Kathryn turned the corner at the hospital and placed the large stack of files in the wire basket on the counter. "Amy, these are all done everyone's been medicated and sleeping hopefully...check on Mrs. Kelvin, she said her stitches are bothering her. I checked them, but she likes you better."

"Kat, you work too much, don't you have any fun?" Amy smacked her gum as she spun around in her chair. Her red hair was thrown up in a messy bun as she sat at her desk surrounded by make-up she had been applying for the last hour.

Kathryn laughed, "Unlike you, I have no time for fun lately." she picked up a file from the in pile and leafed through it.

Amy slid it away from her, " You're shift ended an hour ago, go home, have a drink, get laid." she giggled, "Hey, speaking of which Dr. Sexy is coming this way!" she squealed. As she undid her hair and let it roll down in messy red curls. Her already tight scrubs she adjusted trying to make her boobs more exposed. Kathryn rolled her eyes and cringed, since she started nursing at the hospital it seemed like every doctor had his eyes on her, and even though the attention was nice she still longed for Dean every night. She pretended to be reading the file she grabbed back from Amy praying he wouldn't stop to talk.

"Hi, ladies," Dr. Mark Stephens or Sexy as Amy called him said," Are you just getting off Kathryn?"

"Hopefully," Amy whispered to her widening her eyes.

"Umm. Yeah, Mark, but I'm headed straight to bed I've got nothing but double shifts the rest of the week." She dropped the file back in the bin and grabbed her purse and reached for her jacket behind Amy's desk.

"Well, I was on my way out and I'd love to buy you some breakfast or dinner depending on what you're in the mood for," he grinned with his hands in his white coat.

As Kathryn turned to look at him, a strand of her blonde waves spilled in her eyes and before she could push it behind her ear, Mark attempted to push it for her but she backed away with a lump in her throat. "Sorry, I really need to get going," she could feel her stomach twisting in knots and her heat tightening.

Dean walked down the hospital corridor praying Kathryn was working. The girl on the phone had said she worked all the time, so catching her here was his best option. As he turned the corner his heart raced as he saw her standing in light purple scrubs with a light grey thermal underneath, her back was turned to him and he saw her talking to another girl at the desk. Her long blonde hair was wavy and pulled back in a loose pony tail. He could see she looked like she was trying to go home as he noticed her purse, keys and jacket lying on the counter. He took a deep breath and as he stepped around the corner he watched a doctor walk up behind her and tap her on her shoulder. Dean stayed back for a minute watching to see how this unfolded. He was hoping it was a work related conversation, but he wasn't stupid. He instantly noticed that the guy like her as he watched him flirt with her and Dean couldn't help roll his eyes as he overheard the him asking her out. Deans stomach was in knots with jealousy, he would always see Kathryn as his no matter how separated they were. He stood there frozen as the doctor tried to push a piece of hair out of her face and when she backed away Dean smiled, maybe she still felt the same way.

Kathryn felt sick at what had just happened and prayed she could make a quick getaway.

"Amy, call me and let me know about Mrs. Kelvin, I'll be back in twelve hours," Kathryn all of a sudden felt a sense of familiarity wash over her. These days she often had small aftershocks of her angel powers, but this felt different. She turned around searching for the had triggered it and what she saw made her feel a sense of safely wash over her. As she glanced behind her still talking to Amy and Mark. "...Dean?"

"Mark," Dr. Stephens said confused but as he saw the look on her face his eyes followed hers to see what had her shaken up. Kathryn's heart fell as she stood almost frozen biting her bottom lip.. He was leaning on the wall in hands in the pockets of his green jacket. He face was flushed from the change of the cool fall air I the heat id the hospital. She could tell something was wrong, his eyes looked bloodshot, like he'd been crying and definitely looked like he hadn't slept in a while. Kathryn walked slowly towards him as Amy and Mark watched confused.

"What's wrong? Are you okay? Where's Sam or Bobby?" Kathryn sounded panicked as she looked towards the door to see if he had come with someone. She prayed every night he would come here for her but she knew if he was here something had to be wrong.

Her hands were shaking as she placed them on his chest without thinking. It had been six months since she'd seen him and she had to hold her breathe to keep from crying as he spoke finally.

