Disclaimer: I don't own Fairytail, if I did Juvia would have more screen time, cause she is one of the best characters ever.
Have you ever felt so alone that you didn't quite understand it yourself? Until you broke down crying and started talking about it to someone else?
I have. In fact, it's right now. I've ever felt this low ever. Maybe, getting my heart broken by a boy would've been easier to handle because then, I would've known my 'friends' would be there to hold me and help me forget but right now, there was no one.
My thoughts are clouded. By that, I mean, all I can think of is about the times I was left alone when they were out with each other, having fun. All I can think about are the good times that I thought we shared and I go back to thinking about how I was always left alone.
All this bitterness I feel for a while, soon gets covered with all the sadness in me. But then, it's like a cycle and I can't put how I feel into words. Do I feel a sort of betrayal? I don't know. Should I be mad? But why? Am I sad? Yes. Did I see all of this coming? Yes. But I had hoped that it wouldn't. But it did.
People say, 'friends' come and go. And all that, I really thought that it wasn't the case because they weren't really 'friends' to begin with. Maybe it was always me that was the problem. Maybe it was never them.
The thing that comes with being 'friends' with someone are the memories. The memories… that were supposed to be the best times of your life but now, they're tainted with this overwhelming sadness and loneliness that I'm left to always face by myself.
The thing that comes with being best friends are all the promises you make with each other. Especially when all of you believe that you'll be there for each other forever. But the problem with promises are that too many people break them, far too often.
But what can I expect? My parents were never there to break them, and these kids, weren't my friends. They never will be my friends, no matter how much I tried to be there's. It was never enough. I was never enough.
I heard someone say that after bad days… good days follow. That makes me feel hopeful for the days that have still yet to come. I don't know. I hope there are good days waiting for me. For them too. Even if they were mean to me, or were not my 'friends'. That doesn't mean I don't wish them well. I hope they all have happiness in there world. My parents, the kids at the orphanage. Everyone.
But eventually I found my happiness… or should I say sunshine.
And that was the day I joined Fairy Tail.
A/N: Here is a one shot about how I thought Juvia would probably feel from the orphanage, or the abandonment from her parents. Well, we all don't really know her story, or even why she was at the orphanage so I just created my own personal reflection of what could of happened, or how she felt! but anyways, reviews are awesome, and criticism is welcome as well! Thanks for reading :)