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Chapter One

I tensed for the spring, my eyes squinting as I cringed away. I saw him leap towards me and I inserted one last thought. I love you Edward. And then I closed my eyes.

I was ready for it when I felt his teeth sink into my neck. I could feel the blood leaving body and I slowly started to fade away. Suddenly, I felt his jaws leave my throat. I snapped my eyes open to see Laurent being chased by HUGE wolves.

That was all I registered before I felt a horrible, burning pain. A scream echoed through the meadow. I realized it was mine. I started to writhe in pain and I screamed in agony.

" STOP! MAKE IT STOP!" I screamed. I remembered the last time this had happened. He had been there to save me, but not this time.

Imagine someone carving out each and every one of your organs with a dull butter knife. Then, intensify that by a million. Even then you wouldn't even be able to begin to comprehend what it felt like.

It seemed to last forever, the burning and screaming. First it was hours, then it was days, then it was years, and then it was centuries. A century's worth of pain was wracking through my body. I thought of things to do to keep my mind off the pain but it was like a part of my brain was keeping tabs of the burning.

I opened my eyes just because and things started to slowly look clearer. A strong wave of fire went through my body as if it didn't like the scenery so I closed them and tried not to scream. I heard my breath gasping through my teeth and tried counting. It seemed to help a teensy-tiny bit, I wasn't bored anymore.

I opened my eyes again and started to count other things. I counted how many birds flew by, how many trees I could see, how many clouds passed overhead, and many more. I sorted throught the information in my brain, counting things again, but by fives, then tens, and so on. After that, I didn't have anything else to count so I counted my heartbeats. They kept increasing in tempo until they sounded like a hummingbird's wings.

And then a change happened. The fire started to leave my toes and fingers, but it started to gather at my heart. The fire got hotter, as if that was even possible. Then my heartbeat took off like a helicopter. And the fire got oh so hot. It reached a crescendo and then, two things happened simultaneously. My heart stopped and the burning retreated to a dull ache in my throat.

I opened my eyes in amazement. Everything was so clear. I tried to remember what the meadow looked like when I was human, but it was like squinting through mud. I could see every single detail. Every separate hair on a fuzzy caterpillar that was on a leaf a mile away.

Just then, the sunlight broke through the clouds. My skin started to sparkle like diamonds. I gasped in amazement. I laughed and then stopped to wonder at it's bell-like sound.

" Amazing!" I murmured in my musical voice. I was spinning in circles, laughing and basking in the sun when I remembered. I sank gracefully to the ground.

So this was how I got my wish, I thought bitterly. But what is it without him! What would my life be without him at my side every moment possible. I clawed at the the ground and threw my head back.

" Why!" I screamed pointlessly. "Why did you leave me!"

I felt icy drops falling on my skin at one point and looked up to see black thunderheads rolling in, sealing in the meadow like a coffin. I took off my jacket and tore it up a bit and then rubbed a little leftover blood on it. I needed Charlie to think I was dead, by those wolves maybe. I was lucky they hadn't found me already, I'd been missing for about three days. I walked over to where their prints are. I studied them and then hand-made a path of wolves over to my "death-site". I placed the jacket where the paw-print copies ended and made a trail heading back to the original. I ran out of the meadow without a backward glance.