"If this is a bad time, I can go...the girl I called earlier said you were always here...but if you need to get home..." his voice didn't sound steady as he avoided looking her in the eyes.

She took a deep breath and as tears slid down her face she grabbed him and pulled him to her pressing her lips to his. "God, where've you been, Dean?" She ran her fingertips lightly against his stubble cheek as she pressed her lips to his again. He placed his hand on the small of her back pulling her closer as he hugged her, "If this is a bad time, I'll understand I should have called first," Deans voice was sounded strained like he was holding in tears as well. "I'm good, I promise. I want to spend time with you," she held his face with both hands and looked into his eyes searching for answers. "My house is two blocks from here and I usually walk home, did you drive? Do you want to give me a ride home? Or we can go get food?"

"I'll take you home, I don't feel like going out." he said.

He nodded as he held her close, smothering his face in her neck kissing her neck softly. They seemed to have forgotten they had an audience as Amy cleared her throat. "Hi, I have forgotten how rude Kathryn is...I'm Amy her hot single best friend, please tell me you have a twin brother." Kathryn rolled her eyes as she broke there embrace and held Deans hand leading him towards Amy. "Sorry, Dean this is Amy, and Dr. Stephens," Amy stood adjusting her scrubs again as Dean Shook both their hands. "HI, nice to meet you," he flashed Amy a smile.

"Wait, Dean like tattoo Dean?"

Mark shifted uneasily and Kathryn could tell he was jealous as he sized Dean up.

"Tattoo Dean?" Mark raised his eyebrows.

"Yea, she's got this little tattoo of his name right here," Amy pulled her scrubs down to show where it would be on her bare skin. Marks eyebrows raised and Dean cocked his head smiling, he whispered to Kathryn, "I like her." Kathryn cringed as this situation was getting more awkward and all she wanted to do was get Dean out of there, who knew how long he was here for and the last thing she wanted to do was waste time. "Amy!" Kathryn blushed as Dean laughed and leaned on the counter, "Did she tell you where mine was?." he grinned as he tangled his fingers through Kathryn's hand and rubbed her palm with his thumb as Amy stared at them with dreamy eyes.

"His is on his back, stop picturing him naked," she snapped her fingers at her face trying to break her trance. "You said you would never bring that up..." Kathryn tossed a file at Amy as she laughed dodging it.

"Yeah we'll that was before I knew how hot he was, damn girl I might get his name on me too..." Amy fanned herself while she fawned over Dean.

"So, Kathryn never mentioned she had a boyfriend, what brings you here, Dean, was it?" Mark stood up his shoulders back trying to match Dean in height, but he was barely at eye level with Dean.

"Well, he's..." Kathryn started, these days she didn't know what they were. She told him she would wait forever if that's what it took because all she wanted was him, and if it took a lifetime for him to stop saving the world, even if it killed her in the process. The thought of being with someone else was worse to her than being alone.

"I'm in the army, I just got some leave, so I thought I'd surprise her." he kissed the top of her head pulling her close as if to signify she was his. Dean wasn't in the mood for this guy.

"Well, Kat, how sweet," Mark said pushing a smile across his face. Kathryn knew it was fake and part of her wanted to slap it off him.

"Woe, you're a hero...he's saves the world too?" Amy had stars in her eyes; at least someone was being nice.

"Come on," Kathryn grabbed her purse and slid her jacket on, "I'm tired," she reached for Dean's hand and he grabbed it as she led him out of the hospital. "See you guys later."

"Nice to meet you Amy!" Dean yelled back at her as she leaned across the counter watching them go. She was excited to see her friend with someone for a change. "Isn't he just dreamy?" Amy asked Mark as she watched them leave.

"Yea," he rolled his eyes as he stomped off.

As the doors to the hospital slid open a cool breeze from the night blew Kathryn's curls making her shift slightly. She looked up at the sky and the moon lit the sidewalk up and she took a deep breath.

"Sorry about her, she's a hopeless romantic." she rolled her eyes as she dropped Deans hand and dug in her purse for her keys and some Chap stick.

"And you're not?" he smiled at her and it made her knees weak.

