Disclaimer: I don't own Glee

Okay so I think a lot of you will be familiar with this story because it was the one I wrote a couple of years ago but I wanted to completely redo it because it wasn't the story I imagined, so I'm going to rewrite it! I've kept the first chapter because I actually really like it but everything else is getting rewritten. I'm excited to write this again :')

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Okay I'm not known to be the most popular girl in school. Not even a regular person. I am a nerd. In school I only have one friend and his name is Sam Evans. We have been friends since we met in Freshman and we became friends as we have so much in common. We both love playing video games and we both read comic books and love super hero movies. Plus Sam was the only person I can trust. The pair of us only have each other in school so we support each other through everything. Especially when it comes to getting slushied. We are the main targets when it came to the Cheerios and football team. We get slushied at least three times a day which sucked as it meant bringing three pairs of clothes to school to change into. But there was one problem with the whole situation. The one person who slushies me the most is Brittany Pierce and I have a massive crush on her. Yeah you wouldn't think so, right? Well it's true. I have loved Brittany for such a long time that just seeing her face everyday keeps me going. There was also one other thing...I'm pregnant. Luckily no one could tell even though I was starting to show a bit but I covered it up with baggie hoodies but yes, I'm pregnant, and here's the other crazy thing. Brittany is the father so to say. It's been hard but it happened at a party three months ago. She doesn't remember what happened though but I do. Every day.

I'm currently sat in Math class. I am probably the smartest student in the class and quite possibly in the year and I am proud of it. At least I can say I was going to be able to get out of this place unlike some of the losers in here. Take Noah Puckerman for example. All he cared about was getting into girls pants and having sex and unless he wanted to be a prostitute, that wasn't going to get him very far. From what I've heard, he's been trying to get into Brittany's for a long time but there was obviously a reason to why he isn't going to. She has male genitals instead of female. Then there was Finn Hudson. He was literally the most gullible person I've ever met. He was stupid and all he did well in was football. I was asked to tutor him at one point and I did but he was literally so stupid. When I asked him what the number for pi was he said he thought we were learning about Math not pie. I didn't even like talking to him as I swear he couldn't keep up with an intellectual conversation. And I am actually happy as Brittany is in this class! Okay so I shouldn't really be happy about that as it meant that I had to get made fun of more but since it was her, I didn't care. I was looking at the board doing my work when my phone went off. I got it out and read the text. I smiled seeing it was from Sam.

From Sam
I'm bored dude. Anything interesting happening?

To Sam
Nope. Brittany keeps looking at me though. But she always does that as though I'm going to do something :/ What about you?

From Sam
Must like you if she's going to do that ;-) And no nothing here either.

I smiled down at the messages. He was definitely better to talk to than the people in this class. The teacher looked like he was going to fall asleep too. I hated every class that wasn't with Sam as it was so boring. I mean it was only Math and Biology that he wasn't in with me but still. He had Dyslexia so he struggled a bit but with my help he always got good grades. I didn't want him falling behind so I tutored him a lot and since I had learnt how to teach people with Dyslexia, we did alright. I knew Sam wasn't going to be a loser like most people in our year and I wasn't going to let it happen either. It was our last year here and I didn't want him stuck here. He deserved better than that. We have been talking about collages and Sam has such a passion for Art. He does so well in it and he is amazing at it. He has said he's applying for a college in New York that has an art course and I'm glad he is. As for me, I'm going to be applying for NYADA. I have always had a passion for singing and when I'm not at school I sing in the evenings at a local restaurant. Sam is always there to support me and I know it's something I want to do with my life. Only problem I have is that I'll have a child with me as well. I'm three months pregnant and by the time I graduate I'll be ready to have my baby. I know I won't have Brittany to support me so I'll just have to deal with it. She won't ever remember that night so I'm going to be alone. Speaking of the baby. Here comes the sickness. I raised my hand asking to go to the bathroom. When he agreed I ran out and went to the bathroom and threw up. Yes this was the worst thing about being pregnant and I hated it. Sam was helpful during times like this as he was always there to hold my hair and everything and he came to the appointments with me. He even told me that I should tell Brittany but I just couldn't. For one there was no way on this Earth she would believe me. She was so out of it at the time that I doubt she would remember. The second reason was she was terrified that if she told her she'd tell her she regrets it. Yes, she didn't say she liked it either but she was happy with that. She decided to text Sam to tell her what had happened.

To Sam
Hey dude I was just sick. Come to the girls bathroom?

From Sam
I'll be right there

If there was one thing I liked about Sam it was how fast he was at getting places. I love it as it meant I don't have to wait around forever and that was fine with me as it meant no sitting around pretending to be on my phone. I heard the doors open and Sam came running through the door.

"San! Hey, are you alright?" Sam asked me looking like he just ran here which was probably true.

