A/N: Updated version of my old story, re-uploaded for you guys :)
Bec xoxo
He has been gone for over a hundred days now, marking them with little scratches on the bottom of his shoe, all he can think about is her and his son, every time he closes his eyes he sees her, holding their precious son, their miracle child.
All the lies that they have told to protect themselves so many times over the years together, both as partners and as a couple, now are all catching up with him and he is forced to hide in order to protect the ones he cherishes dearly.
He may be so far away from them right now but they are constantly on his mind and permanently in his heart. Whenever he manages to sleep, he dreams of them, having a happy life somewhere, away from all of this, which threatens that which they treasure so much now.
Whenever he does dream now, it is always about her, or them and their son. Sometimes these are happy dreams, where he is left feeling empty inside when he wakes up and reality hits, but occasionally, his dreams aren't so pleasant, he dreams of being unable to return to them and never again seeing them and it is these dreams that have him craving the awake time, when at least then it is only his conscious mind that can torture him.
He swears that the roads never end, although maybe, he thinks, that is because they are only taking him further from where he wants to be. He has been questioning lately what the point of all this is, why he has to run and hide when he could be with them, protecting them himself, rather than having to rely on someone else to. Why can't he just go home? Life is overrated he thinks, or at least maybe the truth is, after all, is it worth risking his chance at real happiness? But these thoughts are quickly squelched as he remembers that he can't go home, not until she says it is safe.
He knows that no matter what he knows or where he could possibly go, it wouldn't, couldn't make his love for them lessen by any amount. When ha can come home and everything is fixed, said and done, they will all leave together, as a family and go somewhere where they can be safe and their son can grow up and have a happy, safe normal life with loving parents.
Where they CAN go and not have to worry about threats on their lives or silly prophesies or government conspiracies. Somewhere that they can go and leave their old lives behind and try and forget about all that has happen and all that could happen and just live in the moment, happy just to be with one another, safe at last.
For now, he will stay tucked away in his little 'hidey hole', knowing that for the moment that is all he can do to protect them. Knowing this is the only thing that stops him every morning from running straight back home, into her waiting arms.
Here Without You – 3 Doors Down
"A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face, A thousand lies have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same."
"But all the miles that separate, disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face."
"I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind, I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time. I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in m dreams, and tonight girl, it's only you and me."
"The miles just keep rollin', as the people leave their way to say hello. I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah, yeah."
"Everything I know and anywhere I go, it gets hard but it won't take away my love. And when the last one falls, and when it's all said and done, it gets hard but it won't take away my love."
"I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind, I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time. I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams, and tonight girl, it's only you and me."
END.