"Come on, I parked over here." he led her to the impala and Kathryn bit at her nails nervously. Dean walked to the passenger's side, unlocking the door and opening it for her. She shivered as she slid in and Dean shut the door quickly running to the other side. She could tell the car hadn't been on too long ago because the was still warm on the inside. She shut her eyes inhaling the smell of the leather and her heart hurt thinking of the times they had shared in there.

They didn't speak as he turned the car on and pulled out of the parking lot.

"Just go right out here," she pointed, "and it's the fourth house with the red door."

He nodded as they stayed silent. She looked up at him and her heart was going crazy.

It was after eight at night, so most cars were off the road, while meant little traffic as they continued on. It took less than five minutes until Dean pulled into the driveway of Kathryn's house. He turned the car off and put the keys in his pocket as they sat there again in silence. Kathryn was happy he had turned the car off that at least meant he was staying for a while. He turned in his seat to look at her and they stared at each other for what seemed like forever again. Their eyes never left each other's as Kathryn realized she was holding her breath. She let it out slowly and her chest hurt from the lack of oxygen. She was afraid if she spoke or moved he would leave so fast her head would spin.

She slowly inched towards him and it felt like forever till she finally was close enough for her to exhale with comfort. She searched his eyes for answers and he took his hands leading them through her hair and cupping her face. She leaned into this embrace and their noses touching. She closed her eyes as she felt got tears streaming down them. Her heart knew he wasn't here to stay and every minute felt like it was counting down as her chest tightened with pain.

She felt his lips on her cheeks kissing her eyes and nose, tracing her jawline with his mouth as she whimpered, the more she held back, the harder the tears spilled. She opened her eyes and looked into his, and she was shocked at the tears in his. His eyes glassy as a few spilled out and he stroked her face keeping her close. His eyes feel to her lips as he slowly pulled her in as his lips touched hers softly.

She moaned as she closed her eyes leaning into him. She grabbed the front of his shirt and pulled him closer as she tasted the salt on her face of their tears. He pulled her by the back of her head closer to him as if he was hanging on for his life. He kissed her hard and urgently.

"I missed you do much Katie baby," he spoke in a husky voice between kisses and she moaned with satisfaction.

He pulled away from her mouth but stayed close to her, "I came to tell you something baby," his voice cracked a little as he searched for the words. "I know I've made a lot of mistakes and there are things I've done that I can't take back but I know the life that I live. I know how it's going to end for me. I'm okay with that. But I wanted you to know, that when I ever I picture myself happy, it was always with you."

Tears spilled from her eyes as she was more confused now than ever. Her chest burned knows she buried her head in his chest trying to breathe. "Dean, what's going on? Why are you telling me this? What happened?"

"Nothing you have to worry about now. Listen, Kat, I'm..." He looked away from her. "Things are going to get bad." He looked back at her trying to keep it together. "You'll be protected but promise me you'll stay right here. No matter what you see on TV or hear on the radio you'll stay put right here."

"Dean you're scaring me, what happened? What are you going to do?" she had a hard time keeping her voice strong.

"Promise me? Please? I need you to do this...I wouldn't ask you if it wasn't important. If something happened to you I don't..." he looked at her urgently.

"How can you ask me that? After all this time, everything we've been through? You're showing up after six months of barely returning my calls or texts and asking me to do this?"

"Kathryn, I can't risk you getting hurt again, I lost you once and I told..." he looked away," I can't do that again. At this way I know you're safe, you living a normal life and I can't hold you back from that. I shouldn't have made you feel like it was wrong to want it." Dean pleaded with her.

"But I want it with you...Dean, I don't care if it takes forever...I love you..." she cried as she pleaded with him.

Dean's eyes softened as he looked into her swollen eyes, "you know I love you too, and I wish I could be here with you. My whole life I never thought I'd want this," he signaled toward the house and her clothes, "some normal apple pie life, but you baby, we're a game changer. I want this so bad, "he closed his eyes pressing his face to hers as Kathryn continued to cry.

"We're?" she whispered.

Dean closed his eyes, praying he would open them and things would be different, that he could stay and not break her heart.

"Listen, I'll send Sam to check on you, and Bobby, I know you can take care of yourself but just in case..." he said holding her close. She had her teeth clenched as she shook with tears.

