Hey sorry for the delay, I have a wonderful beta but I was not in touch with her this week, so this chapter is beta-less so all grammatical errors are my fault entirely (and I'm pretty sure I just spelled that wrong). BTW I had this chapter for a while and I was going to post it on thursday, and I have a million excuses to why I didn't, but I'm pretty sure you don't want to hear them all. I intend on posting a chapter a week, I forgot to mention last chapter that I wanted reviews but I wasn't requiring them for the next chapter. Please understand that I wasn't trying to force reviews I just desparatly wanted to know that people read and enjoyed my story.

This chapter actually takes place before the one I posted first.

Chapter one: Home is where the Heart is

As soon as my eyes opened the thought flashed across my mind. Jake was coming home today. Even though my body ached for me to go back to sleep I resisted the urge and quickly jumped out of bed and ran to the bedroom mirror.

Oh god I thought at the sight of my frizzed hair and sleepy, baggy, eyes. I had a lot of work to do before Jake gets here. I looked at the clock. 9:36 it read, and Jake was getting here around twelve o'clock, I had an hour and a half.

It was only after showering that I realized I had no idea what to wear! Jake hasn't seen me in four months and I have to make a good impression, but I can't wear something that makes it obvious I'm trying to grab his attention.

I paced my closet-yeah my closet is actually big enough to pace in-desperately trying to think of something to wear. Finally I took all of my clothes out and picked out my favorites. After about fifteen minutes of indecision I had decided to go with jeans but I had to choose between two shirts: My thick, but soft baby blue striped sweater or a flannel shirt with a Native American-looking design on it.

I decided to wear the sweater, I had no idea what the design on the flannel shirt was or if it was even Native American, I wouldn't want to offend Jake. Then I realized if he would be offended by it I could never wear it again and I quickly and shamefully buried it in the back of my closet.

Feeling like a huge weight had been lifted off my chest I walked over to the mirror to check my progress. I sighed, my hair was a disaster, no surprise there. I sighed as I brushed the tangles out of my bronze curls, not exactly sure why all this mattered to me, it was just Jake, my best friend, but I still had this growing desire to please him. I glanced down at my promise bracelet Jake gave me when I was little, every Christmas he has attached a new charm to it, so now I have two little charms.

Since my name is a combination of Renee, which means reborn, and Esme, which means loved the last two Christmases I got a phoenix and a heart both made out of wood.

I glanced at the clock, 11:48, one last look in the mirror caught me by surprise. I was actually pretty. I'm not sure what it was but today I just looked different, I felt different, better than usual. My face wasn't as pale and the bags under my eyes had disappeared, and my cheeks were just a little pinker then they usually were, and the natural lavender shadow my eyes had was now a light pink. My hair was actually cooperating today, that's always a plus. And I did it all without the help of make-up.

I took one last look at my room, making sure I didn't leave any dirty clothes lying around on the floor. I thought about how much my room had changed in the past three years. I guess it matured as I did. When we first moved to Ocean Shores from Forks I had a bunk bed and pink flowery sheets, the walls were a light lavender and I had darker purple carpet.

Now the walls where a sky blue and the carpet a rich turquoise. East wall of my room was entirely made up of windows so that you can see the sunrise. The West wall was lined with book shelves filled to the brim with books. I had a keyboard piano in my room, even though we had a grand piano downstairs my Dad usually hogs it.

I heard tires a few miles away and ran downstairs with my heart pounding. This was the first time I had been out of breath in days, why am I getting so worked up about Jake coming home? It's just my best friend. I tried not to dwell on that with my mind-reading father in the room. All my family members noticed my accelerated heart-rate and hopefully thought it was from running downstairs, but I didn't fool him.

"Good morning Nessie." Grandma Esme greeted me with a smile, "Do you want breakfast?"

"No thanks Jake's almost here." I declined her offer, still trying to catch my breath "Where's Rose?"

"Umm…she said she had better things to do then wait around for some smelly dog to get here." Emmett said apologetically.

I sighed, I guess some things never change, Aunt Rosalie has always disproved of Jake being near our family.

The car stopped in the driveway and I heard a car door open and seconds later close. I could hear a set of feet walking down the driveway, slowly at first then quickening the closer he got to the house. My palms got sweating in anticipation, my heart never quieted, I forgot to control my thoughts and hoped Dad was focused on something else.

For one small moment my heart stopped when Jacob turned the knob of the door.

Slowly he opened the door, if he opened it any slower I would have had to fling it open for him, but all my tension faded as soon as I saw him.

