So I haven't posted Kai/Rei in a while. Unacceptable. It's only, what, 1:30 A.M.? Pfft! An experimental drabble type thing, cause winter is here! Or at least pretending to be. Meh. It's late, and I'm crazy...
Brumal
It's wintertime now, the last dregs of autumn swallowed by white frost and long, chilled nights. It's a shame, really, because Autumn is Rei's favorite season. It seems he's always smiling during that season, always content, eyes shinning bright as leaves change colors and blow to the ground, some a golden hue reminiscent of his own eyes. But never a real match. Kai loves the winter though, always has. It reverberates with something deep inside of him, how something so bitterly cold can wield such fiery passion, lashing out at the world with savage winds and cruel lashes of ice. Winter reminds him of Russia, of past failures and triumphs, of derisive teammates who somehow in that god forsaken Abbey became his brothers.
Night falls early now, and Kai dreams vividly of before, and remembers, when fear was his closest companion, fueling scorching fires of hate that destroyed his enemies…and everyone else. Including him. It had hurt, but it was what he had always done, all that he could ever remember doing. It meant survival, and what more could you ask for but one more day? Surely that was worth the pain, worth the loneliness, because if it wasn't… There just wasn't any other choice. The ultimate goal was to be. For that to happen, he concluded, others had to fall. Hope for something better was a liability, to be discarded quickly and completely.
With time, Rei had changed that. Rei had come, exuding sun and life and living and acceptance and love. He was Kai's new flame, one that soothed instead of burned.
Thoughts like these come to him often during the winter, and Rei sometimes wonders what's going through his head. Sometimes he asks, but Kai just shakes his head, happy with the truth he has come to realize in the sharp clarity of freezing air and misty breath.
Fear and hate go hand in hand… but so do love and living.
Ummm... Really curious about whatcha think of this one, it's kind of different... Review and I'll send you hot chocolate and cookies!