"Dean let me help you, I know I can, you can't always save everyone," she stroked the back of his hair.

"Baby, you've saved me before, those things I did to you in hell, you never gave up on me, no matter what," he was trying to say the things he had always meant to.

"You know what they say, True love conquers all..." she whispered it in his ear as her head rested on his shoulder.

"I never thought that was true until you but I'm the only one that can save everyone. I just wanted you to know that okay? Please don't hate me Kathryn; I'm making sure you get taking care of, in more ways the one. But I have to go. I can't stay," he held her hands that were resting on his chest.

"How is this taking care of me if you're not here?" She started balling again, this was more then she had cried in her whole life, "Please stay, just for the night, Dean, I promise I'll do anything you want me to I swear, just give me one more night,"

She wrapped her arms around his neck holding him and she cried harder. This feeling was worse than anything; she didn't know how to stop crying at this point. "Please," she whispered.

Dean knew he shouldn't, having this conversation with her had been hard enough, but leaving her would be way worse. He held her and let her cry it all out, as he stroked the back of her hair. He knew if he stayed it might make it easier on her and he felt

Like he owed it to her, so he decided to give her what she wanted, it was the least he could do.

"So, what's it look like in there?" he asked looking through the window to her house. The outside of it was nice with a wraparound porch. Her heart skipped as she knew it was his way of agreeing to stay. "Oh you know, velvet from the ceilings to the floor," she joked. He kissed her cheek and signaled toward the door. She climbed off him slowly as she grabbed her bag, wiping off her face with her sleeve and he looked at her holding her hand as he lead her out of the impala. She led him up the stairs clinging to his hand afraid if she let go he'd disappear.

She set the keys on the small hook by the door and he followed her in locking the door behind him. He smiled noting the salt lines and devils trap hidden under her door mat. She threw her purse down on a chair and she led him into the kitchen. His eyes widened at how big her house was. The ceilings were sky high, and the house was for at least four people. The walls were all painted different shades of brown, gold and yellow and the house felt like a home.

"I need a drink, please tell me you want one," she half smiled, he looked at her and her nerves were beyond torn up.

"Yea, that will be good." he stayed close to her as she walked to a small bar area and poured them two large glasses. She gulped hers down quickly and poured another one before bring Dean his.

"Easy tiger," he laughed as he took the glass from her hand and pulled her into him as he downed his drink. Kathryn spun around so her back was pressed against his stomach as she leaned against him trying to calm down.

"This is really nice," he said pointing to the house.

"Thanks, it's been taking me a while, it's a lot harder the. You think picking out all this stuff is easy, but Amy's been a lot of help." she looked around proud of the home she had made, even if it didn't have him in it.

"Well, it feels nice, in here, I don't know how but house should feel." he kissed the back of her head.

"Thanks, but it's still missing something, then it will really feel like a home." she said softly as she gulped down her drink fast and turned around slowly in his arms again to face him.

"Why did you keep it blonde?" he asked running his hands through her waves.

"I tried to dye it back, the color doesn't stick" she moved her hand to the edge of his shirt as she sat her glass down.

Dean left small kisses on her neck as she leaned closer to him pushed his jacket off onto the floor. Her lips met his as he pulled her against him. He picked her up and swapped places placing her on the counter as she pulled at his shirt and tossed it to the floor. He grabbed at her scrubs and yanked it off of her. "These are sexy by the way," as he threw them on the floor. "Who knew you could be so respectable?" his voice was husky with lust as his lips lingered in front of her mouth.

"Not quite the same as the sexy nurse costume?"

"He laughed, "No, then I think I like the Minnie mouse better."

She rolled her eyes as she pulled him close, "You would," He grinned at her and pulled her back into a kiss.

"Bedroom?" he asked between kisses.

"Upstairs last door in the right." He picked her up from the counter and walked her to the stairs. She kissed and bit at his neck causing him to stumble and laugh as he darted to the top. He opened the bedroom door and placed her softly on the bed. They both kicked their shoes off and Kathryn peeled off the rest of her clothes and as she lay back on the bed panting. As Dean removed his clothes and climbed top of her as he kissed up her legs. He parted them as he immediately headed for her center, inserting two fingers in side of her. She was soaking wet and he could feel her tightening over his fingers. She whimpered, she wanted him

And fast, it had been six months and she couldn't take it anymore. He pushed his mouth on her center and sucked on her clit making her hips buck against his face. As he curled his fingers in her and she could feel herself erupt with pleasure.

