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I couldn't believe that I was at this concert. How is this going to help? He isn't going to want to see me, or Jamie. He never did really care about me. All he wanted was to use me and he did, now look where I am. I'm in the best seats to an amazing concert with a baby and I can barely breathe. How am I going to keep my composure around him? I thought what we had, had been perfect.
I'd never been happier in my whole life. I was in love with Jesse McCartney. Yes, Jesse McCartney. We spent almost every moment of every waking hour and then some together. No other guy has ever been able to get that close to me before and probably no other guy will again.
A year earlier
Sure my parents thought that me getting my own apartment at eighteen was a good idea. They just had a strong belief against boys. So I wasn't planning on telling my parent's about Jesse. I was putting together the final touches for my date with Jesse, when someone knocked on the door. I wanted tonight to be really special. I'd decided to give my whole self to Jesse. Of course, I was terrified, but Jesse meant a lot to me and I knew that he felt the same way.
"Hey." I said, with a smile as I opened the door.
"Hi…wow, you look great." Jesse said, taking in the full view of me.
"You think so?" I said. I was wearing a simple outfit, some dark blue jeans and a cute maroon blouse.
"Well, I always think so." He said, pulling me into his arms.
"Thank you." I said, letting him softly kiss me. "Wait…I haven't seen your whole outfit. Take a step back and let me scrutinize." I said.
"Does it hurt?" Jesse joked, stepping back. He was wearing some blue jeans and a green shirt, a perfectly normal outfit…but, damn, did his butt look good.
"Nope…it isn't going to work." I said.
"What? Why not?" Jesse said, startled.
"Your butt looks too cute." I said, with an impish smile.
"Oh, that's it." Jesse said.
"No. You just look too damn hot in that outfit. If we went out in public, I'd have some major competition." I said, with a serious face.
"Thank you for the compliment. And you know there is no competition." Jesse said, kissing me.
"I do? Hmm…I don't think so. Maybe you should make me believe." I said, flirtatiously.
With a sly smile, Jesse grabbed my hand, and led me to the couch. As I was sitting down, he gave me a fiery kiss. "I'll be right back." Jesse said.
I watched him put a CD in the stereo, and take the remote into the other room. I sat there for at least ten minutes, wondering what the hell he was doing. Out of the blue, the stereo began to play 'Girls Just Wanna Have Fun'. Jesse came struttin' out with one of my dresses on, singing in a high-pitched voice.
"Wow, Jesse." I barely got out through the laughter.
"It's taking a lot of my pride to do this." He said, between verses.
"Okay…stop…stop…I believe you." I said, when Jesse began to dance. I was practically hyperventilating from laughter.
"What? I couldn't hear you over the music." Jesse said, turning it off.
"You just want me to say it again." I said.
"Oh…if that's all you wanted to say, I can finish the song." Jesse said, with a smirk.
"No, no…that's okay. I said, I believe you." I said.
"It takes a lot of love for a man to put on his girl's dress and put on a show for her." Jesse said, kissing me.
"Yeah. Now, can you take my dress off?" I said, biting my lip to hold back my laughter.
"Oh, I guess. I just feel so pretty." Jesse said, in a girly voice.
"Oh, get." I said.
When Jesse came back with his actual clothes on, he said, "What do you want to do now?"
"Sit." I said, patting the couch next to me.
"Okay. I feel some seriousness coming, meaning we are going to have a talk. Before you say anything, I just want to say I have a very fragile heart, so let me down easily." Jesse said, sitting down next to me.
"I'm not going to break up with you." I said, rolling my eyes.
"Oh, okay. What is it then?" Jesse said, looking at me.
"I want tonight to be special for us. Not that every moment I'm with you isn't special, but I love you more and more each day. I…I want to give myself completely to you." I said, nervously looking at Jesse.
At first I thought I saw a hint of fear in his eyes, but as quick as it showed it disappeared showing only passion. He romantically grabbed my hands and led me to the bedroom. He then kissed me, gently at first, but he began to intensify the kiss by ensnaring my tongue in a battle. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer. I felt his hands moving down my back. He grabbed my ass and pulled me as close as we could get with our clothes on. I could feel his erection grind against my hips. I gasped in surprise to the largeness of it.
Jesse suddenly pulled back, and breathlessly said, "Did I hurt you?"
"You could never hurt me." I said, pulling him back into a kiss. My hands explored his chest, mesmerized by his body. I found my hands at the hem of his shirt. I was about to pull it off when he stopped me.
"Are you absolutely sure about this?" Jesse asked, moving his hands from mine and rubbing my shoulders.
"Jesse, I've been absolutely sure about this since I let you in the door." I said, pulling his shirt up. He helped me get it over his head. When I touched his body, he jumped, and laughed.
