Ten Years
a Cara and Grantes love poem
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Ten years.
It took ten years for me to realize…
Ten years of living hopelessly in the Mist, regretting the past; drowning in my mistakes.
Ten years of cursing myself for ever loving you.
Ten years of cursing myself for loving you, and yet still wanting to fly.
Ten years in the horrible Mist.
Ten years of watching those around me watch their loved ones suffer and die, all the while knowing it was all my fault.
Ten years of knowing someone like that could never be good enough for your love.
Ten years, I watched and waited for the world to end.
And in those ten years… you were always there beside me, if I'd only just looked over my shoulder.
Ten years, and I didn't understand that you… you still loved me.
It took ten years for me to realize…
I love you, Cara.
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Ten years.
It took ten years for me to realize…
Ten years of desperation, wandering the dead, barren wasteland in search of an answer that was already held in our hearts.
Ten years of stealing from the dead, the barely living, and the barely human – just so you and I could still survive.
Ten years of doing terrible things that I will regret for the rest of my life.
Ten years of doing those things in hopes that someday, you might stop me.
Ten years of trying to make you care.
Ten years of just wanting you to hold me again.
For ten years, our hearts lay frozen in the shallow grave I'd dug in that dead, icy town.
For ten years, we'd forgotten they were even there.
Ten years, and it only took us three small words for them to melt completely.
It took ten years for me to realize…
I love you, Grantes.