"Dean, please I can't wait," she begged.

He smiled wickedly at her and climbed up her kissing and nipping on the way up. When he reached her face he slowed down for a minute. If this was his last night with her, he wanted to savor it. He lay on his side next to her, "Come here," he whispered, signaling for her to come closer to him.

Kath into rolled toward him and he pulled her closer to him. He kissed her passionately, holding her face as she stroked her hair. At the sudden change is pace, Kathryn felt her heart ache again for him. He had his hand of the back of her neck pressing her close to him as she whimpered. He rolled back on top of her lips still pressed as he spread her legs, she felt herself gasp with anticipation. She could feel him pressed to her and as he slid in her slowly they both opened their eyes staring at each other.

"I love you, I always have, and do you know that?" Dean asked as he slowly worked into her making her squirm.

She couldn't speak as she dug her nails into his chest squealing as he filed her up.

"I love you too" it was barely a whisper was all she able to say as she felt the tears coming back.

She went to kiss him but he pulled back, and smiled, he wanted to soak up how she looked in this moment.

She could feel she was close as her eyes rolled as he went deeper into her. He sucked in her bottom lip making her cry out with pleasure. "I'll love you forever, no matter what, okay?" he groaned in her ear whispering those words. Tears began sliding down her face as she felt herself let go and as he trusted into her and she felt him come she quickly followed and they moved together making it last longer.

He lay there on top of her as he kissed her again. The taste of her lips was sweet as slowly pulled out of her and pulled her to his chest. They laid their noses touching as they caught their breath. "You're perfect," Dean whispered.

"Down right angelic," she teased.

He pulled her into a long kiss, once again taking her breath away.

"I'm sorry, about the last six months, those things I said to you I didn't mean, I'm sorry for a lot of things lately." he avoided looking at her again. She felt her chest hurt, this reminded her of the days before she died, and the de jam VI makes her uneasy.

"I don't want you to think that I was leaving you, it's not you that was the problem it was me... The hunting,"

Dean held her face, "you don't have I explain, I'm not mad..."

"I just want you to know, in case whatever you're doing really does mean I won't see you again...after I came back it's like I didn't have the heart for it anymore. It's like everywhere I looked, all I saw was fear, sadness, and pain. And this thing that Alistair put in me...I don't know it's like you said, I grew up never knowing I would want this, but now..."she pleaded to him.

"Now you don't understand how you never did. " he finished her sentence, he did understand now more than ever because he longed to be with her in this house, loving a normal life, but he felt too cursed to ever have it.

"There's only one thing missing, and then I wouldn't long for my old life..." she now avoided his eye contact.

"Kat, if I could be here with me would, but Sam..." he tried to explain but he didn't want to worry her about what was going on.

"I know baby, Sam needs you..." she choked back tears.

Dean heard the words and even his heart hurt.

"Please baby, don't cry," his voice sounded shaken as well. Kathryn buried her face in his neck. Her heart hurt so bad she felt like she was going to pass out. He rocked her and rubbed her back trying to calm her down again. As the room quieted down and Kathryn's breathing had slowed, they both closed their eyes trying to sleep. Dean missed holding her do much he was worried he was squeezing her too hard but before he knew it he closed his eyes and drifted off to sleep and for once he felt relaxed.

Dean woke several hours later and he could hear a soft gurgling noise from Kathryn's stomach, ad he could help but laugh.

"Are you hungry?" he asked looking down at her noticing she had been awake for a while. "Why didn't you wake me up?" he was still chucking.

"I don't know, I was comfy," she said, "I'm sorry, I just worked three twelve hour shifts, and I hate hospital food."

He laughed, "You should have said something come on," he sat up and tossed her his button up shirt and he threw his boxers on and t shirts. She smiled watching him, as she dug around the room for her panties and followed him downstairs.

"So what does a nurse eat?" he teased opening her fridge as she sat at the breakfast island.

