Mistakes

Sora. My reason of existing. He didn't knew me, and I was supposed to not know him. But I did. Since I saw that sweet smile of him, I was, like, just gone. In heaven. I wished I could read his mind. To see if there was something different in it than others. It wouldn't, maybe, but I really want to check it out myself.

Wished I could use my powers on him. And finally see he was thinking about me too. All I needed to do was to get closer…

Today I woke up with a little shivering in my spine. There was going to happen something today, I knew it.

I dressed myself with a red dress. I guessed I chose it because of my hair color. I gave a slight smile before I headed to school.

My mum, of course, hold me back. "Kairi, why are you going to school all alone? Isn't Xion waiting for you?" I sighed and replied: "Xion is already on school, mum. She and Roxas are dating, remember?"

She cringed away from my response. "Why aren't you dating then?"

I glared at her. "What? I thought you were always thinking about me as 'your little girl'?" She looked oddly at me. "How do you know?"

Oops.. Wrong answer. "Isn't it obvious? It's like I'm four in your eyes" I rolled with my eyes and I saw her smile again. She waved and returned to the living room. I unlocked the front door and I began walking. Then I was forced to a stop. Sora and Roxas, both twins, were actually walking in the front of me. Roxas was the blonde one. His hair was just a bit spiky, and he had blue eyes, like the water of the river. Sora had brown, real spiky hair. I never got to see his eyes better than from a distance.
Both guys wore jeans and a sweater. And they just walked before me, for the first time ever. I breathed heavily.

Then I realized I really, really wanted to know what he really thought of me. I focussed and then heard Sora's voice and Roxas' in my head.

God.. If he goes on with this, I won't see Xion 'til school has started!

Roxas.. Definitely.

What's that death glare supposed to mean? I mean… what did I say wrong this time?

My heart beated much faster when I heard his voice. Sora didn't know why Roxas was about to kill him at the moment. But I did… and I made a funny noise, what was between a laugh and a cough.

Huh? I heard somebody behind us... Shall we stop?

Roxas was noticing me. I saw him look over his shoulder and he stopped.

Oh, isn't that Xion's friend? I thought so... What was her name again? Wasn't it Kairi?

I couldn't stop but smile. It was real fun to hear Roxas' weird thoughts.

"Sora, wait up!" Sora turned and he glared at me. I felt my stomach fill itself with butterflies. He looked confused for a moment and I quickly read his thoughts.

Whoa, who is she? I never saw her before... Does Roxas even know her?

Shall I introduce myself? She actually looks like she recognized me already, so I don't think it's necessary... Well, she's real cute…

I felt my head spinning and I walked forward.

"Hello Roxas" I said in a quiet voice. "Kairi, wasn't it?" he replied.

O-oh... She blushes... That's sweet too... Who is she?!

"Y-yeah.." I told him. Then I faced Sora. His eyes didn't betray his thoughts. "Hello Sora" I said shyly. "You know my name?" He blushed and he hold his head slightly to the left. Waiting for an answer.

"You're Roxas' brother, right? Roxas is dating my best friend." I told him.

Really? He never told me...

I laughed. "He never wanted to upset you." When he gave me a surprised look, I suddendly realized I made a mistake. He didn't said that aloud.

Whoa... Just how... Just how did she know I... What... I ?

His thoughts were confused, but I blushed until I reached the same color as a tomatoe. "Shall we go then?" Roxas asked, not noticing Sora's conversation with me.

There is something with her... I can't really put a finger on it... but it's like she... She...

But he nodded to Roxas and he turned to me again. His eyes were full of his silent questions he asked in his head.

I just walked beside them and felt miserable. Yeah, he liked me, although it was just a bit, but I made a real big mistake... What now?

We walked the way silently. I didn't catch Roxas' thoughts anymore, I only focussed on Sora's.

I'm sure... Or... Did I speak the question aloud? Yeah, that must be the thing.

He was at ease again. I sighed with relief and I promised myself not to make anymore faults now.

He glanced at me again and I locked my eyes with his. His eyes were light-blue. Like the sky above us. There lied also trust and friendship in them. With a shine of his passion. The butterflies were trying to get out and I almost fell over because of the sudden weight of all those little guys.

Dang... I'm not! I'm not going to! I don't want to! What if...? NO! I can't!

