"Ah! Tsukki!" I moan.
"Yamaguchi shut up or we'll get caught," he says as he pushes himself deeper into me.
I bite my bottom lip to keep myself quiet for my two hands were against the wall pushing me up so I wouldn't fall to the ground.
Tsukki hit my sweet spot. I use all the power I have to refrain from moaning loudly, but I do cum and it lands on the wall and floor. Tsukki cums later inside of me.
I turn my head to see him take his member out of my butt, I gasp as he does.
"Tsukki, I..." I love you. "I think we should go before they find us."
Tsukki pushes his glasses into place, "yeah," is all he says.
As we put our clothes back on and clean the cum off of the wall and floor, I am reminded of how pathetic I really am.
We started doing this kind of stuff last year. It started when I accidentally grabbed Tsukki's hand during gym class to ask him if he wanted to be my partner in warm-ups. Then rumors started to flow. Things like "Tsukishima and Yamaguchi are a couple" started to travel around the school.
I remember kicking the wall in my room when Tsukki came over after we learned about the rumors.
"Tsukki's not gay!" I yelled as I kicked the wall while Tsukki sat on my bed watching me. I remember even then I loved Tsukki but I promised myself to never let him know no matter what.
"What if I was Yamaguchi?" Tsukki said. He got up and walked close to me, "can I see if I am?" He started to get too close. I nodded without thinking and he kissed me. We were alone, my parents were out for dinner, no one but us were in the house. Which was perfect for what we did next.
I don't know how Tsukki knew how to do it but he did. We had sex for the first time together. Afterwards Tsukki said, "Yamaguchi, I-"
But I stopped him and said, "If you don't know we can keep doing this until you know for sure if you're gay or not."
Tsukki looked at me surprised and nodded, "alright," and that was how it all started.
I know it's mostly my fault but I knew what he was going to say, "I don't want to see your face anymore," and I couldn't have that. Tsukki, I love you too much. I would die if I could never see you again, and I know if I were to tell you my feelings you would say it was gross and leave me then too.
"Yamaguchi, let's go," Tsukki says putting his headphones around his neck.
"Okay! Sorry for the wait Tsukki," I force a smile. The smile I always wear after we do it.
As we walked out and home my mind wandered. We did it in the locker room again at school. I just hope no one saw us, but then again it's past time when practice is over so Tsukki's reputation should be okay.
When we reached my house I turned around to Tsukki. It was a quiet walk all the way from school to here neither of us talked. But now I had to ask, the question I always asked after we did it: "So have you figured out yet?"
Tsukki stared at me for a long time before answering, "No."
I nodded, "well bye Tsukki. See you tomorrow." I walked inside my house.
He still doesn't know. That is the thing I hope for him to say each time otherwise he will leave me for sure. This is the only way I can stay with him.
Tsukki, I love you.
Yamaguchi, I love you.
(To be continued.)