"I don't know same stuff smarty, I honestly want a sandwich, but let me make it, you're a guest." she rose pushing him to a chair as she kissed his cheek. She looked at the clock and it was two in the morning, her heart sunk because if she knew Dean well enough he wouldn't be her much longer after sunrise.

Kathryn walked to the fridge and took the stuff out to make a sandwich with, while Dean watched memorized by her. She reached for plates and as she stood on her tiptoes His shirt she was wearing rode up revealing just enough to make him lick his lips and turn his head.

"Okay, maybe you're a guest but stop watching me struggle," she wined turning around without the plates in her hand.

He rose quietly and walked to her pressing his body against hers seductively, she stood there so small compared to him. He reached above her grabbing what she had wanted and placed them on the counter staring into her eyes. He brought her chin to his mouth and lightly pressed his lips to hers. She shivered slightly as her layer her head down for second on his heart listening to it beat slowly.

"Thank you," she whispered. He stayed at the counter as she moved to finish making their food. She grabbed a bottle two beers from the fridge and set everything up on a small tray.

"Where are we going?" Dean looked confused at the beer table she was avoiding sitting at.

"Back to bed," she replied as she struts out of the kitchen returning to the bedroom with Dean following her smiling the whole way.

As they sat in bed eating quietly, Kathryn turned the TV on for background noise. She flipped around until she settled on Dirty Dancing.

"So, where are you going when you leave here?" she asked breaking the silence.

"I don't know yet why?"

She sat there silent for a minute, "Sam called while me while you were asleep. He wanted to know if you were here, why didn't you tell him where you were going?" Kathryn could tell something was going on between them.

"Sam doesn't need a play by play every time I leave, obviously he knew where I was," Dean answered no chanlanty.

"Listen, I don't want to ruin you being here and you to feel like I'm interacting you, but why won't you tell me what's really I going on? Because trust me, I could find out without asking you, but normally we don't lie to each other," Kathryn stared at Dean searching for answers.

Dean took a long drink from his beer, "I don't want you to be worried with this, I know you, and you'll try and stop me,"

"If the roles were reversed would you do the same?"

"It's no one's job to protect me," Dean said and Kathryn could hear anger rising in his voice.

"How can you say that? Everyone needs to be saved at one point." Kathryn felt tears rolling in her eyes, as she thought back to hell and what she had done and went through to save him.

Dean rose from the bed looking out the window. "I'm going to say yes..."

Fear washed over her as she thought of what that meant.

"Are you crazy?" she yelled, "What the hell is the matter with you?"

He looked down and smiled, "You sound like Sam."

"Why does that make you smile? You're just going to give up? That's why your here isn't it, and that's why Sam sounded so worried." she pieced it together as she felt sick after eating and drinking.

Dean couldn't even look at her as he heard the disappointment in her voice and fear.

"Kathryn,"

He heard her sobbing and he got sick to his stomach.

"Hey," he rushed to her and knelt down rubbing her bare legs, "this is why I didn't want you to worry, I shouldn't have come here," he leaned in and kissed her thighs.

"So now I'm a mistake?" she glared at him.

"That's not what I meant and you know it," he looked at her shocked she would suggest that, "I meant I shouldn't have upset you. This isn't your problem, so Sam or I shouldn't bother with this. It's my responsibility. I can't keep running from it."

"Dean, promise me you won't say yes, you of all people know what they'll do to you, and for what? They can't be trusted! They wanted Sam to set Lucifer free so what makes you think this isn't a trap? You and Sam are the best defense against the devil and they want to lock you in? Tell me every instinct you have its saying this is wrong?" she pleaded with him.

Even though he agreed with her, he didn't see any other option.

He reached for her face kissing her,

She pulled away, "Don't try and..." he pulled her mouth to his close and held her neck so she couldn't move. The harder he kissed her the more out of breath she was. As he over from her lips to head to the spot on her neck she could barely catch her breath to talk. He immediately ripped at her clothes and kissed his way down her stomach pushing her back so he could peel her panties off. She leaned back up on her elbows trying to stop him but he was to strong and determined to not talk about anything. He gripped her hips with his hands and pulled her down closer to his mouth making her lose her balance on her elbows. She groaned but before any protest he started kissing and sucking on her inner thigh, which at first tickled but soon the laugh turned into a moan as she felt herself getting wetter for him. He teased the left thigh then immediately switched to the right. She yelps with pleasure as he circled around what she desired the most.

