Visage of Love
BY: Shajira
Being away from your love is hard. Not being able to know her feelings is torture. But having her feelings thrown in a void means agony. What is the real visage of love? Happiness? Misery? It's not always what it seems to be…
Disclaimers:Me no own CCS only the continuation of the plot!!!!
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"Sakura!!!!!!!"
"No! Syaoran, please…" Sakura pleaded when Syaoran tried to reach her. It is now time to lose her feelings, the Void is weakening. And she doesn't want Syaoran to get involve in her battle. God only knows what will happen if the Void takes notice of Syaoran.
"But you already used so much power!" he argued. "You don't have top sacrifice your feelings…I can be the chosen one since my feelings aren't so important."
"Syaoran…" The emerald-eyed card mistress is in tears. How can he say that? His feelings are important to HER…How can she tell him her feelings are meant for HIM? The void is getting restless…she has to change it now before she loses the chance. But not before, "Syaoran, I----."
"Please, Sakura…You told me how lonely you felt when you were trapped in a world without your most treasured feeling and i8 don't want you to feel that again. I am willing to sacrifice mine…for you."
'Syaoran, I'm sorry…I should do this…' she thought.
"Besides, even if the Void does take away my feelings I will never lose them forever. I will surely love you again and---," Syaoran's eyes widened. Something is holding him back preventing him from saving her. "SAKURA!!!!"
Sakura smiled faintly. This is it. As the void takes her feelings away, she regrets never telling him her feelings, but she is prepared to part with them for the safety of her family, friends, and the rest of the world.
"I love you, Syaoran."
But those never left her lips.
"SA-KU-RA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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"Li-kun, are you alright?"
Syaoran snapped out of his reverie. It is not the time to recall what happened three nights ago…
He smiled at the girl beside him. "Yeah, no worries. But how many times do I have to tell you not to call me that?"
Sakura flushed hearing that. "Ano, Li-kun---."
"Syaoran."
"Huh?"
"Call me, Syaoran."
Sakura just stared at him without blinking. "Uh, okay, Sya-syaoran…"
"Oi, Sakura! Syaoran!"
"Tomoyo-chan!" Sakura bubbly greeted as she ran to her cousin.
Syaoran sighed as he watched the two conversed as if nothing happened. The night Sakura lose her most treasured feeling, he saw a certain emotion in her teary eyes. He swore it was love. But the moment Void acted, it was gone.
And that marked him as just simply an acquaintance to her. A card captor companion.
"Do you think there's still hope for her to have her feelings back?" Yukito asked beside him who just appeared out of nowhere.
"I…I will make sure of it."
"Then why aren't you stopping her?"
Syaoran just look at the man in front of him. Right now he can't comprehend whether it's Yukito or the Moon Guardian he's talking to. But he's right. Sakura is leaving and he isn't stopping her.
"Syaoran, come on. Sakura is leaving! She'll be late for her flight," Tomoyo called them.
"Let's go."
Syaoran just numbly followed Yukito to the airport. Fujitaka will be away for a dig. His dream was finally granted when a group of archeologists invited him to Egypt. And he's sending his daughter to a boarding school in England since his son is old enough to look after himself. It seemed that Fujitaka only waited for the Nadeshiko Festival to passed before dropping the bomb.
And now is the time of departure.
"Take care, kaijuu. Don't scare Europeans away."
"Onii-chan, Sakura not a kaijuu!" And with that, the sight that greeted Syaoran is the stomping torture for Touya.
"Ow, ow, ow, OW!"
Yukito, Mei Lin and Tomoyo followed suit in bidding Sakura farewell. Fujitaka already left the day before and after that Sakura's friends and classmates held a small farewell party for her. Kero, on the other hand, will be coming with her as her, well, guardian, of course. (Yeah, a guardian of sweets.)
"Oh, I will miss you all!" Sakura said with Tomoyo still hugging her. "Don't worry, Moyo-chan, I'll tell Eriol-kun hi for you. I'll keep in touch. Ands don't forget about me!"
Mei Lin laughed. "Of course we won't. Especially a certain someone."
Syaoran gulped. Great, just what he needed.
"Hoe? Who?"
"Uh, he----."
"Sakura, I wish you a safe trip," Syaoran quickly said.
She smiles. "You, too, Syao-kun. I know that you'll also be leaving tomorrow. I don't know if we'll meet again but I surely am delighted being your classmate-----."
"Friend," Tomoyo coughed.
"Err…yeah, friend," she said with a giggle.
"Are you sure you didn't forget anything? Your luggage? And why is your backpack seemed bulky?" Touya asked. He dropped his gaze to Kero who is resting on Sakura's shoulder as a…plush toy.
"Uhh? My backpack?" She opened her backpack and pulled out a very familiar stuff toy. It is dark in color and though it doesn't resemble a bear it's still kawaii. "This?"
