Stutters and all
She fainted again.
Why does she always faint? I don't think Hinata faints around anyone else. Maybe she's scared of me? But that doesn't make sense, she said I inspired her. She said I helped her be strong. I felt warm inside, like I'd just had 3 bowels of ramen when she stuttered that.
Why does she stutter? I know she's a shy, quiet person but she seems to have so much difficulty getting her words out when she's around me. Maybe she's nervous? But why would I make her nervous, I'm always nice to her. Even though it takes a while for her to get her message out, I wait, I listen, because I know she always has something important, or sweet to say.
Why is she so kind? I only later realised that she never picked on me at the academy, never teased, never yelled, never called me a monster. Maybe she never believed that? Even though I know her clan would've told her to stay away. Because they are cruel, and they don't deserve her. She's too sweet for them, always seeking their approval and affection. She's like me in a way. Maybe that's why she never teased me, we're too similar.
Why is she so shy? I know her clan was overpowering and strong, but doesn't she realise that she can speak up around me? Maybe she thinks I won't like her? But that's wrong, I do like Hinata, she stood up to Neji and changed him. She's strong, I know she is, but she always get's down on herself. Why doesn't she understand that were all here for her, her team, her sensei, me.
Why does she blush? I hope it's not because she's embarrassed, because I don't understand why she would be. Maybe she's embarrassed that she's too shy? That could be it. I always thought Hinata hated how she couldn't get her words across straight away like everyone else, but I've seen when she's more comfortable, when she's with her team. She speaks normally, sure if they say a joke she'll blush and stutter in her endearing way, but she's fine. So maybe it's just me that makes her blush? But why would I do that to her?
I am determined and I can be smart, even though I know I'm not that bright. I don't realise things straight away, I can't think of an amazing strategy like Shikamaru, but I can try, I can work to notice things. I noticed something after those two and half years of training, now that I'm back. I noticed that I missed her. I missed her fainting in my arms; it gave me a reason to hold her. I missed her stutter because I know that it just lengthens the time she has to talk to me. I missed her kindness that she showed to me, her and Iruka-sensei were the first people that shaped who I am to today, even though she never talked to me, it was just her being the only one who didn't tease me. I missed her shyness, because I know it meant I was important enough to her that she was worried about what I would think of her. I missed her blushing, because even though I know I'm thick, that I'm obviously missing something important concerning her, whenever her cheeks turned rosey, I thought she was beautiful. I don't know why I make her stutter/faint/nervous/shy, but I do know that I'm glad that I can make her forget everyone else but me. Because I want her to be mine.
Stutters and all.