Huh, what the heck was he thinking about?!

I frowned, not happy with the situation. I tried to focus some more, but his mind was blank for no appearant reason. Then I heard Xion screaming. "ROXAS!" Roxas, who walked silently beside me, ran to her and hugged her tightly. "Hello dear" He whispered in her ear.

Sora's thoughts became sad. He looked at them, torn.

It's just no fair! Always they are running to Roxas! Just like Naminé then...

His thoughts ran through a memory. A memory of him and Naminé, but then Roxas, who fell in love with Naminé, and took her away from Sora.

I flinched away from his memory. I didn't want him to be in love with others. I couldn't just watch that.

Sora saw me flinching and he looked interested in my direction.

Too interested if it were me.

She looks in pain.. What happened? Does she also don't like the lovebirds over there? Is she also in love with Roxas?

His thoughts suddendly became worried.

Or something else. I still have the feeling something is different with her. I like her... I guess...

I couldn't help but smile.

There, now she smiles again... Like she heard what I thought. Real weird. Gotta check this.

Shoot. Another mistake.

But I liked making mistakes. Sora smiled back at me, but remained silent. Only I could hear what happened in his head.

Xion now walked to me. "We've got a new shedule, you know?"

Yeah, I knew. I read her mind before she could open her mouth.

I smiled. "Yeah, I did."

She grinned. "Now I'm finally in class with Roxas! Well, only with a few lessons, but still…" She looked at him with an odd expression. I watched it with slight disgust.

See, she doesn't like them together too.

I turned and locked my eyes again with Sora's. He looked worried again.

What is she thinking about now?

I bit back my smile. About him of course.

He smiled at me and his eyes were sparkling again.

See? She's different. Normally others look away in total disgust, but she... She looks like she's out of breath or something.

I was out of breath. Geez, what that boy could do to me!

Hmm... This is going to be interesting...

I blushed and looked at Xion. "Where do we get our new shedule?"

I read her mind again before she could face me. And I made another mistake.

"In the biology class, you say? Hmm... That's weird... Not in the usual math class?"

Just... Wow... I knew she was different!

What?! I didn't even answer her?!

This is weird! Xion didn't answer!

I blushed deeply and looked away.

Hmm…

I heard Sora think about the whole situation, and I needed to escape. He was way too attentive. Weird… Roxas wasn't… but it was like Sora saw everything!

"Shall we go then?" I asked them before they could fire their questions on me.

"Y-y-yeah... Whatever you say" Xion told me, a bit confused.

I really want to be alone with Xion... Shall I ask them if they mind if we're going by ourselves?

I smiled at Roxas, to tell him it was okay. He smiled back and asked us his question. "Hey, not to bother you, but do you mind if Xion and I go by ourselves?

I waited patiently to Sora's spoken version.

"No, of course not. Just go" He winked.

Yeah, let me be alone with this girl... She's much more interesting than Xion could ever be and I really want to find out what's wrong with her…

I blushed and I saw him looking at me again. I locked my eyes again with his eyes and I saw confuse, but also that he was amazed and worst of all: facinated.

"What's wrong?" I asked him with a silent voice.

He smiled at me and said: "Nothing... Just... That you're..."

I saw and heard him hesitating.

"You're kind of... Kind of... Well, never mind"

I saw him blush and I smiled too.

"If there's something on your mind...?"

You could hear it before he would say it

I was shocked. But it wasn't Sora's voice. It was my teacher of biology. He liked me, and I told him once what was wrong with me. He accepted it and he teased me with it all the time.

But Sora saw my relief, but he also saw my shock, and his eyes narrowed.

You look like you were having a fun conversation

"Yeah, kind of" I smiled at him.

My teacher suddendly looked at Sora, who was in deep thoughts now.

Does he know about your gift?

I felt my eyes widening.

Guess that's a no

I scanned Sora's thoughts for a second.

She's real... Like.. Does she read... No, every... What? I – I... no, I've must been dreaming all the time... It can't be... It's... Shall I ask her?

"Um, Kairi?"

"Yeah.." I replied patiently, but I was real scared to make anymore mistakes.

"Did you ever read the Twilight saga?"

I hold my head slightly to the left. "Yeah..?"

He gasped. He recovered quickly, but his mind was spinning.

