Title: To wish impossible things (1/?)
Author: Jessica
Email: jrothenyahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
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Pairing: Kate/Gibbs
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS.
Summary: After a night spend together..
AUTHORS NOTE: My first ever NCIS-fanfic..so please, be gentle...
English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
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The rain is smashing angrily against the windowsill as I rise from the bed.
It's still dark outside but soon the first morning light will grace the morning sky.
I dress in the diml ights from the street below.
She is sleeping with her head turned towards me.
Her face is so calm now.
She looks younger, almost fragile.
I can still taste her on me.
Her scent still lingers on my clothes.
I wish I could return to the warmth of her embrace and drown myself in a soft sea of
dark hair.
But I can't.
There is too much in stake this time.
I have too much to lose this time.
And too much I can't bare parth with.
My heart.
My life.
Everything.
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I made a mistake tonight.
I know that.
The fault was mine.
I thought I was stronger than that.
But guess I was breakable after all.
I should have seen her coming miles away.
But I was blinde.
I thought the years that lay behind me had taught me a thing or two.
I have made too many mistakes in my life.
This life has taught me one thing, that some people are meant to be alone.
And I'm one of them.
But I stumbled tonight and I fell.
All I can do now is bow out gracefully before I scatter for the wind, before my armour
cracks.
I can still save myself.
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Her skin seem to glow like silver in the dark.
My hands tremble a little as I move towards the door.
I feel like thief, leaving the scene of the crime.
But this is the only way to make things right.
So I will leave now.
Let go now.
She was never mine to keep.
So I will let her go.
And erase every trace of her from my mind.
I will forget how her lips tasted.
How our bodies melted together.
How fire met ice.
How two became one.
I'm saving myself.
I'm saving the both of us.
This is the right thing to do.
I look back at the bed.
She is still sleeping.
One last look.
Then I walk away from her.
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