Turtle POV:
I get up and go to the lair to have breakfast. My brothers are sitting there, and they look at me surprised, worried. Even Raph, who never cares of me, but today is different. Today is April 1st. I'm feeling tired. I don't go to train. Not on this month. My father is really worried, he thinks every year I'm worse, but not even he comes to sermonize to me. I get to my room, and have some sleep. Mikey tries to kid on me, but Raph stops him. He scares "What? Is it April already?" His child voice.
Why is April so bad? It's not bad, it just... brings me back hard memories. It brings to me the dark, the sadness I felt that day, which prolonged to the whole month. This days make me sick, and I can stay 20 hours sleeping every day on it.
I wake up. It's just me and Spike, Raphs pet, awake in the room. My brothers are sleeping. I go out and walk. This won't help it, but I do it each April since it happened, and I don't want to become too lazy. I stayed patient the whole night waiting for the dawn, the same dawn I saw that day, the day I lost her, when I noticed I wasn't strong enough to protect her, to protect anybody. Sitting here, I think. "I don't want to fight anybody else, I don't want to give more false hope, and I don't want to make promises I won't fulfill"
I remember her, and a tear rolls down my face. That's all. I'm done. Now, I have to go back home before my family wake up and notice I wasn't there.
That evening I saw Leo. "Donnie, you look… smiling" I actually was smiling. I was in a really good mood, on my way to training with the others. "I'm just glad April's ending. Why should I be sad?" They looked at me strangely. April wasn't ending, but I realized there's no reason to cry. Compared to my brothers I might feel weak, but I'm sure they'll take care of me. We are loyal to each other, and when we lose, we have to face that.
On today's training I competed Mikey. He looked at me curious. And when he jumped to make a back-flip, he accidentally hit with Raphs Shell. Raph threw him to the air and Mikey landed on me, we were both on the floor, when he said: "Man, if April was here, she would be laughing at us".