China Sorrows felt her eyes tingle, as she felt something squirky moving between her eyes. She didn't want to open them. She wanted them to be closed forever. But it felt so disgusting. No. She had to let it disgust her to death. But it's-... China couldn't make it. She opened her eyes and she saw a black worm poking her eyelids. She scowled. "A horrible reflex.", she thought.

She held it and placed it on the grass. Grass? She didn't even realise she was lying on dry, dead grass. She glanced at herself. She had better days. Much better days. She was covered with mud and her clothes were all ripped. Her bare arms were visible under the expensive silk sky blue shirt of hers. Her hair was a mess and was sticking out in odd angles. She had no time to think of Fletcher Renn. After all she wouldn't be like this if the past didn't hurt her so bad. Yes, she had better days, it was true. But without the ripped clothes, she was the same everyday.

She sighed and then glanced at the environment. She was in a forest. A little forest with bushes which looked much tempting when she was a child. She used to come here with Bliss, play hide and seek just like normal children. She remembered the times they laughed and drag themselves on the once wet and comfortable grass. She couldn't remember the times she used to laugh. She remembered it being fun though. She tried a smile but it created a stir on her immobile face. She couldn't remember how to feel. After all her life didn't mean anything now. She closed her eyes once again, hoping she wouldn't be able to open them. But the survival instinct made her open her eyes again. She sighed wistfully and straightened up from where she was sitting. She didn't even do that on purpose. She felt just like an empty shell, with no feelings. Just breathing and seeing. She prefered being a plant, just sitting there and watching the time go on without even Her emotions have taken over her life so much that she didn't even realise they were actually emotions. She got used to them, let them take over her. Finally, China Sorrows, the Great China Sorrows was beaten. By herself. Such a shame, she thought.

She let feelings rule her life. She let them use her. Although she only remembering having proper fun with them, not with some worshippers and bad guys. This is where she thought she belonged to. But she made her first and biggest mistake when she didn't let any thought and any feeling change her prejudice against the Sanctuary after witnessing her parents being killed by a Cleaver. She remember how they screamed, how they were dragged with their immobile bodies.

She remember the feeling, the anger crawling inside her, stoning her heart at every move. Past was such painful thing. She didn't want to remember anything. A silent teardrop fell down her cheek. Her eyes didn't even move when she felt the teardrop making it's way down her cheek.

Love. A loud sob escaped from her lips from the utter feeling of this word. She hated this thing. She gritted her teeth. What was she thinking anyways? After all she has done, all the sins, all the lies she had told, after everything, she thought she could be with him again? He was the only one she had real feelings for. The only one she didn't want anything from. She would get chills everytime when she saw that tilt of his head when he was smiling. She remembered his smile and how much she meant for her to make him smile. All was gone. That's why she didn't want to fall in love with anyone. Something would happen anytime someone has fallen in love with someone. It's usual. And to her horror mostly, all of these thoughts, were proven right.Her heart was broken, in only a few minutes.

She was walking with her bare feet. She didn't even wince when she felt some sharp ones sticking and making her feet bleed. Her face wad solid. No feelings were strong enough to make it form a frown or anything. It was just blank. She walked and walked and walked. Walked over the long and short bushes which once was her hiding place, the only time she felt safe in this wearisome world for a child. It was still the same. She kept hiding and she felt safe. Being happy with her hiding and mysterious behaviour. She wanted to be found. But she didn't want to look at people's surprised yet angry faces filled with hatred as she was dragged to the Sanctuary prison.

She stopped. She looked down and saw her now empty face looking at her from the bottom of the cliff. The shadow of Serpine's one and only castle, standing at it's place coldly, was covering China. She held out both arms to her sides. She closed her eyes and let her body fall down the cliff. She didn't even feel the freezing water of the lake. Even if her eyes were numb, she could feel cold dead eyes watching her every move.

-Oooh, slight creepy! It was even creepier to write, considering the fact I'm not this kind of like a tragedic writer, although this was so much FUN. I have to admit devastated China made me feel good. Woo. So anyways, this is quite a long chapter and I know the laf was probably a waste of your time but at least I tried, yeah? No? Ok... *makes a face* Yeah, thanks for reading tho. ;]

-Your obssessed minion: Zombie Queen.