"Why are you doing this, "she moaned, "Dean, please," she tried to stop him but he kissed at her middle, sucking and biting softly as his tongue darted in and out of her. Kathryn could feel herself erupting with pleasure as she lost all focus on what Dean had told her as she called out his name slowly moving her hips within his grasp. He broke away his mouth from her and replaced it with two fingers slightly curled as they moved In And out of her. "You know, this would be heaven for me baby, spending all night inside of your hot little body," he looked up at her his eyes full of lust climbing closer to her face. As he slowly pulled his fingers out of her leaving her panting but she recovered quickly. As Dean moved to take his clothes off Kathryn leap from the bed.

"What's wrong?" he looked confused as his shirt dropped to the floor. He stood up on his knees and only boxers and the sight of him made her heart race as she tried to put distance between them.

"Stop distracting me," she panted barely breathing.

"Don't act like you didn't like it," he stared at her and smiled wickedly and it made her body ache.

"Dean, I love you more than anything, I can't just let you walk out of her to say yes...look at what those angel and demons are doing to us? Don't you see?"

He looked down at the floor not wanting to hear what she had to say.

"Ever since the deal and hell, the demon blood is Sam, the angel blood on me, and now this you guys as vessels? Dean I don't trust them, anyone for that matter, even Castiel. The only I ever trusted was this," she signaled toward then two of them.

He walked from the bed to her and took her hands in his and brought his chest close to her.

"What does this mean for us if you go? What am I supposed to do just pretend I don't know what's going on? Forget about you? How could I..." her voice cracked.

Dean didn't know what to say as he stood there his hands in her hips rocking her slightly praying the closeness will bring some small comfort.

"I want you to stay, with me I want to be the one you come home to. I want to have dinner on the table and you to have a normal job that you tell me about. I want us to be a family, I want..." she was afraid to continue Bessie she knew she was overloading him, " I want to have kids one day, not tomorrow or anytime soon, but one day I would and I want it with you. I know that you want to. Every time you look at me or kiss me I know it's true. I know nothing will ever be a sweet or as true as this." she placed her hand on his heart. He closed his eyes trying to hide the tears because she was right a part of him did want all of that, but he knew he could never have it.

"Kathryn, it doesn't matter if I want those things or not, it's never going to happen."

"It matters to me," she pressed his hand on her heart as she inched closer. "You matter to me, I don't want you to say yes...if you do...it's going to kill us." she had her hand hooked in his jeans.

"Kat, look at me," Dean pulled her to the bed and he sat down staring up at her.

"I love you, more than I ever thought I could love someone and if things were different..." he stopped afraid to say the next words." I can't risk you getting hurt, they know our weaknesses, me, you, Sam, bobby, anyone we love is a target. Baby, I want those things with you, I swear, but if I don't do this everyone is going to die."

Kathryn could say anything, the selfish part of her wanted to say screw everyone else, but she knew how they had been raised, the responsibly of everyone else weighed higher than their own. She stared into His eyes realizing this was going to be there last night together. With tears in both their eyes she smiled at him holding his face her hands. She straddled him and pressed her lips to his savoring the kiss.

"If this is your last night, I don't want to argue. I trust you whatever, you're going to do I'm with you okay?" Dean wiped the tears sliding from her eyes. He nodded and pulled her into a kiss, his movements were now soft and loving. Kathryn's heart raced as he moved to lay her down on the bed softly. "Dean?" she said softly in the dark as he kissed her neck softly, running his hands over her shirt. "Hmm," he stopped looking into her eyes. "I'm yours forever, no matter what, here or gone, heaven or hell, alive. Or dead, okay?" her voice was soft as it cut through the darkness.

"Try telling that to ," he grinned, unbuttoned her shirt as he kissed the middle of her chest.

"I've been waiting for a comment about that all night," she shook her lead smiling, "Well, I'll make him understand," she laid back shutting her eyes as Dean kissed her down her stomach to her tattoo. He bit at it softly then began sucking on it as he rubbed his hands up her thighs.

