This is Axess thing. If you read it then you will know which chapter. Perhaps this is old thing already.
Enzan's POV
This night is very lonely, the most lone night I ever have. Well, it's just me and only myself, in this room like always. But you're not here, Blues. And I was the one who caused it.
I still don't believe what I've done today. I've done what I should not do, but I had no choice back then. Blues, I've sacrificed you, to save everyone and myself.
I don't want to betray anyone, yet I don't want any failure. I—no—we all know the consequences if we fail to stop the bad ones. Being weak is so frustrated, more frustrated if we know that only one way for us to win against evil, yet we're forbidden to do it. But Rockman, your blue friend, begged his Operator to install the forbidden Dark Chip. Netto, he was struggling on his mind, and finally he raised the chip, ready to insert it. My body reacted by itself, I took the Dark Chip, and…I…I used it on you. I couldn't believe I would do such thing. Yeah, finally we could beat Shadowman, but…then you…left me.
Like I said before, I don't want to betray anyone and I don't want any failure. Netto and Rockman, are very close friends. If at that time I didn't stop him, he would feel more painful than I am now. Because of Netto, I realized that Navi wasn't just data, but precious partner. But now, I just realize how precious you are for me, Blues.
Blues, we've been together since I was kid. You were only one who was care about me when my own parent wasn't. Because of you, I didn't feel total loneliness. You always tried your best to accomplish what I wanted.
Yet I can't repay your effort at all. Even I sold you to evil! What a dumb person I was! I knew…that I had no choice. But…but that doesn't change the fact that I've played you like tools, tools that can be replaced by anything.
I'm sorry, Blues, I'm really sorry. I can't do anything good for you, my precious friend. Even I beg you, just don't give any forgiveness to me…
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