SHE DID! She must act like Edward Cullen! I swear! This is weird!

But... I should run from her... But I don't... why not?

I watched his eyes spark again. "Shall we go to class?" I asked him.

He nodded. "Yeah, I think even Xion and Roxas are already there."

If they didn't make out in the toilet again

I smiled. "Could be." I answered both his sentences.

He didn't know and he led us to the biology class.

Our teacher, Mr. Thompson, was already there. Of course, he passed us only a few moments ago and he smiled at me.

Please don't make him find out what your gift is.

I shrugged. I rolled my eyes at him. This time Sora didn't notice.

He walked to his friends, but he wasn't really with them. I was in his mind and he was still wondering what was wrong with me.

He knows already too much?

I made a slight nod.

Do you think he knows?

I sighed. I walked silently toward him and whispered to him. "No, he has a feeling, he almost guessed it, but he thinks I'm only acting. Like I… well… I'm not sure… I'm going to check…"
I frowned and listened again.
Hmm… no, she's just sensitive for this kind of things. Guess she had a lot of luck around with things.
I sighed again, with relief this time. "No, he thinks I'm just having luck all the time and he thinks I'm real sensitive for this kind of things."
Mr. Thompson laughed at my face.
You seem disappointed about that fact, really… What's your connection to this guy again?
He looked at Sora again. I felt my face become red again. "I … like him".
Like? Haha, you say you're in love with this… What's his name again?
I rubbed the back of my head. "Sora".
I couldn't tell him the truth. How much I loved this "Sora guy".

"Okay class, silence please!" He caught the attention of every person in the classroom.
"Because only a few people know each other, I'd like everyone to introduce themselves".
I made a face at him and he smiled. "So, any questions?"
None of the students reacted to him. "Well, let's start then. I'll begin, if that's okay with you?"
Everyone started to mumble. But I heard everyone in their heads get sweaty.
"I'm Mr. Thompson. Eric Thompson. I'm your biology teacher and I'll be also your guide through this year. Some of you know me from past year, but I'll assure you this year will be easy to go through, I promise. Well, that's all you need to know…"
He laughed at himself and only I knew the real joke. Of course I knew much more of him than I was supposed to know. But all the others thought immediately he had a bad sense of humor.
He gave students a turn, however I already know who everyone was.
Hayner, a boy with real violent thoughts was first. I was wondering he was going to tell he loved to stab people in computergames.
He didn't, like he already decided in his head.
Roxas was second. "Well, I'm Roxas, I'm real interested in science and I love to skate on the ice in the winter." He looked a bit unsure at Mr. Thompson and mumbled something like "that was it" before Mr. Thompson went on with turns. I rolled with my eyes and focussed on the person I wanted to hear. Sora's thoughts were about his ex-girlfriend. The only part I didn't want to hear.
Naminé wasn't like this Kairi girl. Kairi is much more mysterious. Naminé was real nice and stuff… but I guess I didn't love her that much… I was broken of all promises we broke, but…
I laid my head upon my arms and shut my eyes for a minute, so nobody could see the pain in my eyes. However he got over her, she still meant a lot to him. Sora wasn't a player. He real loved someone. Not for a few weeks… for forever.

Then it was his turn. I sat up a bit and looked at him. I caught his eyes and his eyes were dull 'til they met mine. They began to spark and I couldn't look away. He kept looking at me while speaking.
"Well, I'm Sora and my hobbies are simply enough fighting. Not really, with wooden swords and stuff. I also love the beach and there isn't anything interesting left, I think…"
There was so many interesting about him. But I was the only one interested enough…

