Chapter 1

Bunny fic yaoi if you don't like stop reading :)

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(Prologue)

Butters' issues began to take a toll on him until he lacked everything that was him. Until Kenny Mckormick started hanging around him again changing their rekindled friendship into something possibly more.

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It had been a year since Butters' mom had passed away from a suicide that Butters still didn't believe had happened. He took it hard and didn't really talk to people anymore. He was just alone now.

Butters' father began seeing a lot of men just at the beginning of the year, only 6 months after his mom died. He was thinking of doing something productive to take his mind off everything, but it was too hard to do nowadays leaving Butters in his own head.

He found himself listening to music more often and connected to it a little more than people. After a few months of his mom's death he picked a up a horrible habit. Self harm, he didn't do it in normal places and did it rarely to avoid suspicious looks from his father.

He did it when the pain was unbearable to him. People around him wouldn't have ever guessed that good boy stotch was a cutter. He had some apparent scars and the rest had mostly faded. But it wa there. He contemplated suicide at times, but that was less frequent since he didn't have the hear to do it. Despite knowing that many wouldn't miss him.

Butters sat at the far left table near a window at the edges of the cafeteria during school he was quiet. That was until his quiet was interrupted by a certain parka wearing poor boy. "Hey Butters want some company?" He asked standing over him.

"Yea sure I guess." He said not wanting to be rude to him. Kenny was the nicer but pervy guy out of his four friends and him and Butters used to be quite close, so he had no reason to be rude to the orange clad blond. "Why do you sit alone all the time?" Kenny asked curiously sitting next to the other blond clad in a black hoodie.

"I don't know" he answered 'yes you do!' His head yell at him angrily. "You've been this way since sophomore year dude you were so talkative before" Kenny replied eating a cheap muffin from the cafeteria. "I guess.." he put his hood over his head and looked down at his tray of food suddenly no longer hungry.

"Is it because of your mom?" He asked triggering something in Butters. "PLEASE STOP! I can't answer because I just can't okay don't bring her up again!" Butters didn't mean to yell but it certainly brought everyone's attention to him.

With a look of panic he picked his things up and left the cafeteria. Kenny was scratching his head in confusion and something popped into his head. 'That hit a nerve...that was definitely it' Kenny sighed. "What was that fag's problem?" Cartman laughs shoving cheesy poofs in his mouth. "Nothing dude just let him be" Kenny said dimly.

Butters being 18 excused himself from school at the main office and decided he was going to drive somewhere, where he could be far away. He sees Kenny at his car and his brows raise "Why are you following me?!" Butters wa a little annoyed. "Because for a long time I've been worried about you. I chose not to pry or mention anything for quite some time and I want to know why you change from being one of my best friends to not taking to anyone or even at all for that matter!" Kenny shot back. "Look I wanna go home or somewhere that isn't school, and since you aren't going to be getting off my car door get inside it!" Butters said impatiently.

Kenny satisfied with the answer he got for now got in the car. Butters had never been this annoyed before, but at least he let Butters leave this hell hole. "Look I'm sorry about talking about your mom...the truth is I was that way when I lost my grandmother" Kenny said guilt taking over him. Butters sighed gripping the wheel tightly pulling out of his parking spot. "So you understand why I don't want to talk about it and I would gladly appreciate it" Butters felt a hint of relief as he saw the school getting further away.

It didn't take long for Butters to reach his home. He got out of the car not even waiting for Kenny who was quick behind him. They entered the door seeing Butters' father with a naked man on the couch. "Butters!" His father yelled as Butters turned around bac outside and slammed the door shut facepalming. "What's wrong?" Kenny asked the even more annoyed teen. "I just saw my father and his black lover on my couch..." Butters gagged and walked to his car. "Ohhhh" Kenny said nothing after that.

"Since you won't leave me alone I'm going to the movies..." Butters said trying to erase that image from his brain. "Okay and your right I'm not going to leave because I wanna hang out with you buddy I've missed us hanging out and if the only way is to force you then so be it" Kenny said getting in. Butters rolled his eyes a slight smile escaping from his annoyed features.

He kinda missed it too, hanging out. But his sorrow got the best of him. He gripped the steering wheel a habit when he's nervous. He didn't notice that his sleeve fell down his arm showing his upper arm where a scar from before had been hidden. "You do that too?" Kenny said dimly. Butters looked at him and his arm and yanked his sleeve back up. "Yea" he said looking at the road. "Hey I've done it too" Kenny pulled his sleeve up showing multiple scars "especially when my grandma passed".

They get to the mall where the theater is and Butters finds a parking spot. "Fine Kenny if you wanna hang out more I'll hang out...but it ain't gonna be a pleasing experience" Butters said getting out and walking towards the theater.

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To be continued in chapter 2