Mind Lock

Chapter 1
The Little Voice Inside My Head


Lily Evans lay on her stomach, blissfully stretched out on a blanket beneath a tree. Her head rested on her arms turned to the side to gaze delightfully upon her boyfriend, James Potter who sat beside her. The Hogwarts grounds were practically deserted, except for a few second years, or maybe they were first years, diligently studying beneath a nearby tree. The entire school, or so it seemed, had decided to spend their free Saturday in Hogsmeade, except for Lily and James. They had decided to spend a romantic afternoon down by the lake.
Lily rolled over and sat up, resting her head on James' shoulder. She giggled as he kissed her. Oh you like that? whispered James. He wrapped his arms around her to kiss her more passionately.
Lily pushed him away slightly, people will see. James raised his eyebrows and smiled speciously. He pulled a shimmery cloak out of the basket beside him and covered Lily and himself.
No they wont. He laid her down and kissed her again. If Lily could only see the faces of the younger students nearby, shocked as they watched two pairs of legs intertwined. Lily pulled the Invisibility cloak off of them, trying to give James a superior glare–– one of those we-should-not-be-doing-this looks–– but she couldn't keep it for long. James seemed to get the message though. He lay back, faking a grumpy look. Lily propped herself up on her elbow facing him.
Don't give me that look, she scolded. He kissed her again.
Last one, swore James, for know.
Lily smiled. She had never been happier. she said, d'you ever think about the future?
Well sure Lils, sometimes. James looked a little perplexed.
Well, I've just been thinking lately. We're going to be graduating in a month and then what? She sat up and looked at James. We're going have to find careers, we'll be starting a family––
James grew ridged. Lily saw the fear in his eyes. Well not necessarily you and I, Lily said, slightly dejected. I'm just saying, we don't know what going to happen. Whatever's out there I want to be ready for it.
James sat up and wrapped his arms around Lily. Nothings out there that you have to worry about, kiddo. Just you and me and I'll protect you. Always. Lily rolled her eyes, but smiled anyway. A year ago Lily would have been offended. She was perfectly capable of taking care of herself; she didn't need a knight in armor. At the moment James' chivalry seemed overly sweet and very adorable.
Lily leaned back, resting her head once again on his shoulder. I know, she murmured.
What Lils?
I just–– she paused. I just wanted you to know that I love you.
James dropped his arms and did not speak. Lily closed her eyes. She was hurt but she would not let James know it. He was not allowed to hurt her. She took a breath and turned to face him. She smiled brightly. I mean you don't have to say it back, if you don't want to. I just wanted to let you know.
He looked panicked. She kissed his cheek and laid her head back on his shoulder. He wrapped his arm around her automatically. She closed her eyes and her breath slowed, sleepily. See, it's okay, Lily told herself. You said it. It just takes guys longer to realize their feelings. He still wants to be with you.
Does he? said a vicious little voice in her head. Do you really think it's even possible for him to love you Lily? Perfect James Potter love a worthless Mudblood like you? He's using you Lily, don't you see? You mean nothing to him.
 That's not true, moaned Lily.
It's not? And how would you know? Don't you want to know what he says about you to his little friends? What he really thinks about you? I can tell you, Lily. I can give you the power. Just do me a favor. One little favor. Just take out your wand for me.
 Lily felt her arm mechanically move towards her pocket. She pulled out her wand and rolled it through her fingers. Good said the voice now all you have to do is whisper two words, just two little words, and all the power you could ever want will be yours. Avada Kedarva. Say it Lily, Avada Kedarva.
 She felt her mouth open and the words begin to slip off her tongue, Avada Kedar–– NO! She screamed. I won't. I won't–– Her breath came out in short pants.
Lily? Lily what is it? Such concern in his voice as he cradled his distraught girlfriend. Lily wrapped her arms around James' neck and muffled her cries in his robe. Shhh, baby. Shhh. He stroked her back, trying to calm her. It's okay. It's just a dream. A nightmare. You fell asleep.
Lily nodded, fearfully. That's right, she muttered. Just a dream a dream a bad dream.
That's right, said James, helping Lily to her feet. Come on, it's starting to get dark. He led her back to the castle, enchanting their blanked and basket to follow close behind. Lily realized she must have been asleep for quite awhile. The sky above the Forbidden Forest was sinister crimson. She yawned and snuggled into his chest, James was a good half-foot taller than her, probably more. He wrapped his arm around her waist and supported her weight as they walked. Lily smiled. See, she though, he really does love you. Or at least he likes you an awful lot. Lily laughed.
James asked.
she mused, just thinking. James brought his hand up to smooth her red hair, running his fingers through it as they continued to walk in silence. Past the Great Hall, up the changing staircases, down the hall until they reached the Gryffindor common room. James lowered his hand back to Lily's waist then sweetly kissed the top of her head.
The Pink Lady in the portrait sighed. I wish my sweetheart had treated me like that, she sniffed. You don't know how lucky you are.
Yes I do, thought Lily.

The portrait swung open revealing the entrance to the common room. James grabbed Lily's hand and led her through the common room towards the staircase to the girl's dorms. He kissed her, receiving cheers and whoops from the few in the room.
Way to go Prongs! yelled James' best friend, Sirius Black.
Lily laughed but stopped abruptly to yawn.
Good night Lily.
Lily smiled. Night James, she whispered. I love you. And James just nodded.



A/N...Ok, I know this isn't very good. I haven't written anything in like 2 months and I haven't written any fanfiction in like 2 years. I just got into it again. So please review with kind, constructive criticism. I'm working on it...

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