Name: Dirty Lens
Author: SWaddict1986
Fandom: Scrubs
Characters: J.D. (with thoughts on Elliot)
Notes: Done as a "Songquickie" meme on LJ. I put my iTunes on shuffle and the first 10 songs inspire 10 songquickies to be written in the time it takes for each song to end. This is longer than my original as I don't have that restriction now.
Disclaimer: "Dirty Lens" is sung by The Hanks and "Scrubs" is not my show…unfortunately ;)
He didn't normally drink alone, but tonight he made an exception. He sipped the last of the appletini, paid the bartender then left.
He wandered down the streets, wishing he could get drunk. But no, he had to be at the hospital early in the morning, and even the two drinks he had were starting to give him a buzz.
He couldn't help but glimpse inside open windows at the happy couples and wish he could be them. It wouldn't happen, not now, not ever again. Oh sure, he would bury his feelings deep inside and pretend to be happy as he slid inside the warmth of another woman and held her soft body close to him, but it would only be a façade. Even if he wouldn't call out her name, it would still be Elliot's face in his mind.
But she was marrying someone else. It was bad enough that she was with another guy, but that's how the two of them always worked. This time…this time was different. All their past trysts ran through his head as he unlocked the door to his apartment. Empty, of course, as his bed would be.
He collapsed onto it, the small bit of alcohol shutting down his body faster than it should have with all the thoughts running through his mind. He was so stupid not to realize how much a part of his life Elliot was before now. It was too late; she'd be with Keith forever and John Dorian would have to trudge through life with a piece of his heart missing.