Author's note: So this is my first try of writing a story, I hope some of you enjoy it. Please have mercy it's also the first time that I right so much in english :-)

Sometimes i have the feeling that my translation from german to english is really bad, i could need someone to look over the english chapters before posting them.

Memories

It was over Corypheus defeated and the breach closed, one mistake he had done fixed.

And he was one step closer to undone the biggest mistake he had ever done in his long live, Flemeths petrified body lay in front of him. He could feel that the part form Mythal he took from Flemeth was in his body, but their bond wasn't complete at this time. Instead of hearing Mythals voice in his head, only whisper he couldn't understand was their.

He should be glad, relieved but he was only exhausted his power was still not completely back and the connection also cost him power. Everything he wanted now was to rest and sleep, one last view to Flemeth then he turned to a Eluvian, activated it and went trough it.

Moments later he found himself in some elves Temple ruins, after he found a place that was protected from rain but offered a good overview of the temple he erected a barrier so no one would disturb him in his sleep. Then he leaned exhausted against the wall behind him before he would collapse, leaning against the wall he slid into the moss.

Immediately his eyes closed and he drift into sleep and began to dream but something was wrong he had no control over his dream, because their two spirits were not yet connected he was not solely responsible for his dreams.

With fright, he noted that it was one of his memories he saw, one which he could hardly bear to see because they would bring him only pain and guilt to have done something unforgivable to her.

* Mythal why do you torment me with this? There are so many other memories in me. Even my crime to imprison the others would be easier to bear. *

He wanted to talk with her in his mind but also now there was only that whisper he couldn't understand. With all the force he had he wanted to get away from that memory but no matter how hard he tried he couldn't.

He was condemned to be the spectator of his own tragedy.

Now he saw himself with her in Haven how they talked to each other, looking into each others eyes. Then he heard himself speak.

„ It seems you hold the key to our salvation. You had sealed it with a gesture and right then I felt the whole world change. "

„ Felt the whole world change? "Ellana asked

„ A figure of speech "he answered quickly

„ I'm aware of the metaphor. I'm more interested in felt "

As she spoke she went close to him, Solas took a breath.

„ You change...everything "with a light smile on her face she looked away from him and said „ Sweet talker "only to lift her hand to his face after one moment so he would look at her.

It was a light and short kiss she gave him, she already turned away from him when he grabs her hips and pull her into his arms to give her one more passionate kiss. Short he interrupted the kiss and shake his head the first taught that he shouldn't do this went through his mind, but he wanted her one last time he sealed her lips with his ones then he withdrew from her.

„ We shouldn't. It isn't right. Not even here" he sad with a sad look on his face.

„ What do you mean, „Even here? " she asked confused.

„ Where did you think we were? "

„ This isn't real " she stated.

„ That's a matter of debate...Probably best discussed after you wake up "

The scene blurred the only thing he saw was her face, with the smile he loved so much.

Her silver hair which reminded him of the moonlight when the light fell on it, the glow of her green eyes when they talked which radiate curiosity and thirst for knowledge and after some time and her desire for him. Not to mention her perfect lips where he could hang for hours, of which he had tried unsuccessfully to keep his own lips.

* It was the worst thing I could do to her, I was to weak to resist my own desire for her and let her fall into misfortune. She did everything I asked for, had to sacrifice and suffer so much because of me. Probably it is the right punishment for me, if I get haunted from the memories of our time together for eternity.

Mythal isn't this enough? I know what a mistake it was to fall in love with Ellana...I had never expected to find someone like her.

But my own mistakes made sure that I do not deserve to be happy, to love and be loved *

In a try to blink away his tears that came up into his eyes, he heard that whisper again that he couldn't understand.

* My friend, I can not understand you, what do you want to tell me? *

It was bright at once and he had to close his eyes when he opened them again he looked at a sunset in the mountains. After a moment he needed to take a sharp breath.

* This is the view from Skyhold, What is so significant about this sunset? * But then he realized it.

* We are on Ellanas balcony * He had been only once in her chambers, his hands balled into fists his pain and sorrow for her loss were transformed into frustration and anger.

With all the force he had he punchs against the wall of Skyhold, hoping the pain would allow him to wake up and he could escape his memories.

But besides the pain only the curtain opened for the next act of his tragedy.