Yagami-kun.
I never expected this. My planning, my calculations- they were all flawless. But I never expected this. You…a variable that I couldn't place, couldn't solve; will never solve. Yagami-kun, you are Kira. Of this I am certain. Of this I have always been certain. What I cannot understand is this: I no longer want to catch you. I do not want to foil your plans, evil though they may be. I do not want to see you in jail, to see you executed. Never. Yagami-kun, I would rather give my own life than see you being walked down that hallway to the awaiting death penalty. And I never expected this.
Please, Yagami-kun, Raito…enlighten me. I do not wish to know how you kill, but only how you have done this to me. What have you done? I cannot comprehend. You speak to me, and I hear your words, but I hear something beneath them as well, calling me. I wish to follow, Yagami-kun. I wish to follow you forever.
Love, Raito. I cannot understand how, or why, but this must be what you have done to me.
It is surprising, really. Other people, people in love, they seem joyful. Their music and poetry and art speaks of a fluttering, fanciful feeling. I do not feel joy, only loss and ache. You are Kira, and Yagami-kun, one of us must die in the end. I have always known this.
But Raito, I always thought it would be you.
So I suppose I have lost. Kira, Yagami-kun, Raito, you have defeated me. You have studied me, taken what I do not understand, and used it against me. I do not care.
I do not care. This is not how I wanted my life to end, Yagami-kun. But I cannot catch Kira, and I cannot live any longer, knowing that fact.
I am in love with you. This is all I understand now. When you read this note, I will be asleep. Please kill me quickly. I do not wish to see.
Lawliet