it that suffers while the world is asleep
Who is it who cries while the word is full of laughter
These feelings of despair grow intensely stronger
I'm fighting the urge to scream again
Who would hear me
If I were to cry out in pain
No one can rescue me
If no one is ever there
I know that I will never be saved
So I suppress these desperate feelings within myself
Outside the sun is shining brightly
I'm stealing all its rays for my smile
This false brilliance makes you blind
To the misery I keep inside of me
You could never understand this pain
You are simply too perfect to suffer in this way
Is there a way to kill the pain
Is there any escape from this wave of anguish
In my universe of darkness I begin to think
Perhaps my only salvation lies in death
Peering out of my cage I am wondering
Could that really be the truth
Rain Crystal: This is the very first piece I've written for Asuka so I hope I managed to keep her in character. I know that Asuka usually acts proud and often comes across as egotistical but deep down she suffers greatly. 'You' could be referring to Rei who she sees as an emotionless doll or Shinji for whom she doesn't appear to have a great understanding of right away. I suppose 'you' could also be Misato who she appears to dislike and views as her rival for Kaji's affections.
I think this turned out quite well but ultimately you, the reader, will be the judge of that. So do your job and please review. Thank you!