"Yeah I'm good. I just needed you here with me as I have no one else." I groaned as I pulled up from the toilet. I hated this and it was all because I wanted to keep the baby. I am a firm believer in the fact that abortion is wrong and I am not going against that. No one knew I was pregnant apart from Sam. I couldn't tell my parents as they would be so disappointed in me and I couldn't stand seeing the look of disappointment in their faces. They knew what I wanted to do and even though papi told me he would prefer me to be a doctor like him, he would support me no matter what. They were the best parents I could ever ask for. They never talked to me about sex and what would happen if I got pregnant but that didn't matter. I am old enough to make my own decisions and this was the decision I am making. Actually that night went so fast and I had been so happy that it was happening so fast that I completely forgot to ask Brittany to put protection on. My fault completely and this is the consequence. I stood up after the feeling of nausea was gone and went to the sink splashing water in my face.

"Hey. Things will get better," Sam reassured me stroking my back, "I know they will."

I smiled and nodded. He was right. Things will get better, but I just need to wait for the good things to arrive. I always wonder if good things ever happen to me since I have definitely not had good luck so far. I really wish things would get better as I'm so tired of everything going wrong. Is it because I'm smart? Shouldn't smart people be getting respect from everyone else? That only happened after you were successful though, so when you are smart in a place like this, it is seen as a bad thing because you are picked on more. I hate it and I hate this place.

"I know but I am so tired of all the bullshit we get Sam. It is bullying and I hate it."

He sighed and nodded. "I know it's hard San but we'll get through it like we always do."

"And what if that isn't enough?" I asked curiously looking at him feeling tired. "I want this stopping now."

Before Sam could reply the bell rang. I sighed and walked back to class to collect my bag. Sam luckily already had his with him. Why didn't I think of that? I walked into the classroom whilst everyone was leaving and put my things in my bag. Damn this pregnancy sickness as I call it. What's the point in calling it morning sickness when it doesn't happen in the morning anyway? Urgh, stupid pregnancy. I saw Brittany still lingering around for some reason. Why didn't she just go? Her friends were gone and she was just stood there. Well it's her problem not mine. I walked towards the door when I heard the teacher call my name. Damn it! This is never good. I looked back at the teacher.

"Yes sir?" I asked even though I didn't actually care. I want to go and see Sam who is waiting outside for me.

"Can you just wait a minute? I would like to talk to you and Brittany if that's okay."

No it wasn't okay. Why would I want to spend another second in the same room with her? She knocked me up and never speaks to me apart from when she is bullying me. But god she is gorgeous. I nodded and walked back into the classroom. Mr Davis was putting all the marked work away whilst Brittany and I waited. It couldn't be because I am in trouble. I'm never in trouble. I just get on with things unlike some people in the class.

"Can you hurry up? I have places to be sir," Brittany asked rather rudely in my opinion but what did it matter? She's always like that.

"Well you will have to wait Brittany." Mr Davis replied calmly. He sat down looking at us. Why did I have the feeling this was going to be bad?

"Firstly let me ask. How are you Santana?" he asked me concerned. Great. Another teacher concerned about me. "You're grades aren't as good as the start of the year."

"Sir, seriously, I am fine," I reassured him not wanting him to know what was actually wrong. "It's my senior year so of course I am going to be stressed and what not."

He nodded looking at me. Thank god. He is dropping it. It took the other teacher around 5 minutes before he would drop the subject. I really need to be better at looking well.

"You just seem...distant. Your dress sense has changed and you don't talk to anybody." Mr Davis said looking at me. Oh my god seriously? When did I ever talk to anybody before? Sam is my only friend and we go through everything together. It's how we do things. And why is Brittany here then?

"Okay so since this is all about Lopez I can go, yes?" Brittany asked standing up. Yes. Please go. I don't want you in here even if you are hot. Damn, I need to get over her.

"No, sit down. I'm going to get to you."

"Look sir as teenagers we change our dress sense all the time. Like last week this girl I saw in the corridor went from wearing jeans and t-shirts to suddenly going Goth. Big change or what? Fact is we change our style all the time. It's our way of expressing ourselves, that's all."

I saw Mr Davis nod. Thank god. I hope he was pleased with that answer. I saw Brittany sit down annoyed next to me. God would he hurry up and get to the point so I can leave? I don't even want to be here. I have lunch to eat and I usually eat it in the Auditorium and we usually have to get there before Rachel Berry does or she sits in there and sings. God she is loud, but she is actually really good. That is the only time I am saying that so don't expect to hear it again. Saying that since I want to sing you'd think I would be in the club with her, but I know for a fact Brittany is in there with Quinn and then on top of that Rachel is in there which would make it the Rachel Berry show, and that is not something I am getting into. I am not going to be in a singing club to be put to the back and sway. No. That is not something I am going to do. Plus I have a job where I sing so I don't need the stupid club.

"Look Brittany you're grades are not good at all," Mr David began, "you aren't even passing this class."

"Sir I have better stuff to do than study," Brittany confessed looking at Mr Davis annoyed, "such as going to parties and having sex for example." Okay that was a little too much information than I wanted to hear but okay.