"Kairi, you're next" Mr. Thompson said with a slight smile.
I spoke with a quiet voice: "I'm Kairi, I love to draw, write and read –" I saw Mr. Thompson's grin widened. "- and I also love the beach… it gives me a lot inspiration. "
"Xion, your turn". I felt Sora's eyes on my back and I turned to shot Xion a look, but Sora caught my eyes again. I suddendly saw my eyes in his mind and I saw him looked worried again.
Her eyes are so… full with secrets… she holds back, I'm sure… but what?
I wanted to look away, but I couldn't. His worried look made place for a big smile. It took my breath away and I saw his eyes spark like mad again. I hold my head slightly to the left and tried to put my questions in my eyes. He answered them all by just looking back.
…
His mind became blank and I became curious. What was he thinking. But however, I was still drown in his eyes.
Kairi? I'm going to warn you and Sora to pay attention, okay… so look away
But I couldn't. I heard Mr. Thompson sigh.
"Sora and Kairi, would you please stop flirt with each other?" He said through the class.
Sora's face became red and he quickly looked away. My face became pure red as well. I ran through his mind when I stare off in distance.
I'm not flirting with her! I'm only… I'm only… being… distract… by the way she looks. Her damn mysterious mind. I wish I could read minds or something…
I swallowed loudly… shoot… did he know? No… it was just a wish. Why would he read my mind? So funny wasn't it, after all. I became more interested than first.
What's wrong? How did he take the warning?
I sighed and shrugged. He coughed to recover his laughter and I looked real annoyed. Of course Sora didn't miss it. Of course not.
They talk… without words… did he just ask her something I missed? I must know! AUGH! This is SO COMPLETELY FRUSTRATING!
Sora was yelling in his head now.
"Okay, I want you to team up today… Kairi, you sit alone, why don't you take your stuff and drag them to Sora's table over there? You can work together". Mr. Thompson smiled, but looked worried.
I think he knows way to much… try to find out exactly how much he knows…
I nodded slightly and took my bag. I threw it over my shoulder and made my way to Sora's table.
"Hi again". He said. I smiled in return. He moved his stuff beside, so I could sit beside him.
I saw his face became bored. "Really, this assignment is so easy! I did it so many times before!"
He looked at me again and smiled. "You?"
I could look for the answers in his head, however he wouldn't try to block them out this time. I had my own assignment.
"No, I'll be fine " I replied.
He smiled again, and now it would be my turn to ask.
"So, why did you ask about Twilight?" I asked nonchalantly. He waited a minute before he replied, but I already heard his answer in his head.
Because I want to damn know if you act like you're freaking Edward Cullen! And because most of the girls expect their boyfriend to be like that weirdo! Wait… why do I … what? I- I don't want to be her boyfriend, right?
I wanted him to be my boyfriend. I really wanted to…
"Well, I thought already that all the girls on this planet read that book, right?"
I smiled. "The whole series".
He made a face. "I knew it…"
I laughed. "Facinated too by Bella?"
His eyes became confused. "huh?"
I held my head slight to the left. "I thought that all the boys were in love with her?"
He shook his head. "I thought all the girls were in love with Edward?"
His eyes became serious. "He's intelligent, beautiful, nice and he can read minds."
I tried to be sarcastic. "read minds?"
He became confused again. She doesn't believe in it? Why not?
I tried not to laugh. After all, he was damn right.
Of course not… I'm the only one around here doing a great job as idiot…
"So you think it isn't a nice novel?" He replied.
I stared at him. What he said and what he thought where both real different things.
"I like the books" I began. "But they aren't real realistic. Not only the mindreading thing"
He laughed. Of course not… hah, a guy that perfect must be like Roxas, or like… like… Zac Effron or something. And I don't think they're perfect… nobody is, right?
I was about to pull my eyebrows up. I was talking about vampires, not their perfectness.
But I smiled and said: "I don't know what you're thinking, but I was talking about the vampires"
Of course did I knew what he thought, but I really was talking about vampires.
He grinned. "How come you don't know?"
I glared with total shock at him. "What?!" I hoped he didn't catch the panic in it.
His laugh turned sad. "Everyone says they know what I think… I'm easy to get read… Roxas says in any case."
I stared at him. He became shy, with no reason behind. "I-I mean… I don't know if it's true, but…"
Oh god… now she really thinks I'm the most dull, stupid, weird person in the world!
I didn't. I actually found it real interesting… I didn't think he was easy to read. I could hear his thoughts, but not the feelings behind them. Not the 'push' behind his thoughts.
The bell rang, but we both kept glaring in each others eyes.
So, how is he doing? Kairi, understand me clear, but I don't think it's worth of it… Let me spell it for you: he is not allowed to know about!
Mr. Thompson became worried, however I couldn't see why.
"Well… I think I should go to my next class…" He began, a little unwilling because he didn't want to leave.
"Bye Sora" I said it quiet. I knew this would be a more goodbye than he would ever guess…
Now all there was left was the question I would really act like goodbye…