All the worrying I did this morning about my appearance didn't matter anymore, the tightness in my stomach that I didn't even know I had was gone, my heart rate which was pumping a thousand mile per hour had stop and now it wasn't even beating anymore.

Of course he hadn't changed at all, he still had his perfect short black hair, dreamy deep brown eyes, athletic build, and of course the heart-warming smile. He beamed at me as soon as his eyes found mine and I hurled myself into his arms.

He stumbled with the impact of my hug. "Wow Nessie," that was all he said at first then he continued. "You have grown a lot more then I had expected."

I could have sworn I heard my dad growling from behind me but I ignored him, he has been particularly grumpy these past few days.

"I've missed you so much Jake." I said putting a little bit more emphasis on the so then I had planned when I said it in my head.

"Nessie would you please share Jake," Mom protested from behind me. "You aren't the only one who missed him."

"Calm down girls there's enough of me to go around." Jacob joked mischievously winking at Dad as he hugged Mom. Dad rolled his eyes and went back to sulking. I wondered why Dad didn't like Jacob, I know that Jake used to be in love with Mom but he wasn't anymore. When I was still little Jake and my dad got along just fine but recently he has been grumpy whenever Jake is around, even before Jake left.

"Renesmee you must eat breakfast at some point this morning." Esme exclaimed, I sighed and followed her into the kitchen. She was right, as always, I needed human food three times a day, or else I get really thirsty. Even though I eat human food I also need to go hunting about once every two or three weeks.

"Would you like some too, Jake?" Esme asked before exiting the room.

Jake's face lit up and he replied, "Is that a rhetorical question?"

After eating about three times more food, and three times faster than me, Jake talked to Dad about his adventure in the Amazon. He went down to South America when Nahuel heard rumors about shape-shifters in the jungle, so Jake, Leah, and a few people from Sam's pack searched the Amazon for four months.

"None?" Dad questioned, raising his eyebrows. "Fifty-six trails and you couldn't find any shape-shifters."

"Yep," Jake replied, "They must have phased around other humans because after they phase we lose the trail. Sam's guess is that they did it on purpose so that they can't be found in their human form when they are at their weakest. It's a wonderful strategy, but unfortunately for us that means they are really hard to find."

"Are you going back?" I said, trying hard to keep the worry out of my voice.

"Geez Nessie, already trying to get rid of me?" Jake said, he was joking of course but I still blushed. "At least let me stay for lunch."

I laughed and when I could finally control the giggles escaping my mouth, I replied. "Oh Jake, I don't think I could get rid of you even if I tried."

"I have tried," Dad grumbled, "I came to the conclusion that it is impossible."

Jake stayed all day at my house. As the evening progressed Jake and I sneaked into my bedroom to spend some time alone.

"When did you get the room dividers?" Jake asked, walking up the stairs and into my room.

"About a month after you left." I replied, sitting down on my bed. "I needed some privacy; it's hard to come by in a house of vampires."

"I feel bad for your dad." He said, sitting down next to me. "He has to listen to his teenage daughter's thoughts. But it's even worse for you since you can't get away with anything."

"I've gotten used to it." I stated. "I usually have to recite the Chinese alphabet backwards more than once a day."

"I don't care what thoughts Edward hears, if he doesn't like what's in my head then he shouldn't be in my head."

"Easy for you to say, he can't ground you." I complained. "But he can kick you out of the house."

"Not really, Bella or Esme would just let me back in." he smiled mischievously. "Like he said earlier, you can't get rid of me."

"Are you going to school with us Jake?" I asked.

"What do you mean going to school?"

"My family is going to school here for a few years, we start the day after my birthday."

"First of all I don't think your dad would like it too much if I went to school with you, but if you want me to I will."

I smiled, he would go to school just for me, my stomach fluttered at the thought. I wonder why my dad wouldn't like it if he went to school, but I didn't ask.

"I should get to sleep," I said looking at the clock on my stereo. "That way I'm wide awake and ready for whatever birthday celebration Alice had planned."

I was secretly testing Jake to see if he had remembered my birthday, tomorrow I was turning four, in half vampire years. It still puzzled everyone that I had grown so fast, faster than Nahuel and all of his sisters.

Jake had no surprise or regret on his face at the mention of my birthday, he just grinned at me. "Do you want to know a secret?"

I nodded and he leaned close to and put his lips next to my ear, I shivered at the thought of his closeness. What would his secret be, that he came just to see me? That he loved me with all his heart? What am I thinking, Jake is just my friend. But before my head could ramble on any longer, slowly he whispered as soft as a baby bird's feather "It's formal."