"I don't care if you have stuff to do. You won't graduate if you don't pass." He told her. I actually felt a little sorry for her but that was only because I loved her. Why did I love her? Well have you seen her? I saw Brittany nod and the look on her face was heartbreaking. So why am I here then?

"So why am I here then?" I asked curiously.

"I want you to tutor Brittany."

I looked at him shocked. What? No way! I am not tutoring her! She doesn't give a damn about her grades as it is and I'm expected to just sit down and tutor someone who doesn't give a shit about me? Ha in his dreams. Not happening. No matter how much I love the girl I know she wouldn't take it seriously.

"That is not happening," I stated firmly, "she doesn't give a damn about her grades so why should I sit down with her and tutor her when she doesn't care?!"

"Oh like you wouldn't love it Lopez. You'd be privileged to be able to be with me every day." Brittany smirked looking at me. Urgh, she is irritating.

"I don't care. No I'm not doing it and that's final." I told him and I picked my bag up walking out before he could say another word. The nerve of him to ask me that. I saw Sam waiting so I walked towards the Auditorium knowing he would follow me. I heard footsteps then a body walk beside me. He knew I was annoyed but he also knew to wait until we were away from the corridor to talk about it. We walked into the Auditorium and thankfully it was Rachel Berry free. We walked up to the stage sitting on it and got my lunch out whilst Sam got his. We found that this was the only place the Cheerios didn't come into at lunch so they sat in here instead off in the cafeteria.

"What happened?" Sam asked eventually as he bit into his sandwich.

"Mr Davis asked me to tutor Brittany as she is failing the class," I told him getting my sandwiches out putting them on my lap, "but I told him no and walked out."

"What the hell?" Sam asked, clearly annoyed. Well he knew how I felt. We both understood each other and how the other one was feeling so he obviously understood why I said no. That's what I liked about him. "Why should you when she tortures you every day?!"

"Which is why I said no. I'm not dealing with her! She might be the one I love but I can't deal with her treating me like I'm nothing! She is a bitch and frankly that won't ever change."

Sam nodded in agreement with me. One thing I hoped as that she would ask someone else if she wants to graduate because, to be honest, I just can't get myself to do it. Why should I? She has never done one nice thing for me apart from give me my child, but then she still goes about not caring anyway. In her world, everything is about her and I swear she thinks the world revolves around her too. She couldn't change even if she tried. Just last week she took some money off some freshman as she was short on cash. I mean seriously who does that? They were so scared they ran off, and to be honest, I'm not surprised.

"I know. But let's stop talking about her," Sam suggested, "I have the new Call of Duty at home so how about we go and play it after school?"

Santana grinned. "Now that sounds like fun. Oh crap I totally forgot about my appointment with the doctor. I know it's tomorrow but still. How am I gonna get out of school?"

Sam shrugged. "Call in sick. Say you're ill then you can go."

I sighed. I have never missed a day of school and I didn't really want to start now, but I guess I didn't have a choice. "Yeah I guess you're right. Would you come with me? I know you're not the father of the child but I could really use some support."

Sam smiled at me. "Of course San. I want to be there to support you. Since the father,so to say won't be there you need someone, so you can count on me."

I smiled at him and leaned into him. He was such a good friend and, honestly, I don't know what I would do without him. He's my best friend and I couldn't imagine being here without him. When I found out I was pregnant I went straight to him and just cried in his arms. I didn't know what else to do but he sat there and just held me until I stopped. He was just someone I could count on when no one else was there. Well who else did I have? I couldn't talk to my parents and I had no siblings so I was on my own when family was concerned. Plus out of everyone in the school the only friend I had was Sam and he did more than all my family put together. Well I'd do the same for him so.

"Thanks Sam. Means a lot. I just hope that Brittany doesn't try and find me."

Sam scoffs beside me. "As if she will. She doesn't give a shit."

I laugh and nod. Even though it pains me to hear him talk about her that way, he was right. She never showed any interest in education before so why would she now? I think I would have trouble saying no if it was just me and her together as I think she knows I have a crush on her, but she never comes up to me alone so I think I'm good.

"Yeah you're right. Come on I want to go collect my stuff from my locker before the rush."

Sam nods and walk out of the Auditorium with me. We walk to my locker so I can switch my books over for this afternoons lessons then do the same with Sam's. As I waited I saw Brittany with her group of friends. Of course she would be with them. The strange thing about it was that as I looked she was looking back. That never happened. But it's probably just a coincidence so I shook my head and looked away as Sam closed his locker.

"Ready?" Sam asked smiling putting his backpack on his shoulder.

"Yeah lets go before they start bothering us." I replied and walked down the corridor with Sam. One thing I had to remember every day was that Brittany and I would never happen. We are from two completely different worlds and with my crush on her, there was no way I could tutor her. As long as I kept that in my head, I should be okay.