"Saku-chan…do you know who that's from?" Mei Lin asked carefully. She's watching both Sakura and Syaoran's reaction.
"Of course! Syao-kun gave it to me!"
"The brat gave that to you?" Touya asked with his usual glaring but none cared.
"And do you know how?" Tomoyo asked.
Sakura looked at them, puzzled. Why would they ask such things? And why does Syaoran look like he isn't breathing? But she answered them anyways. "He gave it to me the day he left for Hong Kong----."
"Why-----?"
"-----to say goodbye. Seriously, guys, if you're friend is leaving, aren't you going to see him before he's off?"
"Calling all passengers of Flight 107 to London, UK. Please board the plane. Thank you."
"Oh, there goes my plane. See ya all next summer!" And with that said, she left leaving them behind.
Syaoran felt something inside him. He doesn't want her to leave, he wants her to stay with him but he just let her walk out of hi life. Now he knew how she felt when he left.
And now, he regretted not telling her how much he loves her…after the encounter with Void.
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Sakura sighed. It's hard leaving your loved ones but she has to do it. She promised her father that she would be strong. But she misses them already!
Her gaze landed on the stuff toy Syaoran gave her. She touched it's ears, it's nose, it's eyes…every thing until she couldn't stop herself from cuddling it. When she told them that she got the toy when she said good bye to Syaoran, it felt like something is missing…
"Weird. Why did it feel like there's a heavier reason on how I got this from him?" she murmured to herself. Then she figured it must have been the lapses in her memory. When she woke up after the encounter with Void, she realized that she couldn't remember some things…
--- TWO DAYS AGO ---
"When will she wake up?" a worried male voice echoed in her brain. She can't see a thing.
"Soon," a female one answered.
"Soon? Tomoyo, you've been saying that since last night!"
"So?" another female voice argued back. "She needs rest!"
"But-----."
"Will you calm down, Syaoran?"
She couldn't follow anymore the conversation. Why are they arguing? "Uhhh…"
"Sakura!"
"She's waking up!"
That's when she opened her eyes. It's blurry at first but after a while everything came into focus. And the first thing she saw? Worried gorgeous amber eyes.
"Sakura, how are feeling? Are you hungry? Thirsty? Do you need anything? Tell me, please, don't scare us that way."
"I'm alright, I guess," she mumbled uneasily as she rubbed her temples. "Li-kun," Syaoran flinched hearing his last name. "What happened?"
"You don't remember? As in everything?" Tomoyo asked. She looked at everyone in the room. Syaoran, Tomoyo, Mei Lin, Kero and Yue.
"I remember the fight with the Void Card but why did I lose consciousness? Didn't we succeed?"
"Sakura, in order to seal the card, the most powerful magician should sacrifice her most treasured feeling…"
"And I was the one…but what did I lose? What was my most treasured feeling?"
Everyone became deadly silent. Especially Syaoran.
"Well?"
"You're the only one who can tell," Syaoran answered for them in a voice void with any emotion. But she can clearly see the hurt in his eyes until he quickly masked it…
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She sighed again. She later on found out that most of the memories she lost are with Syaoran…but why?
That's when she felt something pointed. It's coming from the back of the toy. She inspected it and found a small rolled paper inserted INSIDE of it. She took it out and read the contents.
If Only
If you only knew how much I care for you,
You wouldn't need anyone else.
If you only knew what I feel for you,
Would you leave me for someone else?
What I only need and everything I want
Is something only you can give.
Forgive me for being blunt
But I just want a love to receive.
All I ask is for you to cherish me
For I know that I won't be around forever.
Just hold me and you'll see
That maybe, just maybe, I'll be gone sooner.
But if you're in pain, with just one call
I'll be there to give you all.
Her eyes widened. Then she felt the plane move. It's taking off!
She looked out of the plane window and felt that she left something…
Her heart, maybe?
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Well, what do you think of that? Many say that my one-shots need longer versions but sad to say I AM LAZY, ehehehe, but don't worry, if you liked this one, I could write the part two. NO PART THREE. I really want to make a two-shot but if you, guys, think this is enough, so be it…
Ahehehe, I should be updating one of my fic but I've got no time encoding the new chapter of American Beauty, you see, I reached 12 midnight and it was All Saints' Day yesterday and today is All Souls' Day…
Another reason why I updated this because we are hosting a two-day HAUNTED CHEMISTRY LAB (way down to hell, baby) in school and I'm going to be a witch (why is no one surprised?) to raise funds and at the same time a sort-of project of our batch, ehehe
Thank you so much to those who continue supporting American Beauty, Endlessly, Eternally, Because of You and Memories of Destiny…Maraming Salamat!!!
Mwahugzzzz,
Shajira