AN: So, I've been enjoying myself putting together the little "Disruptions" vignettes. They are nothing more than "scenes" I have in my head that could make it into a story or turn into a story of their own. I wanted to start writing them mostly so I wouldn't forget and had a place to reference. Rather than collect dust on my HD, it was fun just to start posting and "fixing" episodes.

Never did understand why the hell breach the subject of a romance between Harm and Mac to never do a damned thing about it. The actors had chemistry and so many story lines could have been written. The rules were bent for Bud and Harriet but, not for Harm and Mac.

One of my "Disruptions" was just after the Admiral's Dining out on the season 9 finale. We fans were left wondering what was wrong with Mac as she sat next to Harm realizing he'd never abandon her. And then, nothing… and nothing… and nothing. She wasn't ready, he was irritated and one of the WORST seasons of JAG came to fruition.

I figured something else needed to happen after the conversation during the Dining Out. A conversation that we saw in two parts - one during "Hail and Farewell Part 1" and the other with flashbacks during "The Four Percent Solution." You know, another episode that made zero sense in the shipper world - Harm and Mac go back to status quo.

This new story will pick up right where I left off in "Disruptions" chapter 19 and start a rewrite of Season 10 with our fabulous duo getting into the swing of things as Mac recovers. It will be sweet, there will be some angst and romance, of course.

"Have A Little Faith" is named after a Richard Marx song I recently bumped into.

"You were just an innocent soul

When the darkness came and stole your light away

How can you be anything but still

When the warmths of tomorrow's

Buried in the chills of yesterday

Dive into the deep, find it in you to believe

In a place your wounded heart has never known

If you dare reach for me I wont let you fall alone

Have a little faith

Have a little hope

Have a little trust

In the great unknown

Love's been a razor deep in your chest

Made you feel like your runnin'

Out of breathe in slow quicksand

Its no kind of life being locked down tight

A heart like a flower needs a little light and a gentle hand

Let suspicion come to rest, cast away the loneliness

That you have carried to long

Wrap yours arms around this moment

Now, before its gone

Let the memories go blind and release your mind

From the ghost that rage inside of you

How can I get you to see baby, you could never be

To lost for me to find you

Just have a little faith

Just a little, faith

You and I can be ones who believe

In a love that lingers eternally

You and I could stay ever this way

In a love that lingers eternally"
Richard Marx - "Have A Little Faith."

CHAPTER 1

On the way to her apartment, they had been quiet. Harm concentrating on the road and Mac staring out the window wondering why she wasn't more greif-striken over Webb's death. She had mourned, somewhat. Gone to Hawaii to bring back his body - a mission that had been futile. She owed it to him for saving her life, for keeping her safe. And maybe that's why she wasn't as hurt as she should have been, it was Webb's fault she'd been put in danger to begin with. Webb's fault she'd developed a Stockholm's Syndrome of sorts and began to feel something more than friendship for the spy.

Clay had been her boyfriend, a man that she lov… With a sigh, Mac brushed away the single tear that fell from her eye. She hadn't quite loved him, not in the way she was hoping to. Time would take care of that, she had decided but, seeing Harm everyday shook her resolve. It was like being with Mic some years prior, and that was the crux of it all - She loved Mic but, she wasn't in love with him. She loved Webb but, she wasn't in love with him.

No the man she was in love with was navigating across Washington in his Lexus, offering to drive her home after Chegwidden's dining out. He was the only man who had always been there for her, no matter how shitty they'd treated one another. Why she wasn't with him had always perplexed Mac. There was an attraction there an undeniable chemistry that everyone saw but them.

He was the one she trusted above all else. The one that knew all of her demons and dark secrets. Harm was the only man she would follow to a war torn country, multiple times, just to have his back. Mac loved him, unconditionally and she always would. And it broke her heart.

"Here we are." She heard him say as he brought the Lexus to a stop just in front of her apartment building.

Harm wasn't looking at her, he was merely gripping the wheel like a vice and staring out. She wanted to ask him up, to not be alone with her grief and her thoughts, to just have a friend to lean on. But, her stupid pride wouldn't let her, not after everything he had said earlier. That, despite her being with another man, Harm still wanted to have children with her - he still wanted… what exactly?

"Mac." Harm began after several long minutes had passed. He felt her watching him and opted to try to remove the foot he'd firmly inserted into his mouth earlier.

"Harm, don't. I can't talk about that again tonight."

"Please, just let me say one thing and then I'll shut up." But, his grip on the wheel tightened and the things he'd been thinking about on the drive over bubbled up. Harm wanted to apologize at least, that's how it started.

"I'm sorry for what I told you tonight. It wasn't the right time." No, it wasn't - asking the woman you love to have kids with you after her boyfriend died was never a good idea.

"I always seem to say the wrong things around you. I don't know why it is but, you always have me flustered when it comes to talking to about my feelings. I want to be with you Mac and I know this isn't the time but, just tell me to wait and I'll wait forever if that's what it takes I just need to know that there is a chance.. That I haven't completely blown it with you." He rambled through his words and took a deep breath, hoping she would understand. He couldn't look at her, didn't want to see the disappointment in her eyes if he'd made a mistake again.

If she didn't want him, that was fine too, he would continue to be there for her in any capacity but, he needed closure or didn't know he was crying until a single tear fell from his eye which Mac wiped with the pad of her thumb. That single touch sparked to life something that seemed to have died between them - an ember that was still glowing and could be easily rekindled.

Mac leaned over to him and raised her hand to caress his face her fingers gently running over his cheeks, his eyes, his lips like a blind woman wanting to commit every detail to memory. Her heart ached for him, for them, and everything that was once in reach that seemed to fall apart. Her touch seemed to heal some of that and piece together whatever was missing between them. Harm leaned into her touch and pressed a soft kiss into her palm making her skin tingle inexplicably.

And then, Mac kissed him. It wasn't passionate by any means but, sweet and soft and Harm remained impossibly still hoping this wasn't a dream. "Wait for me." She said against his mouth and then brushed her lips over his a final time.

His arms came around her in a hug and Mac held onto him longer than she should have. She needed this, needed his strength to draw on when her world seemed to fall apart. With a sigh, she pulled away and made to open his car door when she stopped. "Damnit, I shouldn't ask this of you." She began, pausing to bite her lip nervously. "But...Can you stay over? I just...I don't…Nevermind.." His hand on her shoulder stopped her exit.

"You don't want to be alone?" At her nod, Harm smiled softly at her. "Anything you need." He shut off the car and followed her into the building.