Bloody Kisses
There's blood on my hands. In fact, there is blood everywhere, on my face, dripping down and staining my once white shirt a deep red. In my mouth, the copper taste I once hated – only now it is sweet. I want more and I hate myself for it. I can't believe I slipped, even though, even though I knew it was coming. All these years, trying to push the truth aside but still knowing deep down what my destiny was to become. I sit up further in the bed, the blankets are warm but they give me no comfort. The cold steel in my hands is the only option now. I tilt the gun and Bloody Rose catches the light and shines. Once my weapon and now a means to an end, my old friend can serve me one last time.
As I am about to place the gun to my temple it happens, the door flies open with such force it slams into the wall and almost breaks the hinges. Of course, it would have to be, in my final moments he comes to gloat. I point the gun at him. If he thinks he is going to stop me or be the one that ends my life, he is sadly mistaken. If need be, I'll take him with me. It doesn't matter anymore, nothing matters anymore. "Kuran I don't know what the hell you think you are doing but if you don't leave now, I will shoot you." No reaction, the bastard even smirks and then calmly closes the door and locks it. Whatever he has planned, I want no part of it. I cock the gun. "Really Zero?" He waves his hand and suddenly I can't move. I'm frozen as if bound by invisible chains. "You can't kill a pureblood that easily. Even you should know that." He walks towards me, slowly taking off his coat and dropping it to the floor. Undoing his tie and letting it fall as well. "I'm doing what must be done. Cleaning up your mess and stopping things before they go to far." One pale hand reaches out, long white fingers like the legs of an obscene nocturnal spider. They play upon my arm, lightly grazing the skin before settling on the revolver and gently pulling it from my grasp. He lets it fall to the floor. The chain tying me to the weapon rattling and tugging me toward it. Yet still I'm frozen, an insect trapped in amber. I'm at this monster's mercy and there is nothing I can do about it. In one smooth motion he pulls my arms down to either side of my body and straddles me. Powerful legs pinning me to the bed, pushing me back against the headboard with no chance of escape. One hand fumbles at my waist and my breath catches. "What are you doing?" He stops seeming to find what he was looking for, there is a click and he holds up the end of the chain. He stares at me with his dark brown eyes, so unreadable, one eyebrow arching up and a smile playing upon his lips. "I'm doing anything I want." He lets the chain drop. "I'm just making sure you don't do anything stupid in the heat of the moment." Before I can question further, his lips are on mine. Tasting, licking, kissing – an intimate embrace like I've never had before. I've never felt so violated so used yet my body responds. My damn body responds, heat rising and desire pooling deep inside. As his tongue pushes into my mouth, I feel myself open and I'm kissing him back with a hunger I've never felt before. Long black hair brushes my face and I can smell him now, cinnamon and musk and blood. Just as I'm falling into sensation and craving more he pulls away. Brown eyes now a deep red as he licks the blood from his lips. "Yuki's blood." A statement, not a question, he knows. "You could have killed her." My head snaps to the side, the only movement I have left. "No, never. I could never hurt her." He grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. "You won't always be able to control yourself. Even now you are slipping." My eyes flash and my face burns, both with shame and anger. "Then kill me. Just do it. Put the rapid dog down. It was what I was going to do before you so rudely burst in." He smiles at me but it's sad now. I don't want his pity. I don't want anyone's pity, I just want it to end already. I'm tired of fighting. "No Zero. She cares for you. Your death would wound her deeply and I can't bear to cause her any pain." I look down, my eyes burning, filling with tears. I don't want to hurt her either. It's the last thing I want to do. He puts one finger under my chin and forces my head back up, locking eyes with me. "There's one thing I can do. At the very least it will buy us some time." Then the bastard is smiling again, enjoying himself. Again, with his lightening quick movements, so unexpected and he is at my ear. His lips ever so gently grazing my tender skin. His voice whispering in my ear, soft yet powerful. "I need to punish you too. One way or another you need to learn your place. You don't feed from her." A dark chuckle and his tongue again dragging slowly up the curve of my ear. "This is actually the perfect punishment. You will replay this scenario in your head again and again. Late at night, during a quiet moment during the day, your memories will rush in and you will relive it all again. Hating yourself, loving it, wanting it again, wanting more, wanting me." A trail of hot kisses down my neck, over my tattoo and then the pain. White hot lightening piercing me as his teeth tear my flesh and just when I thought I would shatter into a million pieces. The waves came crashing down, pleasure flooding me like I had never felt before and at the same time he released me from my hold and I could move but I didn't want to run anymore. My arms clung to him, pulling him closer, my fingers clawing his back as he drinks my blood. I was dimly aware of a low sound and suddenly realized I was hearing myself softly moaning. "Oh Kaname." Then he pulled back and it felt like I was falling. A rug yanked out from under me. "No." I clutched at him, trying to pull him back. Then the hunger with its crushing power. More powerful than I had ever felt before, worse than when I had attacked Yuki. He was watching me closely, licking my blood from his lips. He was smiling sadly again although now it touched his eyes. The sadness reflected back from those burning garnet eyes, those blood red vampire eyes. "I'm sorry Zero but I knew you wouldn't take it voluntarily. You need it and now in this state you can't resist me." He grabbed his shirt and violently ripped downward, silver rose buttons scattering through the air and baring his pale white chest and neck to me. He pulled me toward him, pressing my face into his neck. "Drink." And I did. He was right. I couldn't help myself. My fangs pierced the pure white flesh and the blood red nectar of a pureblood filled my mouth. And I drank, now with him clinging to me and me pulling him down. I drank deeply, heart racing, sweat dripping from my body and when I heard him softly whimper I bit down harder. He's right, whether I want to admit it or not. It was ecstasy. It was like searching for something your entire life and finally finding it, the best thing in the world. And although I do burn with shame, I long for it again. His touch, his kisses, his teeth buried in my neck as his hands roamed over my body. I long to taste him again, to drink from that sacred well. Too soon he was pushing me back and pulling away. "Zero enough." And though I hardly felt sated I obeyed. He collapsed next to me on the bed with a sigh and I was frightened. I had taken too much, I had hurt him. My hands brushed the hair from his eyes. "Kaname! Kaname, are you okay? I didn't mean…" One eye opened and he reached up and pulled me down beside him. Our noses touched and he silently studied me. "Shhhh, you can't hurt me. I'm just tired now. I need to rest and so do you." He pulled me closer, arms wrapping around me. I could move now, he had broken the spell. I could have pulled away. I could have gotten out of that bed and stormed away but I didn't. I closed my eyes and with a contented sigh I went to sleep.