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flowers & rainbows
a casualty fanfiction
FULL SUMMARY — Meet Lauren Fairhead, Holby's newest F2 as she tries to prove to those around her she can be a good Doctor like her mother. Friendships, relationships, drama and cat fights are just the beginning of Lauren's first year at Holby General Hospital.
In Medical School, they always give you the worst case scenarios for everything. Situations you might find yourself coming across, situations that may only have a zero point one percent chance of actually happening.
Dust, I'm surrounded by dust and bricks and screaming people. There's blood, too much blood and it's making me queezy. I feel sleepy but I know I can't sleep, I shouldn't sleep.
Death. Death is surrounding me and there's nothing I can do. I'm meant to be a Doctor. A Doctor is someone who saves lives and here I am, trapped, just like them.
It hurts. My stomach, my chest, my arms. Everywhere hurts and aches. I want to go home, I want my father. I want my mother but I won't see her, she's dead. Unless, I die from this.
I hear a scream. That kind of scream that sends a shiver down your spine. I want to help them, I want to give them something for the pain of course I do but there's not a lot I can do when I'm in the same situation as them.
I keep repeating useless facts in my mind, trying to keep myself distracted from that sharp pain that shooting across my stomach. It works. Slightly. I forget the pain for a minute or two.
I have no idea why I'm here. I'm guessing I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. I shouldn't have being caught up in this, in fact I should've been at the hospital. I was late. The car broke down.
Dad's car, dad's shitty little thing that he insists on keeping. For what reason, I'll never figure out. That car is more trouble than it's worth in my opinion.
"Lauren?" It's almost a relief to hear a familiar voice, "Maggie?"
Least she knows what she's doing not like, what's his name, Toby. Toby is a bit — lets put it this way, I would never have seen him as a Doctor. That other F2, Ruth. I don't like her much, she's stuck up her own arse.
"Maggie it hurts."
"Where does it hurt sweetheart?"
"Everywhere." I whisper. She tells me she's going to give me some pain relief and gives me Morphine. That's my best friend, I tell you! It makes the pain fade away until I can't feel it anymore.
"Lauren, we're going to get you out very soon, okay?"
"Okay." I answer back. At that very minute, some more stuff falls from the roof and covers everything in more dust and rubble. l don't know why but I suddenly blurt out, "Am I going to die?"
"Don't be silly."
"Listen, if I have internal bleeding, this piece of rubble is keeping me stable right? If you remove it, there's everything chance I'm going to bleed to death isn't there?"
I'm a Doctor, I know these things. I didn't study Medicine for six years for nothing, "Maggie, if I die, promise me you'll look after Dad and Louis for me?"
"You're not going to die."
"Just promise me." I told her and she nodded, "I promise." She answered and I smile a little, I hope I'm okay but if I'm not, I know Dad and Louis will be okay. I mean, dad loves her, he's just afraid of taking that chance.
"I'll be back in a minute, I'm going to leave you in Toby's capable hands, okay?" I nodded, trying to hide my horror about being left with an invalid. Toby knelt beside me and smiled a little. Bless him, he looked a bit scared.
I'd be scared if I had to witness this destruction though, "Hi, I'm Toby."
"I'm Lauren." I answered to him. Although there was silence between us, the area surrounding us was anything but quiet. There were stil people screaming out in pain, Medics whispering about various patients.
"They always say things like this at Medical School, don't they? They try and prepare you for the worst but it's completely different being spoken to about it, then it is to actually witness it, isn't it?"
"Do you got to Medical School?"
"Used too." I smiled, "I'm a fully pledged F2." I bet he thought I was talking bollocks, either that or I'd substained a head injury which was making me delusional.
"Today's my first day, it's not going too great." He told me and I smiled politely, "Maggie doesn't think you're doing terribly. Trust me, she's not shy to voice her opinions especially if you're doing rubbish."
"You know Maggie?"
"She's a family friend." I answered. There was silence again, either of us not really knowing what to say. I just wanted to get out of here before everything fell on top of me and crushed me even more than what I already was.
"If I'd known I'd have been caught up in this today, I would've made sure I brought Monopoly, we could've finished a game by now." He smiled and I found myself smiling back. He wasn't too bad, he was just like me really.
Scared of everything around us.
"Could you get my father for me?" I asked. As I did, I suddenly became very sleepy. I found my eyes closing and I knew I shouldn't sleep but I couldn't find the energy to fight against it.
The last thing I heard was Toby repeating my name and darkness take over me.
jottings — Set during Series 22. If you like it enough to favourite/alert, I hope you'll leave me a review.