"Cold hands." He said, kissing me. His hands worked my shirt up. I threw it across the room as I desperately pulled him closer. Jesse covered me in kisses, walking back towards the bed. He fell back so I was over him passionately kissing him. I unbuttoned his pants and began to work them down, kissing him down the whole way. Jesse grabbed my hands and pulled me back into a kiss. He pulled me close then quickly flipped us over, so he was on top.
A throaty moan came from Jesse as he struggled with my skintight jeans. I laughed as I removed my hands from his body long enough to help get them down. Jesse ran his hand from my ankle up. I arched my back when he reached my inner thigh. His fingers seductively ran over the waistband of my low-rise panties. "You are driving me mad." I groaned.
"You are driving me crazy." Jesse whispered into my mouth as he kissed me. He unhooked my bra and slowly pulled it away showing my perfectly rounded breast. Next thing I knew panties and boxers were off and Jesse was positioned to enter me. I kissed him deeply to let him know that I was ready. Our bodies began to move as one, our hearts beat as one; we meshed into one being.
Jesse collapsed on me, after we went over the edge of ecstasy. "That was amazing." Jesse breathlessly said, rolling off of me to next to me pulling me close.
I couldn't say anything. I was mesmerized at the thought of it actually happening. I actually made love with Jesse. I gave him the most precious thing I had, me. I snuggled closer and eventually fell asleep in Jesse's strong arms.
I woke up alone. "Jesse? Are you still here?" I said, grabbing some clothes as I got out of bed. No one answered. I went to the kitchen after getting dressed and found a note from Jesse.
Rebecca, my love,
I'm being torn up inside as I write this note. I can no longer be with you. It isn't anything that you did. You are perfect. I can't…I don't…I'm not right for you. I will always love you, and please forgive me for breaking you heart. I will never bother you again.
My heart still belongs to you,
Jesse
I couldn't breathe. It felt as though someone had ripped my heart out and sewed my chest closed, leaving an empty hole. Then the tears came, and came, and came. I didn't stop crying that whole day.
The next day, as I sat still stunned in my living room, my best friend Jessica came to check on me. "Rebecca, you can't let him do this to you. Please don't get locked up in a shell. I'm here for you." Jessica said, hugging me after reading the note.
I began crying again, holding on to Jessica for dear life. "Why would he leave?" I bawled.
"I don't know, honey. I think he is scared of commitment." Jessica said.
"Well, wouldn't you think that he would have broken up with me before we…before…" I said, crying harder.
"Oh god. You guys had sex and then he left you. What if the fucker got you pregnant?" Jessica said, wide eyed.
"Please don't call him that." I managed to say.
"Rebecca, what if you are pregnant?" Jessica said, again.
"I don't know! I will tell him and maybe…god, I just don't know! Is that okay with you? I don't even know how I'm going to go on living. I don't know!" I said, more tears falling down.
"It's okay not to know what to do. That's what friends are for. Everything is going to be fine. You need to stop crying." Jessica said.
"I can't." I said.
"I don't want to hear 'I can't'. You can make it through this, because you are strong. You are stronger than Jesse is because you are not afraid of anything. You can handle anything that is thrown in your path. Listen to me, and stop crying. It will only get better from there." Jessica said.
I started to take deep breaths and eventually I stopped crying and began breathing normally.
"See wasn't so hard. Now time to remove everything from your sight that will remind you of…well you know who." Jessica said, knowing that if I heard his name I would begin crying again.
"Why?" I barely whispered.
"I'm just going to put them in a box and when you can stand to look at them then you can. Now give me the locket." Jessica said.
"No!" I said, jumping back.
"Fine, I'm going to get all of the pictures of him, and you guys together, and whatever else I can find of his. Then you have to give it to me. It will help." Jessica said.
"I will never take this locket off." I said, with a cold tone.
"Rebecca! Let me help!" Jessica said.
"Then go get the pictures. I have tons of them. Want me to help?" I said, still using a cold voice. I had gone into a shell where I could hide all my emotions.
"No, I can handle it. Why don't you eat something? You look a little pale." Jessica said, beginning to pick up pictures.
I didn't get anything to eat. I just sat there and watched as she removed all the pictures from the living room, then the kitchen, bedroom and anywhere else. When she came back with a box, I noticed Jesse's shirt from the other night and that the box was nearly full of pictures.
"Now I'm going to put this at the top of your closet and when you feel you can go through the box without having a break down, you can." Jessica said, smiling.
"Okay." I said, watching her put it towards the back of the closet. I got up and gave her a hug. "Thank you, so much, Jessica. You are the best friend a girl can have." I said.
"I know that you would do the same, probably better. Do you want to go get some lunch?" Jessica said.
I almost declined, but I decide to say yes.
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