Prologue
This lullaby will repeat itself
The feeling in could not stop, tears would flow down; I knew it was the end of this life. But where do I go now? I don't see any Heaven here. Where I am? I ask to myself. There is darkness all around. Why am I here? But I knew very well why. Thus this is the end of my short life.
The way this darkness look at me, told me I belong here, because yes I did everything wrong and nothing right. This is the way my life was supposed to end. I couldn't change it; I kill someone I knew I belong here. But why were tears falling down, it wasn't like I didn't know this was going to happen to me. Maybe I just couldn't bear that I didn't do anything to change it.
My mind couldn't understand it, my heart couldn't take it; but slowly it felt as my mind and heart were being taken away from me, as I wouldn't need it where I was, as I was turning to stone with no emotional feelings. The tears were slowly stopping as my heart and my mind were taken away. No sadness in the eyes. Ice cold stones were replaced for them; no feelings no nothing, just standing there would do to survive this cruelty of darkness, which I could not feel or see. In cold eyes and with no feeling to feel I told myself,
"Yes, this is where I belong"