"Baby, I knew you mine, from the first day I laid eyes on you, I was just too stupid to realize it." Dean's heart hurt as he moved back to her mouth and pulled her into a deep kiss.

Kathryn could feel the sun shining in her face as it crept through the windows. She instantly felt coolness in the bed and she turned around and the bed was empty. Her heart fell as she scrambled up; throwing on Dean's shirt she wore last night and ran down the stairs. As Kathryn made it downstairs swiftly she opened the front door and there is the driveway was the impala, parked right where Dean left it. She breathed a sigh of relief as she felt a small tear fall from her eyes.

"Did you really think I just left?" Kathryn turned around to see Dean, freshly dressed and standing in the kitchen drinking a cup of coffee.

"It wouldn't be the first time, old habits die hard." Kathryn stood there staring at Dean. He looked good in her kitchen; she thought how nice it would be to wake up to this every day.

"Well, I have to get back, Sam's been calling and the last thing I want is any angels coming up here looking for Me." he sipped his coffee

"Wait like ten minutes and I'll be right back." she didn't wait for an answer as she as scrambled upstairs to the shower. She hopped in, brushed her teeth, and washed her hair and body as quickly as she could. When she finished she flew out of the glass doors almost tripping and laughing. She ran to her closest trying to find something sexy and comfortable to wear. She slipped on a light grey cotton dress that had three quarter sleeves. The fabric was slinky do it clung to her body. And the dress length stopped mid-thigh. She pulled on some sparky purple socks and a long sparrow necklace. As she ran to the mirror she braided her blonde hair in her usual side braid and ran down the stairs applying lip gloss.

She heard Dean whistle from the table as she smiled.

"I don't want the last time you see me to be with bed head and pillow creates on my face," she teased.

She walked in the kitchen and went to the fridge to pour herself a glass of orange juice, her nerves were too uneasy for coffee. As she sipped it with the fridge door still open she felt Dean come up behind her and wrap his arms wound her waist and rest his chin in her shoulders." I love you," he said softly.

Her chest tightened as she nodded unable to say anything all of a sudden. He pulled back turning her towards him. Kathryn placed the glass on the counter. She wrapped her arms around his neck, massaging the back of his hair as she smiled, titling her head , and pressed her lips softly in his at first, then Dean grabbed the back in hair and pulled her into a passionate kiss, that when he pulled away until she was breathless.

"Promise me you'll stay here, and do what I asked?"

"When have I ever done what I was told?" she grinned at him, "I'm kidding, if that's what you want, then I promise." he swayed her around the kitchen taking a mental note of how good her little body felt. He nodded and pressed his lips to hers again. When he pulled away this time he pressed his nose the hers closing his eyes and Kathryn could tell he was keeping from crying...

Dean led her to the front door grabbing his duffle bag as they head to the impala.

He popped the trunk and threw the bag in there and looked around, the neighborhood was quiet, birds were chirping and everything seemed peaceful. He looked back at Kathryn, her arms held close to her body for comfort, and mentally prayed to him that she would be okay. Dean walked to the driver's side door and leaned against it his hand his pockets, unsure what to say.

Kathryn stood in front of him, so little and fragile, and he reached for her hands. Kathryn accepted his, and as she walked closed to him he pulled her into a very passionate kiss. He wrapped her arms around his neck holding him tightly as she felt tears streaming now.

"I love you, baby, and okay? No matter what?" she said between kisses, trying to wipe her tears off into her sleeve.

"I love you too baby, I wish I could stay with you, but," he looked down she already knew what the answer would be.

She pulled away from him, even though it has been hard, he kissed her hands and sat down in the impala, shutting the door as she watched.

He reached through the window for her hand and he kissed her palm, like he had done so many times before, making her laugh.

"Goodbye, Kathryn," he said softly.

She nodded, tears streaming, she refused to say goodbye, "I love you," she whispered backing away from the impala.

She walks up the drive way still facing him as he started the engine and put the car in reverse. She waved to him letting him know she was okay; he nodded at her smiling, and backed out of the driveway. Kathryn turned quickly unable to watch him really leave. She heard the music of the impala click on, and she brings me love echoed loudly through her neighborhood. She smiles herself and looked back, but he was gone, and the song faded as he left her neighborhood.