Everyday I see you and I want to tell you… Let you know how I feel…
But instead I hide in the shadows, avoiding your eyes and their hypnotizing depths. I cower when I find out we're going to be in the same room, afraid I might lose my self-control.
I've tried avoiding you. I'll dodge down a misleading corridor if I hear your voice ahead of me. My ears are open for that noise, because it's so soothing and draws me in like a dog on a leash. I wonder if you realize what your simple words do to my heart.
Let me not see that smile again or I fear I would never look away. Like the morning sun it fills my heart with happiness and my stomach with butterflies. No, I will never stop looking and watching for that rare smile of yours.
Do you hear my heart beat when you approach? I know everyone else can, I don't remember how many times I've been confronted and questioned. But can you?
At least a dozen times I've tried to throw you away, give you up like a little girl's stupid crush, but it doesn't work. As if fate was trying to mesh us together, we got closer at those times. That's when you spoke to me, and your lips would pronounce my name and…oh…how sweet it would sound.
But now…you're there whenever I feel alone and you remind me that I'm not.
Still, I want to tell you…I need to tell you…But like rain on a window, the words wash away and I go back to watching from the shadow of the clouds.
So it seems I can only say it to myself and hope you hear it, wherever you are…
I love you.