Hello everyone! So this is my first fanfiction and I got onto this damn writing boat because of my undying love for Arrow and may I say Olicity. *The ship to ship*. The story takes place after Arrow season 2 Episode 20 so be warned that it does contain spoilers. Please do review and let me know what you think. Forgive any grammatical errors also. I might make it a longer story depending upon how it's received. Thank you all!
Light At The End of the Tunnel
"If I am your miracle, it is because you have first awakened the miracle in me."
Felicity knew that she came to the funeral to make sure that Oliver was okay. Felicity had seen Oliver go through things that break down even the most resilient lot but having to watch your own mother die and blaming yourself for her death; that can break down even one without a soul. But Oliver had a soul; granted that it was a soul which was stained with blood and had seen touched the veil of darkness but it also had a light, one which felicity saw every time she looked up at the man who made her believe that heroes exist, even ones who are broken can be fixed.
It came as a no surprising fact to her that Oliver did not show up to his mother's funeral, she was sure that he was fighting his demons and the guilt of his mother's death was consuming him. She knew Oliver down to his last mask and she also knew that she needed to be with him; now more than ever. She needed to save him from drowning in his guilt and make him believe that his mother's death was not upon him. She would do that but before all this she needed to make Slade Wilson pay for coming after the people who mattered in her life. And that's the promise Felicity made to herself as she laid down flowers on Moira's casket. She will fight; she will be strong for Oliver because she was "his girl."
Thea looked at the people who came to the reception, all dressed in black shedding tears in her vicinity and offering her comfort but Thea did not listen to any of them. Her tears were dried and she was sure that she did not have any left to shed. There was a hole in her heart which she knew would never be repaired so she stayed angry to ease the hurt. She was angry at her brother who lied to her, who let in a psychopath in their lives and take away her everything, a brother who did not even make it to his mother's funeral. She was angry at her mother for making a decision to let them live but over everything she was angry at the fact that she could not even tell her mother that she loved her no matter how may lies she spun, no matter how many years she hid behind them, the truth remained that she loved her mother but her mother died thinking that her daughter hated her. Thea did not need comfort; she did not need any condolences. All she needed was a chance to tell her mother that she loves her, always have and always will.
Felicity saw Laurel talk to Thea and embrace her. She was sure that the young Queen was so broken that she picked up all the pieces and put on a mask of indifference while being cut by all the broken pieces. And that's why without knowing what she will say, Felicity ended up before the young Queen.
"Thea. Hey, I am Felicity Smoak. Oliver's executive assistant, actually ex-executive assistant now. You might not remember me but I visited Walter at the hospital. How can you remember? That was a long time ago but it's great to see that you have grown up since then. Did you grow taller or are those the shoes? Love the shoes by the way but that doesn't goes to say that you haven't grown because you have become so pretty. Okay, I am going to stop talking in 3, 2, and 1. You don't want to listen me babble so I will just say this. I know that this is the hardest thing you have ever had to do in your life and I can't even begin to imagine.."
"No, Felicity, you can't imagine so if you are here to give me a lecture about how I should forget everything and carry on with my life, then get in line because I am sure that everyone over here has already prepared that speech. So if you will excuse me, I have a club to run and a brother to find."
And with that Thea stepped aside the petite blonde all the while thinking to that she may have been harsh on her but she knew what the rest of the speech contained and she had no patience to listen to it again; besides her mother just died so she sure as hell did not have to listen. But she was stopped by Felicity's hand on her wrist. Thea whirled around and looked into her face shocked by the intensity in her eyes. The girl who she just dismissed had tears welling in her eyes leaving Thea's mouth slightly ajar.
"Thea, I know you are angry at everyone but more than anyone else you are angry at yourself. I don't remember my dad but I do remember that I was so angry at myself after he left all the while thinking to myself that maybe it was my fault. That anger turned to hatred, hatred to grief and grief to hopelessness to the point of no return. But don't let your anger turn to hatred Thea because before you know it, you will be hurting yourself and the people whom you love. Your mother died saving her children and given a choice again she would do the same. Don't hold this over your head or your brother's."
Thea's listened to her and held back a sob. When she looked at felicity, she saw her mother. Thea could not explain it but looking at Felicity's face she saw her mother smiling back at her, giving the smile that she usually reserved for Ollie and her. And that's when Thea's tears flowed and she engulfed her in her arms.
Felicity was caught off-guard but she embraced the young girl in her arms wrapping her arms around her back and running smooth circles on her back. What she didn't expect was what Thea whispered into her ear.
"I am so sorry, Mom. I am so so sorry. I love you, more than you can ever imagine. And I forgive you."
Felicity heard this and she held on. She told the young girl that she will always be there with her and she loved her too. Felicity wasn't sure what made her say that but this she knew. She knew that no 18 year old should ever go through what Thea had been and if the least she could do was hold on to her while she cried for her mother, Felicity would gladly do that each time Oliver's heart asked her to.