I tried to quiet my groan but it still escaped. Jake chuckled at my expression and I fought the urge to punch him in the face. Ugh! A formal, that means about three hours of hair and make-up alone. We haven't even gone shopping for dresses in the last week! I don't even know if any of my old dresses fit me.

"Does that mean we're going shopping tomorrow?" I complained.

"I'm only allowed to give away one Alice secret at a time." He laughed. "Then she'll hunt me down and serve me for dinner."

I punched him in the arm, he knew I didn't like it when he talked about my family being carnivorous, vegetarian vampires. I guess they can be considered vegan vamps because they don't use, wear, or eat products made out of humans.

My Dad laughed at my joke from downstairs and I realized my curtain was open, but I distinctly remember closing it this morning when I was freaking out. Someone must have come in and opened…a particular someone who wanted to read my thoughts! I ran through the door to my closet and to the back wall of my room and closed the titanium curtains.

Titanium is a vampire's only (physical) weakness. Titanium is the only thing that can pierce my skin (so piercing my ears was hard), it also blocked vampires special abilities so my dad couldn't hear my thoughts, and Alice couldn't see the result of the decisions I made in here, even though she couldn't see me anyways.

I was so embarrassed! What had Dad heard in my head? I let my mind speak without thinking I practically yelled at the top of my lungs "Ugh! Why does he have to do that?"

Jake laughed and I shot him a glared and he instantly wiped the grin off his face.

"I really should get to bed." I said hopping onto my bed and under the blankets.

"Okay, see you tomorrow Nessie." He replied, letting his grin escape, and kissed my forehead before heading toward the stairs.

"Jake,"

"Yes?"

I paused not exactly sure what to say, "That's for coming back, I did really miss you."

He smiled a sweet smile and responded. "You are very welcome, Nessie. I missed a lot too."

I regretted letting him leave after that. The bed was still warm from where he had sat and I could still feel the gentle kiss he had placed on my forehead, and his warm breath on my neck as he whispered in my ear. My heart ached for him, but I finally drifted back to sleep. My Jacob was finally home.

JPOV

I left Renesmee's room smiling. I walked downstairs, said goodbye to her family, and left. I had had a long day and wanted nothing more than to crash on my beckoning bed. I take that back there was one thing I wanted more.

Renesmee.

My world has been revolving around her since the first day she was born four years ago. There aren't enough worlds in the world to describe how seeing her again felt, Amazing, wonderful, incredible, breathtaking, Magnificent, and that's just scratching the surface about the way I feel right now.

There also aren't enough words to describe how scary it is to see her all grown up now, terrifying, alarming, horrifying, and the fact that I'm living in constant fear Edward will hunt me down and kill me for something I accidentally thought, doesn't make me feel any safer.

It had felt so great to finally see her after all these months. I loved feeling her soft skin under my fingers, seeing her smile, and hearing her laugh at my most ridiculous jokes, and most of all I loved the feeling of having her in my arms again.

I would never admit it but I was so happy Renesmee had saved me from Bella. I still can't believe how worked up I was about her when loving Renesmee was so much easier. I had to work hard to make Bella even notice me, but I always had Nessie's attention, and she undoubtedly had mine. I tried my absolute hardest to win Bella's heart and I only got a small piece. Bella had been blinded by Edward and could never see me, but Nessie saw me and one day she would see how much I loved her, but that would have to wait.

It grew more and more tempting to tell her about our imprint but Edward was the only thing in the way now she was all grown up. I was a little scared after he semi-threatened me four years ago but now she was full grown I was terrified.

"Jacob I understand what it's like, I just want you to wait." He protested. He probably was the only one outside the pack that can understand what we go through.

"I know," I said defeated, hanging my head.

"I'm not asking you to never tell her," he paused. I could tell this was hard on him, but he can suck it up. "All I'm asking is that you wait seven years."

Seven years? But it was a price I would happily pay for my Renesmee.

"Okay," I paused, waiting for a catch. "I won't tell her for seven years."

"If you tell her earlier…then you can't see her until she is seven."

Seven years seemed long four years ago when she was only a few days old but now that she is full grown I'm not sure I can wait another three years.

But Renesmee is the only thing that matters so I will tell her when the time is right, no matter what Daddy has to say about it.

Not exactly sure when I'll post the next chapter, but I promise it will be sometime this week. Please, please, please, please, review I need to know people are reading this! I feel alone and lost! My beta is going to hate me for this chapter (pm me if you want to know why) but I hope you all enjoyed it! Until next time lovely readers :)